（英文播客）英专生的自救之路 - 节目列表

bgm：LingLing 小腿-calves 1. 七点半全身暴汗的我是最粗糙的。晨跑计划的最近。白天延长Daytime is prolonged。我在早晨七点半聆听自己的心跳，我没有梳头，以乱糟糟的头发、以不精致有痘痘的脸an unrefined face full of acne出现在不专业的户外，我决定开跑。我没擦防晒apply sunscreen，挥汗如雨sweating profusely/sweating like rain地完成了3km。我知道我正在形成肤色不均的皮肤 uneven skin，可那又怎样，我感到无比畅快 relieved。但当我暴汗完还不到8点钟去咖啡店拿咖啡的时候，我觉得我好棒。像这样的早晨在提醒我“我可以”，让我意识到别人的眼光根本不重要。穿一件200块的衣服给我的愉悦远不如跑2km。 2. 早上学了3h。图书馆的熟面孔。谁都喜欢努力的人。人在努力的时候是发光的。我也逐渐在成为一个“熟面孔”，一个每天努力的人。我们无言，但常常眼神交汇。We are silent, but our eyes often meet. 我们在各自的时钟里努力地过活，我们在不同的赛道上同时奔跑。we run simultaneously on different tracks. 3. 羡慕。我一直都是一个梨型身材a pear-shaped figure ，一直都是一个下半身偏粗的状态had a relatively thick lower body. 这样的身材让我在从小到大的体育赛事中崭露头角。Such a figure enabled me to stand out in sports events from childhood to adulthood. 但青春期puberty过后，我逐渐充气、发育puberty，我开始不喜欢自己的小腿，我开始羡慕那些天生四肢纤细的人puberty。米色beige头发很瘦小的女孩对一个男生搭讪。我作为一个陌生人目睹了从昨晚到今早的搭讪。这是一种散发着自然的自信的搭讪。This is a kind of conversation that exudes natural confidence. 她很漂亮，白皙瘦削的皮肤在紫色的宽松格子衬衫中很吸睛。Her fair and slender skin catches the eye in the purple loose checked shirt. 我就像一个带着泥土的土豆一样望着、偷听着。我是如此羡慕，是如此希望也能拥有她那样细细的小腿，不尴尬地随意穿上leggings。I am so envious and so wish I could have such slender calves as hers and wear leggings casually without feeling embarrassed. 可是，不要陷入在比较中。我立刻提醒自己不要恍神be distracted，不要陷入在无意义的比较中，不要和其他人一起欺负你自己。not to get stuck in meaningless comparisons, not to bully yourself with others. 要狂奔向你想去的地方，要相信你也可以得到她有的，而你还有许多她没有的。与其说我是羡慕她的身材，不如说我是羡慕这种自然的“自信”。我不想要偷走她的自信我也无法偷走，我想要建立我自己的。Rather than envying her figure, I am more envious of this natural "confidence". I don't want to steal her confidence, and I can't either. I want to build my own. 4. 不该被指责的寄居蟹。Hermit crabs that should not be blamed. 《未知的首尔》里面有一句话，未知说自己就像一团垃圾。a pile of garbage 她的外婆说，感到痛苦选择逃避的时候，明明就像寄居蟹躲避天敌一样，是不应该被指责的。“你以为你被全世界霸凌，可是你发现加害者perpetrator 只有你自己。”

bgm：爱爱爱（2009live）-方大同 00:22 Start 1. 安装家具 Installing furniture给我切实的满足感。刚才做了一堆家务house chores，安装椅子和小推车trolley都需要体力。放轻松，我需要吃足够的事物，才能干足够的活儿。我要完成许多事，保持一个健康的心态去面对食物和自己的身体。你要健康地活，而不是达到了所谓的理想体重之后没有精气神feeling listless、抑郁和烦躁irritable。Functionality. 05:38 2. 原来我和植物一样需要光合作用 photosynthesis 去图书馆，把自己放在人流里。 懈怠Slackness 表演型人格The acting personality 09:09 3. 独居生活 我好像不惧怕独居了，我想我会非常想念这段独居生活。我甚至希望所有人都不要回来，我一直自己生活。我只需要通过网络和亲朋好友慰问、分享琐事share trivial matters with my relatives and friends 。我不确定这样的想法是否正确，听上去有些避世reclusive。但，这至少证明此刻我是享受的、且有能力应付一切。把自己当芭比娃娃一样好好养 a Barbie doll。 我好喜欢这种完全自己说了算，我的一天由我安排。我的人生，很难有这样完全自由自主的时刻。比起工作，这也算是一种向往的人生 a kind of life one yearns for。我的确不确定我能不能考上，但，谁也不能保证我考不上。我总觉得，我之后的人生很难有这样长时段的自我相处。“在你保持远视的情况下，不断有新的选择是很好的。It's great to keep having new options while you remain farsighted.”而如今，我确实是正在走向广阔的地方，我正在往高处走。 13:12 4. 马拉松 刚才有同学来问我关于考研政治的事情。进度。