BGM: 大人中-卢广仲

本期是我2025年1月17日凌晨1点左右录的，在静悄悄的家里，我对孤单的自己说下这些，同时也希望拥抱每一个和我一样感到小小孤独的灵魂。

00:00 此刻我们是那样的近，可我却感觉我们更远了

00:18 我短暂脱离了ddl的压迫，可我好像也没有社交更多，甚至更少

It sounds quite weird cause now you finally have some time to spend with your family, you could meet each other, get together watch a movie or a TV show, have dinner together and also you have time to meet all friends you could socialize with each other you could play games, take some photos.

Anyway you just have a lot of ways and time and opportunities but I find myself become even more lonely sometimes. We have already shortened our distance  and also now I don't need to face the task a lot of tough task like in the final week. And I don't need to prepare for some presentations or be worried about my GPA anyway all of it have already done and I got my final results although it's not quite satisfactory but I have try my best and I should be satisfied by myself... 我已经尽我所能，但考试成绩并不都如我所愿，但我接受。

我被证实是一个J人Today I finally be testified yeah I was testified to be a J person I mean now I'm a real J person. I used to be ENFP  but now my MBTI is ENFJ so. I switched from P to J.

我变得更擅长且更乐于做计划，我认为这是好事

It sounds like I become more and more capable for planning something.

02:45 我仍然有许多事情需要完成，比如考驾照，这一次，我想迅速地终结它。（打下这些文字的一个小时后正要去驾校）

Take my driver license. A big headache but I have to face

it's one reply for me from all of my efforts and I just want to end it quickly. As quickly as I can

03:28 再比如，霓虹之旅的准备以及语言学习（韩日法英...说起来好厉害但是现在只坚持了韩和英）

I'm planning to take a trip to Japan/ prepare for my clothes for my cash and also have to I have some plan to study to study my language Korean Japanese French and English.

04:42 手机成了我们依赖的、逃避尴尬的救命稻草。

It will become even more stressed but I find my parents they're not the person's I could you know really talk to 

And I could feel the embarrassment between my family and I

06:47 不仅是我，所有人都在逃离无聊。比如我的外公

Bored no it's so boring.

06:51 我近期逃离无聊的最快捷的方式就是出去，无论什么理由但是出去

for me one way the most straight way is to take a subway and then you can go anywhere you want

07:45 第二个孤独，友谊。我决定且我认为我有权利在此刻按下暂停键。尽管你和我有感情基础，尽管我们认识多年。

I find I have to say goodbye to one of my old friends, my junior high school classmate. 

08:36 不是工作需要人，而是人需要工作。我们节奏不一，在我还不清晰考研与否的时候，她已“尘埃落定”，她不需努力，而这也让她的生活丧失斗志。

Not so pleasant Christmas day because of her late because of her laziness and also we find our temple is not so match. She don't she doesn't need to worry about her future worry about her job everything she has already been qualified but for me.

09:38 她变得自私，扫兴我喜欢的东西，对自己的半小时迟到表现得理所当然，对我们订的餐厅挑三拣四…我再无法接受她的负能量与持续否定，更无法接受她对别人的付出感到理所应当，没有任何歉疚。

I find sometimes she's quite sharp and selfish. 

11:41 日本旅行是发现问题之前就定下的，争吵是没有意义的，我选择和平地、愉快地度过这次旅行。

I have to take a trip with you to Japan to go abroad.

I don't want to ruin my trip

I have to keep peace.

But I personally realized I cannot stay really close to this guy.

13:27 我们就像一棵树，有权利选择斩断自己的枝丫branch，切断我们的关系，也会遇到新的人，产生新的联系。

13:37 我们将对自己越来越熟悉，对自己的roots。人生是一场自我探索的旅程

we'LL learn more about ourselves.

a process of learning yourself of understanding your choice

15:01 你应该相信并且支持自己做当下你认为对的决定

It's really wise for you to do do something to stop your sadness  to stop one unhealthy relationship

if you find yourself in a not so good relationships and it's wise and it's a choice forever to say goodbye you have your right and you should trust yourself.