bgm：忘不了-童安格 00:52 在家不可能学习真的 And now I'm sitting on a chair of my dorm and waiting for my roommates to comeback to me and stay with me. I have something to finish it ii didn't do anything about study about my work in my home 01:31 五年级以来皮肤就一直起起落落落落落 And also I want to talk about one simple problem is about my skin. 01:38 pimple痘痘 I think the first pimple the first acne about myself when it's pop up on my face I think it'S. About when I was in grade five in my primary school 01:56 当时所有人都告诉我是青春期 会好的 然后21岁了嗯嗯 Young really little so at the time people will tell me uh well tell me maybe it's just a time problem and it's quite normal quite common you don't have to worry about it so I just wait but now I'm already twenty twenty one year old. 03:19 我好像有时候会忍不住自我毁灭 I will do something to destroy all all of it I will ruin myself I don't know but I just have that mental problem um. 03:40 减肥也这样 Also about my weight is also. But on the other hand everyone like me especially our young girls we like to be more beautiful thinner and we want to be loved by everyone want to be popular sometimes and we want ourselves to be healthy um that's good. 05:40 第二件事是返校日在车站和外公saygoodbye We all know that the grandfather have a. You know year GAP between us generation GAP. So it's quite hard and it's impossible to break down that very heavy on GAP between us but it's okay because we are relatives 06:26 我的外公愿意陪我走不熟悉的路 I remember he told me he want to accompany me. To the station you know he is totally unfamiliar with the situation with the environment about this city he just moved to us and now he's really old. 06:47 我第一次觉得这条小路路况这么危险 数次回头看担心外公 I could sense at that time he worked quite closely because of his um physical problems and he could just worked so slowly and I also one he accompany me to the station it's not very long on distance but I think it's a challenge for the elderly people so I really worry about his situation I care about something. I didn't realize in such a short path there will be so many traffic problems traffic risks. 08:02 我也少见地主动拥抱了我的外公 I hugged him I'm not the person very very good at um you know taking the initiative I'm not so active or um extroverted especially 09:51 人是为了爱而活着的 We human. Are born to sing for our love and also to find love and enjoy love 11:52 我们胖了又瘦 我们分手又再次拥抱 这就是人生 但我们要重新启程 去努力 然后看到成果 然后重拾信心 I want myself to be better and be more energetic. I could be proud of myself

特别矫情的深夜一集 有点丧 怕影响心情的话就不必听了 但如果你也和我一样迷惘 焦虑 无聊 那么也许能找到点共鸣吧 bgm：北海道恋人-裘德 02:20 在家减肥简直比登天还难 02:32 自我厌恶 像吹了气的气球失去控制 Hate my body sometimes. Cause I know it likes a balloon. It'will blow up and sometimes it'will become thinner. 03:01 陷入无意义思考 And most of the time I'LL be trapped by a lot of. You know meaningless thoughts. 03:21 我无法给予承诺 我不懂为什么所有人要我给一个清晰的蓝图 我看不到我的未来 我只知道我不还不想稳定 I couldn't give my father a promise I hate stability 04:05 我越发确定自己不想当老师 起码现在不想 A stable job. And to be a teacher to be a teacher it's not my dream. 04:13 我不想成为一个[normal person] 我虽然平庸但我拒绝平庸 To be decent to be well recognized. To be a normal people. To be a normal person but I hate to be normal. 04:59 我还没准备好 我也没有勇气和底气告诉所有人 can't be so convinced can'be so determined to tell everyone. 06:22 可是我的生活啊为什么你总是这么无聊呢 And I hate boring. I hate my life to be boring. I wanna break through it but I don't have the courage. To tell everyone. 06:52 而我也没有赚很多钱 更谈不上自力更生 I don't be independent financially 09:01 我苟延残喘地活着好了 慢慢爬向我的未来 往前爬就是了 Attain your goal The most important thing is you step out is to. Keep chasing. Keep going on and never stop. Never give in. Just do it.