他对自己的正确率焦虑 accuracy rate。我能感受到他的焦虑。我作为一个旁观者onlooker，我告诉他这是很正常的事情，要继续前进，要坚持下去，调整好心态，做你该做的事情，这，是一场马拉松。而我，我因为不想工作，所以我必须拿下这场考试，我无路可走。 14:04 5. 物极必反。不要休息耻感。 When things reach an extreme, they will reverse. Don't rest on shame. 循序渐进的魅力The charm of gradual progress. 昨天临时起意，也是因为眼红on a whim and because of envy，突然下定决心想要五点半起。结果一整天都在一个混沌的状态里。As a result, I was in a chaotic state all day long. 中午又睡觉 took a nap，同时没有好的精神状态去学习，反而学不进去。我就这样睁着眼睛看着字， I just stared at the words with my eyes wide open. 无论出不出声都无法让知识进脑子。不过，这是一次自我的探索和尝试。我意识到我不是机器，我需要休息。而状态是最重要的事情。没有了睡眠，一切都白搭。不要太纠结时长。Without sleep, everything is in vain. Don't be too obsessed with the duration.五点半起来之后我看了视频，找一些开题报告的灵感。慢慢完成吧。

bgm：心形圈-蔡依林 大家好啊，不知不觉就录了那么多，嘴巴都说干了。嗯。 00:26 啰嗦中文开场白 03:35 Start 1. 有时候我也不知道我是为什么要跑步。 2. 07:41 欲戴王冠必承其重If you want to wear a crown, you must bear its weight. 09:42 我这么做，是因为我就是这样的人。你必须从心底里这么认为。听上去有点像洗脑。有建模一样的身材a model-like figure。 11:07你把美丽的身材设为屏幕壁纸wallpaper，你希望你的肌肉像彭于晏一样，你希望你和张元英一样瘦。病态Morbid。有毒的 Poisonous。11:50xhs好可怕 terrifying，所有人的隐私都无处遁形everyone 's privacy has nowhere to hide。但是哪有这么容易的事情呢？这件事值得我努力，值得我付出。This matter is worth my efforts and my dedication. 3. 12:49 学习好像也不是痛苦，只是无聊。蚊子变少了，一天到晚就和自己说话。中午花了好多时间在买收纳柜storage cabinets 。韩剧Korean drama一集很长也没看完。 14:41唯一大笑大哭的时候是在看韩剧。嗯，最近在看的是《未知的首尔》Our Unwritten Seoul。我又错峰看剧哈哈哈哈. I watched the drama at off-peak hours again.。 16:32 事实上一个人待着我的确是在变更好，只是忙完之后，闲下来容易想东想西。一个人做选择，一个人努力。考研，就是一个人的战斗啊。The postgraduate entrance examination is a solo battle. 4. 17:20 饮食。如何培养自然的食欲啊。我没有很严重的饮食障碍ed，20:48 我觉得我只是需要饭搭子。真有人陪我我又会嫌烦，好像又是一个人更自在。就是这样复杂的心情。 5. 21:27 最近睡眠也一般。时间一天天地在过去。最近好热啊，每天都是被太阳晒得很烫很烫I'm scorching hot from the sun，但是我知道我不出门是不行的。早上去图书馆学了政治复了会儿习。 23:00对了，我干嘛这么悲观 pessimistic。我这几天开始复习了。这是一件最恶心最痛苦的事情，就像回看你的错题集 collection of wrong answers。我必须面对自己的遗忘，诚实地面对自己。最后，再加点时长吧。再多做点吧。我觉得我还是焦虑。 21:27为了不让自己这么焦虑，快点写完一份开题报告交差吧hand it in as soon as possible，可是每天又有要复习的内容。 6.24:59元气，元气，元气！为什么郁郁寡欢。

bgm：爱得起 00:29 He said maybe I can do a longer episode. 02:55 1. 我既多愁善感又自私自利。I'm both sentimental and selfish. 05:05 If there were a competition, I must be the best debater. 05:49 挥手告别后，我的独居生活正式开始（my solitary life）。 06:05 我不知道我们下一次什么时候见面，我的心里空落落（My heart felt empty. ），我让自己摆脱这种不成熟immature的分离焦虑。毕竟眼下我的任务只有一个，我应该关注的事情是沉下心学习。是上岸。(getting ashore） 06:55 如果把我所有的心情波动都归结于舍不得，归结于我们之间的友谊，这也是虚伪的，是片面的。If all my mood swings are attributed to reluctance or the friendship between us, that would be hypocritical and one-sided. 还有一个更重要的原因，那就是这次分别意味着我要独自面对浩浩汤汤的学习任务，而我本人并没有任何的信心去攻克这座山。我始终是自我怀疑的。(I have always been self-doubting.) 07:55 2. 间歇性的鸡血不管用了 Intermittent adrenaline doesn't work anymore. 09:22 上海书展之旅让我意识到：真正的动力应源于对美德的追求，而非世俗成功。归来后我告诉自己必须专注学习。 那些想要达到世俗层面的成功的人，是永远无法获得持久深层的动力的。