BGM：自作多情-周慧敏 八卦预警！这期记录了我的奇妙夜（414），从我怒气冲冲地出寝室门到跳绳遇到智慧老大哥…… 01:21（从这儿开始讲故事）A问我成绩，我老实说我118，他说他95 so this boy he asked me that have you noticed this results and what is your final score so he poses questions to me I replied my score is 118 so what's yours He said he got 95 03:30 他问我多少可以晋级决赛 Among us how many people people can be qualified to you know level up or have further competition. 04:04 结果他进决赛我没进... The final name the final list who can go further just come out. QQ年级群意外地公布了名单，他的谎言就这样水灵灵地被戳破了all of us just noticed the final name maybe about six students they are qualified and I'm not in here but he does. So how how can this come out? the only possible reason is that he lied he didn't tell me the real thing. 05:26 拙劣演技—我没看清，我看错了 And I really got angry and i asked him back I mean um I'm so angry for your action and you should give me one reason one explanation and he answered that. I fine maybe I just make a mistake I didn't see that I didn't see very clearly but all of us know it's really you know it doesn't hold water and we all know that. It's impossible because we will all check our name our ID card our ID card number very clearly... 06:02 蹩脚借口令人发笑 Nothing will be wrong in this whole process but how can you just say it in a very flanky very shaky reason I didn't accept that explanation and evidently I AM not an idiot so I'm already an adult I cannot not accept that very apparent lie I cannot understand why it's quite easy to stay in honest to your friend. 07:15 丑闻越来越多... And one thing more about that you see I'm so angry for that and also I gossip with my friend my roommates 我对别人的感情生活不感兴趣I'm not so interested in any ones scandals or relationship things love affairs 08:51 令人脚趾扣地的Fake shoes event Finally it turned out that you know the the girl she didn't find out she didn't discover that it is a pair of fake shoes I mean I'm not to blame anyone others who buying fake shoes but this pair of shoes if you want to wear fake shoes I think you have to wear it by yourself you shouldn't get it as a gift 09:44 “你的鞋是真的假的”.... Are your shoes fake or not What do you mean All of my shoes are fake who cares I mean I don't care about that I don't care about what you are wearing 10:58 跑出寝室后的奇遇记 I just come out from my dorm just want to jump my rope for a while I have noticed someone as passing by a black shadow 黑影经过我 第二次经过时 他停住了 问我能不能借一下跳绳给他He stopped and asked can I use your ropes for a while and I said of course you can try it and then I realized that he is a foreigner. So at the time it's still very natural I mean just an outgoing foreigner and he wants to try my ropes 他坐在我旁边 于是对话开始了 just have the motivation have the impulse I want to talk I want to share my ideas with this guy and asked him where are you from and he said I'm from Cannes 13:18 我不想被卷入这场游戏猜你说的真话假话 外国小哥说，他不信任你 I don't want to be involved in this game he said he didn't trust you 14:11 如果你觉得失去这段友谊不会影响你，那就说拜拜吧 if you think losing this friendship will affect your life then you should think about how to make up for it 这段关系在你眼里的比重what is the proportion how important this relationship to you and I said maybe sixty to seventy percent this foreigner said in Chinese“难怪” so no wonder 15:29“他不值得” He didn't worth my devotion 15:33 Let's just be stranger. 16:50 因为我不喜欢，所以我有权利斩断这个关系I don't like his way and more and I think I have the right to stop here and I'LL have the right to say no that's just keep a distance 那晚我们聊了许多，文化、教育、性格甚至如何使用ai，一切都是那么的自然友好，尽管我们认识才一个小时 we share a lot of things about our cultural background of about our education and so on our experience. Everything goes so smoothly and at last he also accompany me to my dorm at the gate of my dorm and then we say goodbye and we also shake hands with each other 17:34 相同与不同 we are from different countries we'are quite different even about our skin color but one about the former guy about the fake boy. We're so as similar. I used to think we'are so alike because we found the same province. And so on...

