bgm: 敏感小孩-沙一汀

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00:26 每天都在大张旗鼓地大喊要努力要进步 要有一口流利的口语

Every day I'm yelling I'm shouting I'm waving my flags saying I want to be more progressive I want to hold when very fluent British accent. I want to get higher score about IELTS about any other language exam

00:59 但好像雄赳赳气昂昂活力满满的状态无法持续，我只发现自己愈发的胆怯了，像是触到了什么防御机制

Even more lack of some courage or motivation

01:10 “真正的天赋是你的热爱”永动机的动力就是你的热爱，不要问自己为什么不够努力，你只是不够渴望，否则努力是水到渠成

Today one sentence just hit me—the so called "talent" is just about your motivation/enthusiasm/love so what you really long for if you just really want something then it is your talent

sometimes we just be bound for something

人人都有野心 但你的野心真的足够大吗 你真的足够想要吗you see we all have desires but the only problem is what is your real enthusiasm/real love

The power lies in your enthusiasm

保研无望的我不应该无事可做 我应该扎实地推进考研准备I want to be an postgraduate I want to be a a very talented person I want to hold something I want to talk fluently

我们缺的是行动力 是一股狠劲when I think too much about this I just lack of the courage to taking action

Taking action it's a key point so if you don't do anything else if you don't do anything in reality then all of this. It's just a nonsense

大三意味着大学的尾声 可我却感觉天天都在混 我在浪费我的时间This semester all of it every day. I'm wasting my time and I realize the truth I cannot change I still need to get my diploma I still need to fulfill or to finish all of these school things

Maybe I cannot escape from this case.

03:36 小故事一则——雅思课上斐济女孩给我的好丽友派

I want to she to share one more story with you just happened um in my ielts lesson

04:09 我持续抱怨没有语言环境，但事实上我明明可以拥有

So you see I'm complaining all the day

她拍了拍我的肩膀，给了我一个好丽友派suddenly someone just touched my shoulder. She's a very beautiful girl from Fiji. 

05:01 她的大方似乎是与生俱来，而我却无法如此自然地外向，东亚人好像擅长自我否定

I find she so outgoing she does everything so naturally and I want to be like her you find myself um most of our Chinese and most of the east Asians we just kept ourselves we prevent ourselves from doing something you know something brave or something against the conventions/ the rules I don't know. 

我们无法勇敢却也无法接受平庸we kept complaining every day we are not satisfied about the present right we still want ourselves to be more thinner and more outgoing be more brave. But we cannot take action just the problem we keep complaining but we doing something nonsense all the day

06:48 需要短视频疯狂灌输鸡血骂醒我们

that's why we need to find our motivation to find something we can rely on maybe it's a famous saying or one slogan or lyrics

总在开始畅想 然后止步于此 然后自我失望、厌弃与后悔From the beginning I am dreaming about a wonderful semester but I'find my class cannot not teach me everything

then what is my solution-should not give up let all of my talents just be wasted