“Those who aim for success at the mundane level will never be able to obtain lasting and profound motivation.” 11:15 3. 逝去的时间无法追回，剩下的日子我又该如何珍惜？The time I've lost can never be retrieved. How should I cherish the remaining days? 学习的搭子说我这样来回奔波是很耗费时间的。It was very time-consuming for me to keep running back and forth like this. 在我决定要去一直到我现在回来，我也都活在惶惶的焦虑中。 12:11 我也不知道自己现在做到哪里了，我只知道自己还没有使出全力。All I know is that I haven't exerted all my strength yet. 当然，人是永远不会满足的动物。我又无时无刻不在与懒惰抗争。But I am constantly struggling against my lazy nature, which is my inherent flaw. 13:14 4. 每个人都会状态起伏，安慰别人的时候非常理智客观，但真正实践才是最难的。When comforting others, one is very rational and objective, but the real practice is the most difficult. 13:43 复习是最艰难的修行：它要求你打破重建，在枯燥中直面自己的不足。安慰他人时我们理性清醒，自我实践时却举步维艰。rubbing and trampling oneself, and facing oneself honestly. 14:46 5. 运动重塑我崩塌的自信心，这是我唯一最能相信的抓手。我感觉一种无法言喻的苦痛包围着我，而我需要反思自己的欲望，合理安排自己的经历和时间。Exercise has restored my collapsed self-confidence. It is the only handle I can trust the most. I feel an indescribable pain surrounding me, and I need to reflect on my desires and arrange my experiences and time reasonably. 15:39 努力耻感 16:19 雕刻 16:43 任何人都无法自欺欺人。 17:28 一切的自我欺骗都是漂浮的，站不住脚的。

bgm: 十分钟的恋爱 200期了，我的小乌托邦、垃圾堆、我的小破播客！谢谢你们陪我一同成长，你们的每一条评论我都有看！ 博主小红书：没有毛孔 02:22 Let's start! 04:29 人人渴望高能量 05:42 每天的任务量是不均衡的，第二天不像前天那么容易了 Today's task is totally different than yesterday so I should start that a different attitude. 06:01 改变懒驴推磨的状态，要快刀斩乱麻 How can we stop the condition of being a lazy donkey and grinding the mill everyday.（懒驴推磨） * 06:49 关键点一：状态！状态！状态 Set a good condition. 不要油头不要熬夜，用一个清爽清醒的身体去迎接挑战。 07:26 I stay up late I find my body will be oily ener tired tired so first is to keep yourself energetic for the physical body. And second. * 07:42 关键点二：心态！心态！心态！ Set a good mindset. You should look for the postive perspective like you should grasp what you have presently and remaining calm and composed yourself. 08:16 我对自己的成果不满意，得不到及时反馈 I'm not satisfied about my outcome so it's easy to give up if I got this mindset it's negative but. The better one the better ways to boost morale. 而录制这期的时候是下午一点半，我拥有的其实远比我失去的要多得多！ 09:46 急功近利，看不到投入产出比就跳脚 You find my mindage just collapsed because I didn't see the input and output ratio. So I'm really eager for a more quicker success. * 10:07 关键点三：扔掉你的phone! 做一个现充 Throw away your telephone and all the electronic devices and do live charge I mean return to your real life return to your daily life. 10:53 充斥的是过载的垃圾讯息，制造的是必然而不必要的焦虑 11:50 我从喜欢的博主的高能量vlog中获得的启发 12:59 在她成为一个美国留子之后，她的生活重启了 Came to her life a brand new life a brand new lifestyle and she's standing in the new decision the new crossing so everything was new and for her she she became as an new as a new international student. So sending the new stage of her life she got new enthusiasm. 