bgm：我真的受伤了（live）-张学友 大家好啊，最近又开始湿漉漉的下雨了，我整个人也因为得不到光合作用提不起劲，蔫儿了吧唧的。本期分享了我昨天去西交利物浦大学开放日参观的所思所想，见识了学校之间的Gap，贫富差距下的教育资源差距，以及70后学姐请客的晚餐上我颤颤巍巍地说出自己的迷茫... 00:16 Preview 00:46 Start from here! 昨日跨省学校组织去江苏-西浦开放日参观，对我来说是很好的一次放空，我需要停下来，想一想，再出发 So yesterday me and my friends and other teachers, students we went to another university we set off from our business university and then we go to another city another province even... it's quite good because I do think I need to stop here for a while and then I started set off again. 01:10 终日浑浑噩噩无所事事快要灵肉分离的我 Because they say that I was just so stressful and aimless I don't know what to do I'm so still wandering every day and I don't find a very emerging time for me to do that I couldn't find one motivation I could push myself to go further so I need to stop 01:31 And OK it's about the open day 开放日 to another university named Xian Jiaotong Liverpool university... 此类中外合资的高校实在是普通家庭望尘莫及的 硬破头皮挤进去或是出国绝不是一个明智的选择 所谓的奖学金补助只是杯水车薪 I think the first impression of me that it's quite far away from me although I have heard some promises that they'will give us some discount or scholarship here but just like if you want to study abroad if you take that determination to go further then you have to understand it's a really huge cost for you so if you don't have the condition for you to cover all expenses then I think you should think deeper and I think it's not appropriate for you. 02:49 金钱拉大了学校之间的巨大师资、设施等差距 I just felt a very huge a very big GAP between that university and us. 02:59 我不是抱怨自己学校 我的学校也很好 我们只是不同而已 I didn't say that I live in a very poor university it's quite different and I'have seen so many things I'have seen the GAP of facilities 设备 or the infrastructure 基础设施like when we went to the meeting hall I find a simultaneous subtitle translation 实时字幕翻译and they got that technology so they could translate on simultaneously 同步地 西化的风格、外向的无惧表达的学生 it's quite western style...students they're all very outgoing and also we see different very beautiful facilities environment like the graffiti wall 涂鸦墙 Immerse yourself in an English environment 外语沉浸环境 04:40 我们都同样被ddl和课程折磨 但收获不同 我总觉得我在做无用功 Also I heard that some of their students they'are struggling for the deadlines like us but in our university although you also have some homework you also have a lot of loads of 大量的 classes but I'will you know I'LL keep keep reflecting myself that what I'VE got today and I find nonsense and I found nothing I'will be really disappointed by myself 05:49 我对自己专业逐渐丧失热情 正像我在晚饭桌上说的“学伤了” I like my major but I don't like to teach 06:12 70后女博士学姐请客吃的晚饭 have dinner with one of our senior学姐, a woman, a doctor 06:32 从丁克到带着孩子满世界体验自由的生活 She used to be a dink 丁克 but now she has a baby and she live in a re very free way, she was respected by all of us 我有好几次试图开口却缺少勇气I have a few moment to interrupt our dinner but I lack of courage 07:04 我没法像我的朋友一样自然而然地滔滔不绝like my friend she could say something and she could you know just she just kept keep talking and nonstop but I could not 我不是学校里的学生干部就好像我没资格发表我的意见 我和老师们都不熟 我不该开口？I'm not the students who served herself for some organization in our university so I don't have that pride or I don't have that courage that ability that can always be the leader in this dinner in or in any other social occasion. 07:45 但最后我还是开口了 我说我对自己的所学不满意 我感到很痛苦 But finally I just say something I dislike my major and I get some injured in my major I mean I'm not so happy about what I'm learning and of course what I rewarded what I was replied was just something so cliche（陈词滥调） 我的回复是应付塞责的that'talking about that you should be happy and you should find what you love and you should study... 