bgm：倒数-陈乐一

00:15 努力走向自律，努力井井有条

Even though I really want to be self-disciplined（自律） I really want to build my body or maybe have regular exercises the week I want to plan I want to follow my plans and just to tick off my items on the to-do list every day 

I'm really satisfied about myself and I also I feel optimistic（乐观） cause everything is going in a better way and I can feel my progress 

• 发现一：自私因子——我不想听你聊八卦

The first thing is about my personality I can find some or you can say some traits some characteristics... I find sometimes I'm so selfish 

当朋友开始八卦时，我的耳朵自动关闭

so maybe sometimes when one of my friends- She is gossiping about something or discussing about some shortcomings about others

这与我何干？

I feel like what is the connection between this trifle （琐事）and me and I feel like I don't want to be disturbed about that 

Out of respect（出于尊重）, I listen to her nonsense（无意义的话）... but at the bottom of my heart, I don't want to continue. My ears have really closed! If you ask for my advice, you'll get something not in a serious way（敷衍的回应）..

 it's quite contradictory （矛盾的）but sometimes I I also will reflect on myself

it is a composition of every day（琐事是日常的拼图）

we should show more respect to others or we could express our feelings if you feel uncomfortable or you're not willing to continue this topic ...

• 发现二：渣男行为——主动认识新朋友但回过头来发现老朋友更香？

second thing I'want to share with you is I'm also reflecting about and sometimes you want to get to new people/ meet new friends and you will step out ...but finally will find the old friends better 

04:15 雅思课给了我认识新面孔的机会但我却感到主动社交的疲惫

Face different and various foreigners your foreign friends you want to make friends with them but it's quite hard and this time I don't want to share about the courage I just want to say...

It is not live up to your expectation I mean.

主动搭讪：Step out of comfort zone（跨出舒适圈）

结果翻车：Not live up to expectation（不如预期）

扎心感悟：It's exhausting to be the starter（开启对话的人）

05:10 我本可以与熟人一起坐但我却…

Cause you know maybe today I have the choice I could have sit I could have maybe just sat near the former friends I have already none however I just choose to sit in the latest uh in the last rank of this classroom and I feel like I want to see new people so I changed my idea so maybe on to to talk with another foreigner but I feel like he is so introverted he's so shy and I'm trying struggling to find one the interesting topic or what is the appropriate time…if every time I'm the starter（开启对话的人）I don't want to do that it's quite tiring and daunting if you're always take the active action

or maybe so I would not blame on any one but I always will also reflect it sometimes it's up to you like you could choose today where you want to sit however maybe you'LL lose the precious time

• 发现三：新旧友谊的微妙平衡——我们都在「渴望连接」和「需要空间」之间摇摆

this week and very magical— I have already celebrated some the two birthday party with my friends 

I can feel some embarrassing moment if I stay with my former old friends and if I stay with my present friends I will also feel sometimes I wanna escape from it you know. I don't want to face the familiar the same face every so we should live enough room for both of us I think it's a good right and I should also have my me-time（独处时间）...