13:32 反思为什么我失去了从前的激情？如何找回从前的每一次打鸡血的状态 Just looking back to myself, why I lose all my passion is because I was really longing for my new achievements but when I really calm down to do something I find it's not easy. 14:03 美化了道路，弱化了阻力。成功的路上荆棘丛生，一蹴而就是异想天开 14:21 用最快的速度找回你的初心和激情，然后用最短的事情了结最痛苦的任务。 So the right way is to get you enthusiasm and try your best to finish your task in the shortest time because trust me if you didn't finish it at the right time or the quickest time that means it definitely will become harder and more difficult for you to do after that.

bgm：Time of Our Life Topic: Functionality 01:32 Start. 02:56 1. 蚊帐 Mosquito net 起因：蚊子包、噪音。 烦躁、影响睡眠。Be agitated, affect sleep. 满头大汗，退货很累（Sweating, returning goods is exhausting.） 蚊帐高度并不合适、而且只有一个开口。使用起来没有那么方便。但同时刚需（ the essential needs）是满足的，能继续用。功用性。（functionality） 04:12 2. 尴尬会传染！ 取蚊帐快递的时候遇到“半生不熟”的同学。 恋综里的女嘉宾同样也散发出尴尬的气场。 想象大法帮助简历自信。如重大考试时，想象自己喜欢的博主会怎么做。 只要你不尴尬，尴尬的就是别人。 06:53 I would use a trick like imagination so imagine yourself as someone you love as someone is confident we also help yourself build up your confidence. 09:28 So we should look at the problem from another perspective from a morere active perspective like me are read I studied one day for six to seven hours it still um. You know if you compare to others you find others could learn more than ten hours but there's no end on this competition there's no end on comparison and you should focus more on. Your own accomplishment on your own temple. 10:03 3. 专注于已经完成的事情。专注你的功用性（functionality） 换一个积极的角度来看问题。 6-7个小时的学习时长已经很好了。 目前我已完成的考研任务有 5-6套真题、过完主要的专业书等。这些任务不是凭空自己会完成的，也是需要我投入时间成本的。导向自己关注已完成的成就与进步，重视自己的价值。 So sixty seven hours a day is already very good. And also everyday or gradually I will add on this time and i should focus on is my project it's what I have done is not the time it's not the length of your study time. 10:22 昨天夜跑3公里。不和专业跑马运动员比较，我只是一个业余爱好者，而跑完3公里后不吃力的状态与今早上秤有1公斤的掉秤都是我进步的证明。 And moreover yesterday I ran three kilometres. It's easier than the past so I can find there's one development But if I compete myself with a professional ones with a professional Marathon runners I'will find this still a lot GAP between us I'm an amateur (业余爱好者） just a lover about running Stay relaxed and also help you to go deeper to grow further. 11:54 掉秤 Nearly one kilogram. 12:56 鼓励自己将重心转移到已完成的事，耐心度过平台期、姨妈期储水等人生中所有的过渡期和瓶颈期。 13:244. 两天后要去上海新书分享会却没有时间看书，与此同时开题报告还没有选题和任何推进。时间在缩短，如果我只关注没完成的任务我会更加焦虑。因此要转移专注点。 After two days I will I will go to Shanghai to meet my favorite influencer . I don't have time to prepare for it 13:57 5. 