bgm：爱得起

00:29

He said maybe I can do a longer episode.

02:55

1. 我既多愁善感又自私自利。I'm both sentimental and selfish.

05:05

If there were a competition, I must be the best debater.

05:49

挥手告别后，我的独居生活正式开始（my solitary life）。

06:05

我不知道我们下一次什么时候见面，我的心里空落落（My heart felt empty. ），我让自己摆脱这种不成熟immature的分离焦虑。毕竟眼下我的任务只有一个，我应该关注的事情是沉下心学习。是上岸。(getting ashore）

06:55

如果把我所有的心情波动都归结于舍不得，归结于我们之间的友谊，这也是虚伪的，是片面的。If all my mood swings are attributed to reluctance or the friendship between us, that would be hypocritical and one-sided.

还有一个更重要的原因，那就是这次分别意味着我要独自面对浩浩汤汤的学习任务，而我本人并没有任何的信心去攻克这座山。我始终是自我怀疑的。(I have always been self-doubting.)

07:55

2. 间歇性的鸡血不管用了 Intermittent adrenaline doesn't work anymore.

09:22

上海书展之旅让我意识到：真正的动力应源于对美德的追求，而非世俗成功。归来后我告诉自己必须专注学习。

那些想要达到世俗层面的成功的人，是永远无法获得持久深层的动力的。“Those who aim for success at the mundane level will never be able to obtain lasting and profound motivation.”

11:15

3. 逝去的时间无法追回，剩下的日子我又该如何珍惜？The time I've lost can never be retrieved. How should I cherish the remaining days?

学习的搭子说我这样来回奔波是很耗费时间的。It was very time-consuming for me to keep running back and forth like this.

在我决定要去一直到我现在回来，我也都活在惶惶的焦虑中。

12:11

我也不知道自己现在做到哪里了，我只知道自己还没有使出全力。All I know is that I haven't exerted all my strength yet. 当然，人是永远不会满足的动物。我又无时无刻不在与懒惰抗争。But I am constantly struggling against my lazy nature, which is my inherent flaw.

13:14

4. 每个人都会状态起伏，安慰别人的时候非常理智客观，但真正实践才是最难的。When comforting others, one is very rational and objective, but the real practice is the most difficult.

13:43

复习是最艰难的修行：它要求你打破重建，在枯燥中直面自己的不足。安慰他人时我们理性清醒，自我实践时却举步维艰。rubbing and trampling oneself, and facing oneself honestly.

14:46

5. 运动重塑我崩塌的自信心，这是我唯一最能相信的抓手。我感觉一种无法言喻的苦痛包围着我，而我需要反思自己的欲望，合理安排自己的经历和时间。Exercise has restored my collapsed self-confidence. It is the only handle I can trust the most. I feel an indescribable pain surrounding me, and I need to reflect on my desires and arrange my experiences and time reasonably.

15:39 努力耻感

16:19 雕刻

16:43 任何人都无法自欺欺人。

17:28 一切的自我欺骗都是漂浮的，站不住脚的。