00:23 Part One: Impromptu Speech 无节制追剧是否有利于放松 Topic: Is binge watching a good way to relax Binge watching means a way that you're watching a lot in a even crazy way so the amount is not common and huge. 01:16 报复性熬夜 When you lay down on your bed but you're still scrolling your phone and you want more you desire is not be satisfied by just a a small amount. 02:19 原因：积压已久的压力需要出口 What behind us is the stress problem/ you do everything like a revenge. 02:41 也许会更难入睡 Cause your accumulative stress has already in the edge and it's over the limit you should stand I mean physically. It is not great for your um health like you'will definitely hurt your eyes if you keep watching as as the late of the night and your brain is still working you brain is still feel activated excited. 04:22 我们停止刷手机的原因是被动选择 单纯是我们刷不下去了 Not a decision made by yourself. You'are passive. 05:19 还会影响第二天 vicious circle 05:54 Part Two Daily Talk 两天前的演讲 我和老师互相不认识 但当我站上讲台那一刻我已经赢了 我感受到了一种不平等it is not equal between the two positions the judges and the contestant but I have to take the challenge I have to recite I have to try my best to perform well. 07:20 我抽到的即兴演讲是关于武术 我完全不感兴趣 脑袋空空 但是硬着头皮讲了 But the problem is just out of my expectation. about martial art 武术 raising awareness of the health Or something like discipline 08:24 让我更难过和生气的是我觉得老师根本没有听到我的观点 他们只是抓住我的一点不放 但我无法和其争辩 我被围攻了 I think they do not listen to me very carefully and just grasp something some key points about my speech but they do not listen very clearly but they just turn something like a judge way. 09:05 我是唯一的猎物 接受他们一切的抨击 I am the only target of their work I'am the only target of all their criticism and argument all all the students. I feel like I'm the only aim I'm the only target. And the only victim 09:42 但出乎我意料的是 9个参赛人我居然排进了第三 在经受那么多的连番批评后我以为我没戏了 Probably about nine contestants in all. 09:47 按理说前四是有资格继续参加省赛 And they need to choose the top four to go further. 10:13 即使没有这样的反馈 我仍然为自己骄傲 11:58 我的内心已经很坚定了 我是自己的英雄 I don't care and I will not put that so high cause my heart is already very solid and strong I don't need other to give me really high rewards but in my. In my bedroom from my heart I am already the hero I'am the winner.

bgm：Time of Our Life 不知道是不是倦怠周期过了 ，今天终于少了一点死气沉沉，多了一些神采奕奕。希望我的故事也能给你带来一些力量！没有也没关系，图一乐。 00:29 即兴演讲主题：Pink Tax粉红税 Pink Tax 粉红税：相同功能的但针对女性用户会提高价格 With a thing or similar function but with a different and most of the time it is higher price when we served for our women 01:14 不合理 潜在的性别歧视与不公平 It is irrational sounds but it is true and even permeate every corner of our daily life/ your action may breed discrimination 01:54 广阔的女性市场带来更高的利润 02:41 措施：作为顾客要谨慎 避免不公平的被针对的营销策略 We should avoid any marketing tactics 关注品质上网搜索货比三家 focus more on the quality and we should be skeptical and set a budget when you buy something especially you can choose to search online for more price information then you make a wiser decision. We shouldn't let this unfairness explored spread. 03:48 市场需要反省性别不平等问题 the market should be managed strictly and promote gender equality. 04:07 freetalk环节！今天又被水课充斥了一个上午 老师你比起教学更适合研究 She just can't be a good teacher or it is better choice for her to bury herself in research I think it will be probably better however from my point of view. 05:27 当时我正在走神看大爆炸 墨菲定理被叫到了 还三联问 And I as I just wandering however she just pose the question to me and say my name 07:15 二号老师哑巴老师蚊子叫好像故意不想让你听到？好在他不会干预我们做自己的事情 Say everything in a very low voice. I can't even hear him clearly but the only great thing is she will not disturb you. 08:40 三号老师谦和温柔鼓励我上去分享 我就是一个需要别人推一把的孩子 I just can't step out I need someone to push me although I think um I should be the one to take actions I should take the initiative but most of the time it will just bury myself 10:01 这也让我在最后一节课勇敢举手 举手的感觉真好 真的 我为什么要畏畏缩缩 I think it'probably um drives me to speak more in the next class 11:24 我决定重修心理课和大学语文课 因为第一次分数太低了 虽然会花很多时间 但是加油吧 I need a higher GPA Maybe it will come become a cost of time or an energy. 12:30 两天后要演讲选拔了 紧张张 但没关系 尽人事听天命吧！