哄自己，把自己当男朋友/女朋友一样哄，越是遇到挑战越是要疼爱自己。 What I should do to reflect on my functionality reflect on my accomplish what I have learned in the past The trick that is to comfort yourself to teach to treat yourself as if you were an a a confident. 14:39 as if you were your your boyfriend your girlfriend you should comfort yourself you should care for yourself and you make yourself happy when you met challenge 15:05 像渔网、蚊帐一样抓大放小！ At your accomplishment and let go of the minor once you should just to take yourself as a net as the mosquito net or maybe the fishing net and to build your confidence.

bgm：半句再见-孙燕姿 00:23 Preview 00:52 稀碎的、极度不充足的睡眠 my sleepy is not so good and you know why you have an inadequate sleep that means you can never be so efficient. 01:40 The first the trigger is my sleep or why it is so fragmented 03:15 睡前当然要亲密陪伴我的手机？ 04:18 被蚊子骚扰至凌晨两点半 I was really troubled by the buzzing of mosquitoes. 05:59 放了好几个播客还没睡着 06:56 第二天买了个全包围蚊帐 07:15 日程上的小事情能助我稳定生活秩序不受外界干扰 07:28 Is that I find the trivial tasks make up the order of my day that means I need this trial task I need some of my routines that everyday day I need I could do it's like I need to water the flowers I need to read I need to run and I need to write something 07:53 没有这些事情我的生活会找不到定点 Let myself dive into the I dive into the study I mean sometimes if I feel really tired I will let myself off the track and let myself be disordered I don't want this happened so I need this trivial task I need that to you know just to start my day 08:18 至少我能完成这些事，我的生活没有破碎，一切，至少这些在我的掌控之中，而我，还有价值 but this time these little things just can confirm that you're life that you're valued. 08:38 友谊 09:12 有反馈真好 10:07 我们都心知肚明，我们都惧怕阶段性和渐行渐远 Because of the space we can't see each other frequently as now we can never be so frequently touch each other chat with each other and also sent our letters to each other 手写信真好，邮件真好，文字真好，有反馈真好 我将考研以外的事情推到一边，不再在水产市场上售卖实体物品 I recline every trading except for the electronic materials in the second hand market. It's quite time consuming and also energy-consuming. 开题报告开始催了But my teacher is urge me to choose the topic for the opening report 每一个最后一年同时要备考考研的学生都要经历的why can't school just to post this task for a while but also I realize that it is also the common problem that everyone uh for the final. 13:20 因为睡眠不足，亡羊补牢，晚上才开始学的昨天 13:54 相信自己，持之以恒 The most important is not to give up we have ourselves doubt and we have our anxiety but one thing is more important that is never give up you need to continue you need to take one thing by another one by one and you need to give your yourself everyone you need to push yourself urge yourself 14:23 大多数人没有智商上的鸿沟，只看谁能更好地沉住气扎进去 More importantly is to encourage yourself is to believe in yourself you have the time you have your energy and you have the ability we dont have a really huge GAP about our intelligence so the only problem is whether you can manage every time