08:36 已经转了一次专业 可是我却越学越迷茫 I'm so different...I have already take some now I take some rest I changed my major from French to English 我担心自己考不上研 却又缺少破釜沉舟的勇气I want my joining university in Shanghai I find the GAP but I also I lack of college 09:31 喜欢的podcast独树不成林里树说学外语就是要狠狠砸时间 我有太多不必要的害羞时刻了 The hostess she's saying about her way to learn language to grasp one foreign language especially it takes time it takes energy it takes your determination but I find myself and not so determined 10:01 我到底在害羞个什么劲 I'LL care about other thoughts like in even in the dorm I will become so shy like if now I want to take some shadowing影子跟读 I'm so shy. I don't know what I'm really shy for. 10:53 好朋友考上浙大的研了 我一边庆贺一边焦虑担忧自己的未来 I received a good news these days as from one of my besties闺蜜she was admitted to the graduate school of ZJ university I'm so happy for that and also I become a little bit worried about my y own journey we should take actions and I will push myself in that way

bgm：倒数-陈乐一 00:15 努力走向自律，努力井井有条 Even though I really want to be self-disciplined（自律） I really want to build my body or maybe have regular exercises the week I want to plan I want to follow my plans and just to tick off my items on the to-do list every day I'm really satisfied about myself and I also I feel optimistic（乐观） cause everything is going in a better way and I can feel my progress * 发现一：自私因子——我不想听你聊八卦 The first thing is about my personality I can find some or you can say some traits some characteristics... I find sometimes I'm so selfish 当朋友开始八卦时，我的耳朵自动关闭 so maybe sometimes when one of my friends- She is gossiping about something or discussing about some shortcomings about others 这与我何干？ I feel like what is the connection between this trifle （琐事）and me and I feel like I don't want to be disturbed about that Out of respect（出于尊重）, I listen to her nonsense（无意义的话）... but at the bottom of my heart, I don't want to continue. My ears have really closed! If you ask for my advice, you'll get something not in a serious way（敷衍的回应）.. it's quite contradictory （矛盾的）but sometimes I I also will reflect on myself it is a composition of every day（琐事是日常的拼图） we should show more respect to others or we could express our feelings if you feel uncomfortable or you're not willing to continue this topic ... * 发现二：渣男行为——主动认识新朋友但回过头来发现老朋友更香？ second thing I'want to share with you is I'm also reflecting about and sometimes you want to get to new people/ meet new friends and you will step out ...but finally will find the old friends better 04:15 雅思课给了我认识新面孔的机会但我却感到主动社交的疲惫 Face different and various foreigners your foreign friends you want to make friends with them but it's quite hard and this time I don't want to share about the courage I just want to say... It is not live up to your expectation I mean. 主动搭讪：Step out of comfort zone（跨出舒适圈） 结果翻车：Not live up to expectation（不如预期） 扎心感悟：It's exhausting to be the starter（开启对话的人） 05:10 我本可以与熟人一起坐但我却… Cause you know maybe today I have the choice I could have sit I could have maybe just sat near the former friends I have already none however I just choose to sit in the latest uh in the last rank of this classroom and I feel like I want to see new people so I changed my idea so maybe on to to talk with another foreigner but I feel like he is so introverted he's so shy and I'm trying struggling to find one the interesting topic or what is the appropriate time…if every time I'm the starter（开启对话的人）I don't want to do that it's quite tiring and daunting if you're always take the active action or maybe so I would not blame on any one but I always will also reflect it sometimes it's up to you like you could choose today where you want to sit however maybe you'LL lose the precious time * 发现三：新旧友谊的微妙平衡——我们都在「渴望连接」和「需要空间」之间摇摆 this week and very magical— I have already celebrated some the two birthday party with my friends I can feel some embarrassing moment if I stay with my former old friends and if I stay with my present friends I will also feel sometimes I wanna escape from it you know. I don't want to face the familiar the same face every so we should live enough room for both of us I think it's a good right and I should also have my me-time（独处时间）...