bgm：恋爱达人-罗志祥 徐熙娣 00:23 按照昨天说的 今天的即兴演讲话题是黑神话悟空的爆火下 为什么红楼梦无法传播海外做到爆火 One impromptu speech will'be based on the popularity of black myth we all know the game it's really popular and also aroused a huge comments on it. 01:09 But here's come to the question and doubts that have been hidden or rooted in many Chinese people for a long time. Popular symbol or very popular IP that is always the Chinese monkey. The dream of red mansions-红楼梦 03:25 原因一：题材本身的不同 genre 03:54 Foreigners minds they think Journey to the west is quite interesting because of the is'vivid and different characters but the dream of red mansions is'more serious. 04:24 西游记更满足西方人的东方幻想 东方神话 而红楼梦体系更加庞大 人物关系复杂 imaginations about the mysteriousious eastern myth itself however the dreaming of red mans is more traditional and with a huge system you know the characters the relationship is quite complicated more serious 原因二：门槛不同threshold different target readers 05:50 理解门槛与难度 即使对国人同样难 It's the real response from the foreigners we have to admit that and. We have to admit the huge barrier for understanding even for our Chinese ourselves could not get so clearly so directly for this understanding for this content right. 原因三：我们需要更多耐心对文化出口 打造更多的文化IP需要时间 pay more patience for this Cultural expert is not comes up overnight it should takes time and as long as we now have. Our huge success about black myth it's a great chance and it's a great attempt to create our solid and impressive IP to let the world learn more about China and if you ask me why not it is so popular for the dream of red mentions you know there are so many great classics in Chinese history but. 07:13 不必急于让所有人对所有文化了解 Should we be too rush （误：rush没有adj）to let everyone know about it 08:00 接下来是日常唠嗑时间！ And let's move on to our daily free talk. 08:04 早起跑步真的让我重新找到了自信和秩序 08:27 起的不早 但是跨出门的那一步我已经战胜了自己 09:02 我们需要往平静如死水的生活扔石子 11:10 早睡早起 感到痛苦的时候就做出一些改变 早点睡就能解决一大半的烦恼了You just focus on you what you should do and what you want to get for me want to lose weight... 12:56 跑完回来练了演讲口语 记不得词但是没关系 13:50 丢脸没关系 我会变得更好 我甚至开始期待当众处刑 15:16 人人都知道要让自己更多地浸泡在语言环境 但这很难 因为本身会有防御排斥系统 everyone is told you is telling you or you should immers yourself in an English Listening environment you should listening to a lot of English authentic materials 17:31 我们需要空间独处 听自己的声音