bgm：蜕变 00:25 本期超级混乱，超多话题想分享，无逻辑，乱聊 01:35 话题一：老生常谈的性别议题 1. 男女生体力的差距 （strength gap） 跑步前在我旁边的男生可以以丑陋夸张不科学的跑步姿势（running posture）和呼吸频率（breathing rate）轻松的超过我。 而我却要花费更大的力气（ exert even greater effort ），超越我能力的局限才能达到他的步频与步幅（beyond my limit to reach the stride）。 不公平，不对等。我单纯充满了对该性别基因优势的羡慕。 但作为男生同样也有其需要受到的压力。（pressures that need to be endured） 身高。（height） 06:46 情感释放。（emotional release） Mostly the girls will suffer more from the emotion from one relationship from. One break up and ah in most of the time it is applicable it is ah it makes sense. 2. 男女生在恋爱中的需求不同 “低成本low cost”“保留式reserved” 搭子文化，利益关系 胆小的timid 08:35 话题二：我与某男生的冰释前嫌（My reconciliation with a certain boy）（院校报录比admission ratio） 10:49 我给今天过生日的朋友准备礼物email 我的交往观的改变 11:52 话题三：我在交易市场上的卑微状态（My humble status） 现实里耀武扬威，网络上唯唯诺诺。 In reality, they show off their power and authority, but on the Internet, they are submissive and timid. 我和椅子的故事 快递员deliveryman30分钟迟到 3个快递站express delivery stations 都说无法包装（packaged） 以体积计算（calculated by volume） 30元快递费（express delivery fee） 亏本买卖 半天的浪费 直到现在无法回到状态 但同时某交易市场也在悄悄改变着我的消费观（my consumption view） 15:29 长期主义、不随潮流Long-termism and not following the trend 话题四：失控就像坐滑梯一样容易 今早的装修I woke up with the noise about renovation. 连锁反应（没跑步）

bgm：Ling Ling-黑裙子 00:29 Topic: Virtue 01:35 偏离道德/失德的事情屡见不鲜 Nowadays also there are some problems we could see from the news a lot of bad news that something deviated from virtue. 01:52 最近在读《如何从敌人身上获益》，我想在考研复习之余，利用我的休息时间，探出更多的视角，保持开阔而持续的思考。 Recently I read the book named how to benefit from the enemy. I also want myself in addition to relaxation I also want myself to learn something or maybe just to Switch my perspectives and to learn from other new and broader perspective. 02:42 如果能抢到预约或许我会在几天后再去一次SH，但我会速去速回，毕竟节奏最好还是不要被破坏比较好 And by the way if I can you know if I can secure a reservation for her new book I will have another chance to go to Shanghai to attend the new book sharing session but if I can get this time I will go in a hurry and then come backck in a hurry because you know I have a very t schedule and I don't want my table to be changed to be disrupted. 03:21 济州岛旅行的确是让我一时陷入迷茫和焦虑了，昨天逼着自己好好睡，果然，今早拥有了全新的精神百倍的状态（从而使我能有时间和心情录这期播客） Uh I used to be very anxious when I came back from my Jeju island trip but yesterday I push myself to sleep well to sleep earlier... 04:40 今天做真题发现自己的量变真的引起了质变，可喜可贺。也更有信心面对接下来的备考 Today I did have a a a real test questions for my major and I found that. 05:04 网课老师也是这么过来的，每一个考研的人都是要从不懂到懂，从不熟悉到熟悉。这是一条漆黑而漫长的路，你要做自己的明灯。 