bgm：一个人去巴黎-董又霖 00:27 为什么要努力锻炼？ so why I should still go to the gym to have a a maybe five kilometers running and then I go back why should I take time on that commune（通勤） why should I take time to keep my body strong I don't need that I need time to relax 变成一个懒惰的人是很容易的 懒惰因子顽强且生来在我们体内it's quite easy to let person that our self to be a lazy person it's quite natural because it's lying in our nature 对自己严格一些persuade everyone into believing or into pushing to be a strict person to be strict on yourself 立刻去做，不要给自己的拖延找理由 NO! If we do not take action now maybe tomorrow everything will go back to it's tunnel! 我是过来人 我们都是过来人I have already experienceed for a long time and I think it's time to make change when you have that'so strong desire in your mind I believe tomorrow well maybe you'LL makes a little change. Trust me tomorrow is still like today and nothing will change and if you want to let the rest of your life to live a healthy way to believe a better way you should always be struggle yourself 某书上看到的一个女孩分享她减肥的经历——奇怪的是you should give yourself some support it's quite weird the when to see today on the social media the rednotes one girl shared her story we are flooded with som many things about losing weight especially among girls but the shame is a big and popular topic these days Girls she's saying that and she find herself even become healthy and it's like a healthy circle and you know when she really pushed him herself go to the gym and to do some exercises and to eat healthy food she find herself it sounds quite stressful at first 03:21 听上去是悖论 但自律让整个人的状态变得更好了 相反越懒惰的人会状态越差 我们需要努力与约束 sense her skin are become better and also her her or status on she's become better state, complexion（肤色、气色） and energetic more energetic so you find it's quite it sounds like a paradox （悖论） 03:57 尝到了J人的甜头 I'VE told you that I wanna be a more J person I'm quite clear about on the blueprint （蓝图）or what should I do tomorrow what should do in the next thirty minutes 05:36 I'm trying to make some efforts remind you that today you should do something you have some mission 我开始百日减肥计划的第一天！ one thing more on that worths（*is worth） applaud （*applause N.）is today is my first day of on the the plan I get one plan for one hundred days of losing weight on a loose about five on kilograms so I need to push myself 想瘦到95斤，高中以来好像就没这么轻过，试试吧...since I get into the high school I never reach that figure 减肥是为了让自己有些目标but I do think it's a good think because if you're losing way you're finding something for yourself and you have some plan 今天跑了5km！坚持是最难的事情Today's go about five kilometers running it's not it's a not bad distance right it's not very long but also someone will fail on the first day but I also realize the the more difficult thing is whether you can insist on and stick to goal this time I wanna to live a different life 感觉我们都是行尸走肉 迷茫的生活工作every day it's quite common you sit together with your classmates and I find all of you all of them maybe they have some talents they have some. Ability but I can feel maybe they don't have the courage to say that or they don't have a very strong resolution to change it I can feel that but I don't wanna be one of person among I want to make some change because I think it's my life and may my life is just for once I don't have a lot of time to waste or even though I have I don't wanna to do so I want to make use of my time and do to do something I want to or find something find invest myself so I could go further I find if I just live everyday mindlessly aimlessly I'm sure I'would just become a common person I just want to have my own thoughts I want to think about my really my real desires or my real shots I want to talk to myself and to make some changes.

