bgm：控制 - 法兹乐队 FAZI 最后的一个月了，还有无数崩溃时刻等着我，我得说点什么 02:20 理想和现实之间是一道鸿沟，如何把编码转换成行动？如何像机器人一样少胡思乱想只管执行？我只想说一句Life sucks. 03:00 “我甚至不需要清晰的计划，只需要无脑重复昨天的我。可是啊可是，我找不到昨天的我了。” I just need to repeat what I have done yesterday.I don't need to draft a new plan for myself for today. However, I'm not the one in the yesterday. 03:22 思想的巨人，行动的矮子。昨天的我去哪了？下一个鸡血峰值什么时候来。 Yesterday I looked so high spirited, I looked so happy, so excited and so energetic or I can be one teacher for myself, I can see something sounds really, you know, meaningful, sounds really educational and sounds really significant, 04:01 我们从不缺方法论 Everyone knows how to be successful. 07:12 嘿，比赛还没完呢。你忘了之前的努力都算数。It's not the end of the day, it's not what you do today that will determine the final, situation, determine the fruit, the final result. You need to think, you need to believe that what you have done before today. 09:52 一个人久了，我忘了这条路上有无数的战友正和我一同焦虑着 Everyone is struggling and wants to be the winner. 10:28 我得看到那份试卷，我得上战场 I know that next month I have to face the final, final game, final battle, I have to act myself like a soldier, prepare myself for all of the weapons, all of the knowledge in my mind, I go to the battlefield and to work, to fight, to fight for my own. 12:01 努力是最可靠的东西了，努力是我唯一的武器 Everyone can rely on their efforts, everyone can compete with others but also be more outstanding because of their efforts, so that's my way being hard working, 13:08 从十一点半到一点半，我精疲力竭却无法入睡 15:10 这份以为一天已经毁了的错觉会让我一蹶不振 It's something like I have already ruined my day 17:04 短视频的背景音乐停止的那一刻我发现自己置身莫大的孤独之中，娱乐过后我感觉到更深的歉疚 But when I have fully engage myself in entertainment, you know, I just sometimes feel lonely, even though I can hear the loud voice, I can smile, I can laugh with this video. 19:33 破天荒的七小时，我什么都没落下，一切都来得及 Seven hours. 23:02 不要提前焦虑 23:25 关注脚下的进步，过去的每一份努力都不白费 Look at all of your efforts. Do you still remember what you have done compared to tomorrow? You should stare at your progress now. 26:13 大白话环节

bgm：韦礼安-好天气 当你状态好的时候你能耕几亩地就耕几亩 When you are in good condition, cultivate as many acres of land as you can 01:07 1. 人的能量真的是很奇怪的东西 忽高忽低(fluctuating up and down) 对我来说现在的我真的不要“见好就收”，好状态来的时候就要狠狠干活。 For me, I really don't want to "stop when things are good" right now. When I'm in a good state, I have to work hard. 05:08 2. 减少选择的成本，不要想，直接做。昨天晚上我已经盘算好了。Reduce the cost of choice. Don't think about it; just do it. 所以今天早上我什么都不想，只专注我第一件要做的事儿。八点多左右出门跑了两公里不到。我一整天都趾高气昂的、神采奕奕的。就像我在一天最开头的时候已经搬了一座山，而一切尚早。这种感觉真好。I was haughty and energetic all day long. It's like I moved a mountain at the very beginning of the day, but everything is still early. This feeling is so good. 06:59 3. 晒被子对我的意义 The significance of airing out quilts to me 晒被子是一件需要天时地利人和的事情。 如果你也和我一样懒那么你一定知道，尽管理论上每一个晴天你都可以去做这件事，但是如果你没有状态的话你是可以半年都不晒被子的。 Airing out quilts is a matter that requires the right timing, location and human resources. If you are as lazy as I am, you must know that although in theory you can do this every sunny day, if you are not in the right state, you can go half a year without airing your quilt. 晒被子首先就意味着这不是一个雨天，你的心里会意识到你在“好好生活”，而这种积极的心理暗示是能帮助你让今天一整天都浸泡在高能量的场域里。Airing out your quilt first and foremost means that it's not a rainy day. You will realize in your heart that you are "living well", and this positive psychological suggestion can help you immerse yourself in a high-energy field throughout the day. 于是今天，我把几乎所有的快递拿回家、晒被子、洗澡洗头，用细小的事情给自己助力。用无数的小胜鼓励自己攻克大山。 So today, I took almost all the express deliveries home, aired out my bedding, took a bath and washed my hair, giving myself a boost with these small things. Encourage oneself to overcome the mountains with countless small victories. 10:06 4. 女生就是有天生的亲和力 问路的帅气阿姨突然与我对视 帮助别人让我感觉灵魂得到了升华 之前我也一直在找我人生的意义，找不到的时候我会寄托于他人，好像帮助别人就能让我更有意义 有点像悼词美德"eulogy virtue" 但我自认为其实我是一个更偏向简历美德"resume virtue"的人 Girls just have an innate affinity The handsome auntie who was asking for directions suddenly looked at me Helping others makes me feel that my soul has been elevated Before, I was also constantly seeking the meaning of my life. When I couldn't find it, I would rely on others, as if helping others could make me more meaningful It's a bit like "eulogy virtue" But I think I'm actually a person who leans more towards "resume virtue" 12:38 5. 每个人都不可能时刻保持高能量。偶遇考研的“战友”，当我能量满满的时候有的人可能正在低谷，所以我想一切都是暂时的。当属于你的那道浪来的时候，你要告诉自己“我准备好了！你赶紧的！” No one can always maintain high energy.I happened to run into my "comrades-in-arms" who were preparing for the postgraduate entrance examination. While I was full of energy, some of them might be at a low point. So I think everything is temporary. When the wave that belongs to you comes, you should tell yourself, "I'm ready!" "Hurry up!" "