And today I also learned some online courses and in the online course the teacher also gave me some inspiration and encouragement. 05:47 From not understanding to understanding and from not remembering to remembering well. 06:14 周围人在攀比中内耗时，我反而能冷静地像个心理咨询师 I found my so I found it I tried to um learn some other things from others like my roommates or my other friends I found that people surround me also will'have some a challenge 07:43 So my roommate she tend to fall into a comparative mentality. 07:51 She will consume her internal energy and caused anxiety in the process of competition 08:42 如今我能跳脱出来，及时地分析问题、解决问题 when I have the same mentality as my roommates what I will do is immediately console myself so I will tend to act as a psychological counselor instead I find myself can standing in a more calm perspective than others or maybe because I'm the outsiders so I can see the problem more clearly. 09:31 乐观积极的心态 And now I also Switch my mind that it is better to think more positive. 09:58 I become more self-consistent （自洽）I mean I can accept all my food all my failure I can accept and I can understand myself better 10:35 事实上我变得更加强大了，更能抵御挑战和风险，自我开解和救赎 I just grabs the ability to deal with myself to deal with old mentality Drag myself from all the darkness and if I have some anxiety I just have another solution to deal with that 小红书：没有毛孔（欢迎视奸我的备考生活）

（欢迎关注我的📕：没有毛孔） 在上期播客里，我说要逼促着自己在痛苦中找到快乐，然而在将痛苦转换为快乐的过程中，我们非常容易形成的一个心态就是浮躁。三天打鱼两天晒网。 1. 花了两个小时整理书桌之后再也学不进去的我，就是一个失败者吗？ 首先，我们要摒弃失败者的心态。不要自我打压，也不要给自己消极暗示。持续长久的自信心应该是在一次一次的成功中而不是在失败与打压中获得的。 2. 可持续学习，持之以恒才是我们需要也最难追求的。两天10小时加的学习不如真正养成一个习惯。还是以我最熟悉的减肥为例。在过去那么多次的失败的减肥之中，很大的一个原因是我太看重数据了。比如说我的目标是50千克以下，那么如果第二天体重离这个还差很远，我就得不到及时的正向反馈。我很容易把自己定义成前一天的努力是白费的，这也就很容易让我丧失热情和信心继续下去。平台期就是这样让许多人卡在半路上。 3. 我们必须善解人意，同时也善解自己。不要让自己对休息感到焦虑。人不是机器该休息的时候就要休息。 4. 比如说今天我给自己像前几天一样背了很多的资料到图书馆。群众的书包让我无意识地暗示自己今天完成许多的任务，无形之中给自己增加了很多压力。这会导致我没办法更加轻松高效的专心在我的学习上。 5. 现在还没到晚上七点，一天还没过去，剩下的时间仍然可以好好利用。

Bgm: 自醒-犬舍乐队 欢迎评论交流~ * 00:26 近期高频率更新播客的原因 * 01:27 为什么痛苦是快乐的源泉 the pain is the source of happiness not really contradictory * 01:37 没睡好但硬起床的今天 I didn't rest very well but I still urge myself to get up * 02:18 超预期的圆满完成任务的今天 At this present time I'have almost finished every work of the day. That means today's efficiency is'really high. * 02:57 但并不意味着我全程和老黄牛一样勤勤恳恳、任劳任怨 * 02:59 无数次想放弃不干了但都被我自己的鞭子甩回来了，悬崖勒马，我是一个擅长自我pua的高手。就跟跑800一样，你会自然产生无数个想放弃的念头。 