bgm: 敏感小孩-沙一汀 [播客品质层次不齐，以后打*的就是有字幕和bgm的集，方便大家收听！] [本期喷麦较多...] 00:26 每天都在大张旗鼓地大喊要努力要进步 要有一口流利的口语 Every day I'm yelling I'm shouting I'm waving my flags saying I want to be more progressive I want to hold when very fluent British accent. I want to get higher score about IELTS about any other language exam 00:59 但好像雄赳赳气昂昂活力满满的状态无法持续，我只发现自己愈发的胆怯了，像是触到了什么防御机制 Even more lack of some courage or motivation 01:10 “真正的天赋是你的热爱”永动机的动力就是你的热爱，不要问自己为什么不够努力，你只是不够渴望，否则努力是水到渠成 Today one sentence just hit me—the so called "talent" is just about your motivation/enthusiasm/love so what you really long for if you just really want something then it is your talent sometimes we just be bound for something 人人都有野心 但你的野心真的足够大吗 你真的足够想要吗you see we all have desires but the only problem is what is your real enthusiasm/real love The power lies in your enthusiasm 保研无望的我不应该无事可做 我应该扎实地推进考研准备I want to be an postgraduate I want to be a a very talented person I want to hold something I want to talk fluently 我们缺的是行动力 是一股狠劲when I think too much about this I just lack of the courage to taking action Taking action it's a key point so if you don't do anything else if you don't do anything in reality then all of this. It's just a nonsense 大三意味着大学的尾声 可我却感觉天天都在混 我在浪费我的时间This semester all of it every day. I'm wasting my time and I realize the truth I cannot change I still need to get my diploma I still need to fulfill or to finish all of these school things Maybe I cannot escape from this case. 03:36 小故事一则——雅思课上斐济女孩给我的好丽友派 I want to she to share one more story with you just happened um in my ielts lesson 04:09 我持续抱怨没有语言环境，但事实上我明明可以拥有 So you see I'm complaining all the day 她拍了拍我的肩膀，给了我一个好丽友派suddenly someone just touched my shoulder. She's a very beautiful girl from Fiji. 05:01 她的大方似乎是与生俱来，而我却无法如此自然地外向，东亚人好像擅长自我否定 I find she so outgoing she does everything so naturally and I want to be like her you find myself um most of our Chinese and most of the east Asians we just kept ourselves we prevent ourselves from doing something you know something brave or something against the conventions/ the rules I don't know. 我们无法勇敢却也无法接受平庸we kept complaining every day we are not satisfied about the present right we still want ourselves to be more thinner and more outgoing be more brave. But we cannot take action just the problem we keep complaining but we doing something nonsense all the day 06:48 需要短视频疯狂灌输鸡血骂醒我们 that's why we need to find our motivation to find something we can rely on maybe it's a famous saying or one slogan or lyrics 总在开始畅想 然后止步于此 然后自我失望、厌弃与后悔From the beginning I am dreaming about a wonderful semester but I'find my class cannot not teach me everything then what is my solution-should not give up let all of my talents just be wasted

今天和舍友们一起看了电影《还有明天》 我一方面为电影中提到女性受到的暴力而感动而鼓掌，但另一方面也非常的担忧 在同类型的被贴上女性主义的电影越来越多的被大众所看到的时候，我们应该以什么样的态度对待它们，大家会不会越来越习惯而产生麻木甚至抵触的情绪。是否会有人会觉得我们的争取公平是夸张的，有意挑起对立的。 或许我们应该更加节约的使用我们的语言、我们的创作？ 但同时我也觉得现在的数量还太少太少，我这样的担心应该放在后面。而只有现在鼓励越来越多的声音，越来越多的创作，优质的或者不优质的作品出现，话题被越来越多的讨论，我们才能“还有明天”！