bgm：跟悲伤结了帐 - Gareth.T,揽佬SKAI ISYOURGOD 00:45 1. 拖延的任务就像一根小刺，只要它还没解决，其他一切我都没法专心去做，我没法自欺欺人。 我终于交了我的修改后的outline，这就像一块石头，它压在我心上太久太久。而今天，也就是ddl的最后一天，我终于做到了。 05:48 2. That girl的人设是模仿不来的，但我们的生活不就是一天一天骗着自己过吗？ 我与我的作息较劲 某书的自律狂人们 你大可以模仿他们，但你最终会找到适合自己的节奏。模仿是一件很棒的事儿，只要你的role model是积极的，你靠近他，汲取的所有能量也是真实的，那就已经很赚了。 当你真正考研的时候你发现，就像高考一样，你根本不是每天把弦崩的紧紧的，抽不出一点时间玩耍，那是“卷王们”做的事儿，而成为卷王需要能力，我们只是普通人。 07:30 3. 老娘是普通，但老娘也可以伟大。 抓大放小。 可是普通人不意味着放弃。这么多个月以来，我逐渐习得了要摒弃“非一即零”的幼稚心态。鸡血不足是很正常的，你要接受平静的一天 ，在平静的日子里继续完成任务。在最枯燥最乏味的时刻继续坚持。你只需要坚持就行了。而坚持本身就很伟大。 10:06 4. 看马拉松的我永远热泪盈眶 我刚看了一个视频，让我泪流满面。是博主“你好竹子”首个马拉松的视频。我没想到自己会哭，也许是因为我也同样喜欢跑步，我也同样在日复一日的努力，我也同样渴望，摇摆着相信自己，跌跌撞撞地前进。 11:01 5. 坚持过的人才知道，坚持是无数个细小组成的。每一个经历考研的人都会明白，倒数日数字的每一天的缩小是揉进你每一分每一秒的，揉进你无数的挣扎、情绪崩溃。 为所有坚持的人举杯，祝我们都能拿到奖牌。 好了，我现在要为了我的奖牌去摩拳擦掌了。

bgm: Hey Hey You-蔡健雅 02:11 Today must be a big news 02:41 The headmaster in your university would be the most highest level person I mean he was the most respected person. 03:21 Of course it's not a good news 03:52 I just ask for a few more bonus because there's some rule if you have some achievements in some field about the innovation like you published some essay in some journal you'LL get some rewards. 04:33 I asked for the bonus. 05:03 Received the refusal. 05:31 It seems that someone push me to deal with this problem right now I can't delay it I can't procrastinate I can't say sorry can we talk about later I can't do this... 06:01 Hello student you have to give me a phone call... 06:44 I really hate to make a phone call especially for someone I'm not so familiar with and I have to respect him because I was a student he was a teacher. 07:33 There's something wrong with your essay... 08:04 there was something wrong with my PDF 08:14 So I said I got the evidence I could prove for myself. 08:42 To speak for myself. 09:43 it's a messy thing and they don't want to get themselves into trouble 10:50 What is my tongue or what is the content of this letter what should I say in that. 12:09 In fact I was not sure about the final feedback but I think at least I made effort 12:44 there's something need to be justified there's something need to be refined for the rules for the system for the management of our school 14:28 Or else I will even despise for myself 15:25 The only thing to solve nervous is to deal with it the only thing to alleviate your anxiety is to do something. You can never delay it again and again and finally you need to meet it you need to challenge it. 16:09 But I will be confident for me about the solution about the way about my attitude. 16:24 And I think I should get a mature about the solution I could I should let myself be more stronger when I face the challenge today I have some a few moments I feel really upset. 17:17 These moments composed of me to be a real person and to support me to move on. 17:45 And I should be proud of me for that bald time for that brave moment.