There are thousands of times that I want to give up just like if you are competing with your other classmates in a lap in a a sport competition that must be thousand of time that you want to give up if the distance is really long you must have experienced that. 03:44 悬崖勒马 As if I was on cliff（悬崖）you know several times I just urge myself okay go back to your track and it's just like pushing myself to keep going on like a whip（鞭子） like a horse running and I also must be the master of this horse. * 04:19 带到图书馆的所有书和练习都按照计划地完成了，然后晚餐就吃自制奶粉泡燕麦的人怎么样呢 * 05:07 事实证明我之前的计划确实是超过了能力和不切实际 So I don't need to blame on myself so so much if I didn't achieve that girl because until now when I was really productive I still can't finish everything of them so there was something need to be revised. * 05:52 而当你真正到达目标，野心会和熊熊烈火一样蔓延 There must be something crazier. If you're really productive today you're really energetic and so proud of yourself what you're going to do it's not just to stop or relax. 06:39 You'LL have a really stronger desire to move further. 06:52 像极了高中内卷把明天作业也做了的心态 So that is very much like the mentality like your ideas of the high school students * 07:59 考研给我的生活带来了秩序感 the sense of order, 秩序感 the postgraduate entrance examination has made my life more orderly. * 08:22 奶粉泡燕麦做晚餐后，我更关注精神的满足 I only had my homemade milk powder with old meal. And I care more about my mentality, something spiritual. * 08:54 提高自信的唯一途径——用事实说话，用好的结果证实自己的能力 up to now I still haven't shaken off all the mindset 我依旧没有完全摆脱不安、不自信 但当我看到今日战果，自信是无需多言油然而生的。你无需和一个考第一名的人说不要自卑。 But a good outcome is the best and the only way to build my confidence. * 10:18 继续设条条框框，高要求地鞭策自己下去吧 Keep that high demand and high standard and keep keep myself living in the pain and also happiness I find pain is the source of happiness * 10:37 物质条件优越的人会有更高更深更难解决的烦恼 with good financial support will have another trouble and maybe that trouble is more hard to to be solved. 11:05 xhs上加了一起备考的搭子 * 12:26 搭子的崩溃心态我再熟悉不过 I'm very familiar with his mindet. * 12:29 但这一次我会像一条没脱缰但是有着脱缰的速度的野马一样发疯似的向前奔跑 But this time, I'm going to run far away from that I re want myself to make a difference and I'm going to cast off all the burdens on my shoulders I'm going to be more arrogant and more confident and finally. 改头换面，重获新生 I think it's time for me to be completely changed or transformed.

今天这期播客，我将深刻剖析自己在复习阶段出现分心和焦虑的原因，如果你也和我一样无法专注或者总是拖延，甚至是抗拒开始的话，也许这期播客可以给你一些启发。 1. 任务与能力的不适配mismatch。长时间得不到正反馈，单个目标过于繁重，以至于3-4小时过去了to do list上没有打勾的痕迹，身体自动开始形成抗拒机制resistance。 对以上这一点，目前我想到的方式是1.分解目标 2.不断鼓励自己其实任务很困难，暗示自己已经很棒了 2. 厌学的好学生？东亚孩子的共同困局 the East Asia Dilemma。 我的小学和高中都分别有一次非常强烈抗拒上学的经历。被植根的唯一的成功的指标——只有成绩好才能有好的未来。 如今的网红经济已经推翻了唯学历论，学历是添砖加瓦，但不是唯一。 韩剧《善意的竞争》 Friendly Rivalry残忍揭示了东亚共同困局。唯成绩论下滋养的嫉妒攀比的邪恶的花。我们无法接受不努力不上进自己。唯有成绩才能宽慰自己，才能证明自己。 3. 健康饮食与锻炼是为了获得更高阶的快乐。延迟满足delayed gratification的魅力。最近我开始吃原始自然的食物以及增加运动。运动给我带来了秩序感，而反复节食只会带来紊乱的代谢与浮躁心理。 4. 更深层的原因——我其实根本不相信自己。 跨考的那一刻就不断地提醒自己是跨专业，担心自己做不到已经学了四年的同专业考生。这种对自己的不信任会一直缠绕着我，导致我学习效率低，无法专心。