上期录的因为音质的问题，因为我自己的粗心大意，所以不得不删除原来的视频 这是我大三的下学期，由于我转专业推迟了一年的关系，所以一切都好像又给了我一次机会，但同时我内心也隐含着一些外界压力，因为我好像比别人多投资了一些，多投入了一些时间成本，在我没有想清楚的情况下，当然我可能也永远不清楚我做了转专业的决定从法语转到英语，接下来的路，我真切的知道我不应该去美化那条我选择的路，但是同时我好像又无法阻止自己去这么想 这学期是心理压力很重的一学期也是最迷茫的学期，因为大四似乎就要进入一个更快的节奏力，就好像大学的尾声，你必须要思考或者去投入一些考试与找工作了，所以我想要告诫自己不要再浪费时间，也不要再去想东西真心，你现在当下拥有的也不要去责怪自己过多，你已经做得很好了，但是你同时要鞭策自己变得更加的努力去完成一些你该做的事情 比如说，既然我已经报了雅思决定要去考，我就应该好好准备，又或者是我不应该在一而再再而三的纵容自习，每天马马虎虎的背单词，我应该多做一点事情，可是好像就比平时忙的时候做的任务还要少，这是很不应该的事情 同时我也发现自己在更空闲的时候好像无法很好地规划，也许是我心里压力太重或者是状态不好吧，不管怎么说，我希望自己慢慢地找回原来的状态，持续的打击血，让自己忙起来

铺天盖地的有关留学生活的消息充斥在整个网络环境中，人们不得不开始比较，又开始对自己感到难过。为什么我生活在一个如此平凡的家庭？人们感到无力、陷入迷茫。 但在这期播客里，我要说的是我在这学期也开始准备雅思考试。也许我的家庭无法负担起我去出国留学，但这并不意味着我这辈子都无法留学。 同时我也不应该怨恨或者是责怪我的家庭，因为我自己也并没有付出足够的努力，也没有向他们展示绝对的决心。 我希望自己遇见更多的人，为自己创造一个好的语言学习环境，其实有许多机会的摆在我的面前，问题就是我有没有认真对待，对待我的人生。 这期没有对应时间点的字幕了，也比较短，如果你喜欢的话，欢迎任何的评论。

00:25 假期结束 试着找回原来的节奏 I'm going to say goodbye to all of this and I tried to adjust myself to my former lifestyle to my temple 独自去电影院看了花样年华重映、独自吃了贵贵的鹅肝饭、买了爆米花，这是一场专属于我的盛宴 02:26 除了电影里的背德、情爱韵事外（当然绝不仅限于此），我想谈谈别的， 关于我自己 introduce some love affair love story but you know it's not so acknowledged/accepted by normal people, something against morality 牡丹是否有谈论爱的资格？ *sometimes I'not sure about what is a really real meaning of love...Qualification? 04:03 杜绝早恋后毫无过渡可言的进入大肆鼓励恋爱，突然被允许让所有人找不到逻辑、迷茫 it's a gold time for you to finish study finish your education and when get into the encourage will step into that you you're justifying that everything is allowed and the your parents will even encourage you to get into one relationship get into one love affair 而爱并不是你想开始就可以开始的it's not easy if you like me you wanna to be serious and sometimes um people around you is's not so lot you know you don't have a a lot of choices and maybe just because you didn't find someone you really want to 而单身的结果并不应该怪罪于任何人，尤其是不应该归咎于你自己it's not our fault at first and we should not reflect on ourselves for so much because you know there'are a lot of factors that will impress the final result 所有的好感被扼杀，因为我的犹疑，也因为时机不对（扯淡的理由）， 我们没有发展的可能when I was young when I was in a junior high school or even younger maybe I have some some good feelings with someone lack of the courage it also let me Miss a lot of opportunities 09:04 在日本和韩国大叔的搭讪以及寒假里给高中同学的明信片，我有在好好珍惜我的每一份情谊。 12:03 保留灰色地带，迂回的、尴尬的、互相猜忌的浪漫 I want to keep this ambiguity guessing each other's feelings also increases the romantic feelings (你们的留言我都有看，感谢每一个听我频道的人，感谢评论的你们，让我们一起走向好好)

BGM: 大人中-卢广仲 本期是我2025年1月17日凌晨1点左右录的，在静悄悄的家里，我对孤单的自己说下这些，同时也希望拥抱每一个和我一样感到小小孤独的灵魂。 00:00 此刻我们是那样的近，可我却感觉我们更远了 00:18 我短暂脱离了ddl的压迫，可我好像也没有社交更多，甚至更少 It sounds quite weird cause now you finally have some time to spend with your family, you could meet each other, get together watch a movie or a TV show, have dinner together and also you have time to meet all friends you could socialize with each other you could play games, take some photos. Anyway you just have a lot of ways and time and opportunities but I find myself become even more lonely sometimes. We have already shortened our distance and also now I don't need to face the task a lot of tough task like in the final week. And I don't need to prepare for some presentations or be worried about my GPA anyway all of it have already done and I got my final results although it's not quite satisfactory but I have try my best and I should be satisfied by myself... 