bgm：我真的受伤了（live）-张学友

大家好啊，最近又开始湿漉漉的下雨了，我整个人也因为得不到光合作用提不起劲，蔫儿了吧唧的。本期分享了我昨天去西交利物浦大学开放日参观的所思所想，见识了学校之间的Gap，贫富差距下的教育资源差距，以及70后学姐请客的晚餐上我颤颤巍巍地说出自己的迷茫...

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昨日跨省学校组织去江苏-西浦开放日参观，对我来说是很好的一次放空，我需要停下来，想一想，再出发

So yesterday me and my friends and other teachers, students we went to another university we set off from our business university and then we go to another city another province even... it's quite good because I do think I need to stop here for a while and then I started set off again.

01:10 终日浑浑噩噩无所事事快要灵肉分离的我

Because they say that I was just so stressful and aimless I don't know what to do I'm so still wandering every day and I don't find a very emerging time for me to do that I couldn't find one motivation I could push myself to go further so I need to stop

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And OK it's about the open day 开放日 to another university named Xian Jiaotong Liverpool university...

此类中外合资的高校实在是普通家庭望尘莫及的 硬破头皮挤进去或是出国绝不是一个明智的选择

所谓的奖学金补助只是杯水车薪

I think the first impression of me that it's quite far away from me although I have heard some promises that they'will give us some  discount or scholarship here but just like if you want to study abroad if you take that determination to go further then you have to understand it's a really huge cost for you so if you don't have the condition for you to cover all expenses then I think you should think deeper and I think it's not appropriate for you.

02:49 金钱拉大了学校之间的巨大师资、设施等差距

I just felt a very huge a very big GAP between that university and us.

02:59 我不是抱怨自己学校 我的学校也很好 我们只是不同而已

I didn't say that I live in a very poor university it's quite different and I'have seen so many things I'have seen the GAP of facilities 设备 or the infrastructure 基础设施like when we went to the meeting hall I find a simultaneous subtitle translation 实时字幕翻译and they got that technology so they could translate on simultaneously 同步地

西化的风格、外向的无惧表达的学生

it's quite western style...students they're all very outgoing and also we see different very beautiful facilities environment like the graffiti wall 涂鸦墙

Immerse yourself in an English environment 外语沉浸环境

04:40 我们都同样被ddl和课程折磨 但收获不同 我总觉得我在做无用功

Also I heard that some of their students they'are struggling for the deadlines like us but in our university although you also have some homework you also have a lot of loads of 大量的

classes but I'will you know I'LL keep keep reflecting myself that what I'VE got today and I find nonsense and I found nothing I'will be really disappointed by myself

05:49 我对自己专业逐渐丧失热情 正像我在晚饭桌上说的“学伤了”

I like my major but I don't like to teach

06:12 70后女博士学姐请客吃的晚饭

have dinner with one of our senior学姐, a woman, a doctor

06:32 从丁克到带着孩子满世界体验自由的生活

She used to be a dink 丁克 but now she has a baby and she live in a re very free way, she was respected by all of us 

我有好几次试图开口却缺少勇气I have a few moment to interrupt our dinner but I lack of courage

07:04

我没法像我的朋友一样自然而然地滔滔不绝like my friend she could say something and she could you know just she just kept keep talking and nonstop but I could not 我不是学校里的学生干部就好像我没资格发表我的意见 我和老师们都不熟 我不该开口？I'm not the students who served herself for some organization in our university so I don't have that pride or I don't have that courage that ability that can always be the leader in this dinner in or in any other social occasion.

07:45 但最后我还是开口了 我说我对自己的所学不满意 我感到很痛苦

But finally I just say something I dislike my major and I get some injured in my major I mean I'm not so happy about what I'm learning and of course what I rewarded what I was replied was just something so cliche（陈词滥调） 我的回复是应付塞责的that'talking about that you should be happy and you should find what you love and you should study...

08:36 已经转了一次专业 可是我却越学越迷茫

I'm so different...I have already take some now I take some rest I changed my major from French to English 我担心自己考不上研 却又缺少破釜沉舟的勇气I want my joining university in Shanghai I find the GAP but I also I lack of college

09:31 喜欢的podcast独树不成林里树说学外语就是要狠狠砸时间 我有太多不必要的害羞时刻了

The hostess she's saying about her way to learn language to grasp one foreign language especially it takes time it takes energy it takes your determination but I find myself and not so determined

10:01 我到底在害羞个什么劲

I'LL care about other thoughts like in even in the dorm I will become so shy like if now I want to take some shadowing影子跟读 

I'm so shy. I don't know what I'm really shy for. 

10:53 好朋友考上浙大的研了 我一边庆贺一边焦虑担忧自己的未来

I received a good news these days as from one of my besties闺蜜she was admitted to the graduate school of ZJ university 

I'm so happy for that and also I become a little bit worried about my y own journey 

we should take actions and I will push myself in that way