我已经尽我所能，但考试成绩并不都如我所愿，但我接受。 我被证实是一个J人Today I finally be testified yeah I was testified to be a J person I mean now I'm a real J person. I used to be ENFP but now my MBTI is ENFJ so. I switched from P to J. 我变得更擅长且更乐于做计划，我认为这是好事 It sounds like I become more and more capable for planning something. 02:45 我仍然有许多事情需要完成，比如考驾照，这一次，我想迅速地终结它。（打下这些文字的一个小时后正要去驾校） Take my driver license. A big headache but I have to face it's one reply for me from all of my efforts and I just want to end it quickly. As quickly as I can 03:28 再比如，霓虹之旅的准备以及语言学习（韩日法英...说起来好厉害但是现在只坚持了韩和英） I'm planning to take a trip to Japan/ prepare for my clothes for my cash and also have to I have some plan to study to study my language Korean Japanese French and English. 04:42 手机成了我们依赖的、逃避尴尬的救命稻草。 It will become even more stressed but I find my parents they're not the person's I could you know really talk to And I could feel the embarrassment between my family and I 06:47 不仅是我，所有人都在逃离无聊。比如我的外公 Bored no it's so boring. 06:51 我近期逃离无聊的最快捷的方式就是出去，无论什么理由但是出去 for me one way the most straight way is to take a subway and then you can go anywhere you want 07:45 第二个孤独，友谊。我决定且我认为我有权利在此刻按下暂停键。尽管你和我有感情基础，尽管我们认识多年。 I find I have to say goodbye to one of my old friends, my junior high school classmate. 08:36 不是工作需要人，而是人需要工作。我们节奏不一，在我还不清晰考研与否的时候，她已“尘埃落定”，她不需努力，而这也让她的生活丧失斗志。 Not so pleasant Christmas day because of her late because of her laziness and also we find our temple is not so match. She don't she doesn't need to worry about her future worry about her job everything she has already been qualified but for me. 09:38 她变得自私，扫兴我喜欢的东西，对自己的半小时迟到表现得理所当然，对我们订的餐厅挑三拣四…我再无法接受她的负能量与持续否定，更无法接受她对别人的付出感到理所应当，没有任何歉疚。 I find sometimes she's quite sharp and selfish. 11:41 日本旅行是发现问题之前就定下的，争吵是没有意义的，我选择和平地、愉快地度过这次旅行。 I have to take a trip with you to Japan to go abroad. I don't want to ruin my trip I have to keep peace. But I personally realized I cannot stay really close to this guy. 13:27 我们就像一棵树，有权利选择斩断自己的枝丫branch，切断我们的关系，也会遇到新的人，产生新的联系。 13:37 我们将对自己越来越熟悉，对自己的roots。人生是一场自我探索的旅程 we'LL learn more about ourselves. a process of learning yourself of understanding your choice 15:01 你应该相信并且支持自己做当下你认为对的决定 It's really wise for you to do do something to stop your sadness to stop one unhealthy relationship if you find yourself in a not so good relationships and it's wise and it's a choice forever to say goodbye you have your right and you should trust yourself.

本期视频讲的是我在杭州的三天短程旅行中我与我朋友的一些故事以及我对我自己的想法。 第一个朋友叫袋鼠koala，他是一个非常内向的女孩，由于不像我和sail一样在一个城市读大学，而且我们彼此的性格原因，我们很少有这种机会可以一起见面。 因此，在这次旅行之前，我在前一天晚上1:00还给他写了一封明信片，在今天早上也就是旅行的最后一天，我收到了他的回信，并且在高铁上忍不住的落泪。有些事情仿佛只能在信里才能用最深刻，并且最不害臊的方式说出来。永远喜欢手写信。 树懒说他是一个也不知道怎么处理关系，但是可以给回应的人。在我们漫长的人生中有太多关系都因为没有邀请或者没有回应而越来越淡，我希望我们的友谊可以多一点邀请和回应。 而关于第二个朋友sail事实上在之前的播客里，我也提到了他当时我对我们的关系感到了怀疑，因为在圣诞节那天他表现得非常不好，耽误了我们许多的行程，我好像找不到跟他做朋友的理由。但是这次我们一起在类似胶囊旅店的地方住了两个晚上，我突然看到了他许多的闪光点，他虽然经常迟到以及懒惰，但是他是一个随和的大剌剌的女孩。 最后对我自己，我也发现我越来越擅长，也越来越愿意去做计划，我愿意承担责任，也愿意为我的朋友们和我自己规划。一切都掌握在手中的感觉真好。 喜欢见面，喜欢手写信，喜欢旅游。

本期节目分享了我在考试前夕利用手帐帮我规划每一天的安排，并且从中受益的故事。同时为分享了在最后我从颜如晶的减肥励志故事和赵露思突然的发文感受到的一些新的体悟，我认为每一个人都应该做自己最坚强的后盾，都应该寻找一些出口，找到一些积极乐观的方面去思考问题，同时也懂得如何排解自己大家都不应该成为落井下石的人，而应该互相的温暖彼此。