有没有一点高产似母猪的感觉？最近心态起起伏伏乱七八糟 不过我有预感快要走出来了 bgm：无赖-郑中基 00:28 做了一些心态上的改变 Cause today I have experienced again very boring lesson. But in the afternoon I have made some changes in my mind in my state. 00:58 水课是人类的酷刑 when the teacher is speaking of course your attention will be distracted and it just can't focus on your saying you can't dive into it very deeply anything. 01:21 可能的话还是听讲吧 01:51 演讲选拔赛 a qualification test 02:31 报的人好多 突然不想去了 But today I changed my mind you know when I heard the number of the contestant has already risen up to Sixteen. 03:30 我很可能会输 When I heard of the news maybe I have to accept the truth I will fail this time. 04:28 收获是隐形的但不是及时反馈的 You must get something in the world maybe it is invisible 04:47 我无法接受自己在还没打枪的时候就认输 but if you told me it's because I'm too shy and I'm so afraid of thes bad results I'm afraid I'LL be a loser. I would totally I would definitely despise myself. 05:57 和学妹约了一起练习 I made an arrangement with my another colleagues another fellow. 06:51 我胆怯太久了 是作茧自缚 I have already been bound in the cage of shyness too much. 08:28 拒绝交流 变得冷漠胆小不表达 Dark cage I refused to share my ideas proudly with everyone. 08:57 过去是莽夫 现在是懦夫 功利心太重 In the past I'm so brave. Whether in helping others or in express myself. Be a profitable person. 10:17 每天都在游走 Be. You know every day I just hang over. wandering in this whole campus in cafe in the canteen... 11:33 是时候逼自己一把了 You shouldn't let yourselfrow in a huge depressions for so long. 11:59 回到外向的自己 打开自己 无所顾虑吧 Extroverted person as I was before. So let's just do it and see what will happen. Take it easy. Your progress will not come suddenly overnight but you can wait and you can do something magical and let it come more quickly.

bgm: 最近很爱听的蔡健雅的Rebecca 00:25 热情倦怠 我丧丧的 It's been a while since I find myself become less active. 01:02 想到过去朝气蓬勃的自己会羞愧地抬不起头 You know in the past I'm so ambitious. 01:15 不尽人意的结果更是让人垂头丧气 a lot of bad results discomfort me 01:29 疲惫 好像也无法做到给自己灌鸡血了 pat my shoulder and say something comforting 02:02 拒绝一切 陷入自我否定的漩涡 cliche 陈词滥调 I just kept refusing something. lost myself in the huge cage of self denying. drag yourself out of that 03:34 好像每周都有任务 无法喘息 紧绷 Every week I have to deal more than one task. 04:32 企图用早起重建秩序 看小说获得平静 regulate my schedule Today I went to the library so early a very attractive novel 05:45 麻木又无奈 好像所有原定轨道的一切都在吞噬我、消磨我的热情 every day I just spend my day on dealing with something I don't like and also it's not helpful. 07:52 慢下来 给自己缓口气 Slow down 08:00 充实热情需要耐心 Maybe now I think I lack of motivation. It's because I lack of patience. If I didn't see after one week of my progress maybe I'will deny myself. 08:21 希望一切挣扎迷茫的人们都能缓缓找到出口 今天找不到也没关系 前方会有光的 慢慢走 Welcome and don't hesitate to express yourself I really want to hear your voice your suggestions or your feelings.

00:46 不知不觉录了120多期了 很粗糙也很毛躁的录制 但录播客是很好的联系方式 陪伴你们 也陪伴我自己 I will not deny that recording episode is one of the most correct decisions I made by myself. /It just offers an outlet for my emotion and also a chance for me to say something everyday. 02:03 我做的这些都不是纯粹的快乐 It's not purely about fun. 02:40 我总是临时抱佛脚 03:30 在考试临期几天会猛打鸡血全力冲刺 但永远无法做到尽早开始 why not start earlier. 04:12 学习 为什么一定要是痛苦的呢 So why study must be a very tough very hard thing. 04:41 快乐学习听起来是一个悖论 It sounds like quite contradictory. 06:32 我只是把知识灌进脑子里而已 You know instill the knowledge into our mind 09:03 先别急着拒绝 这或许很有趣 Do not say no but accept it. We should believe it is not a very daunting task. It is quite interesting and can also be enjoyable 09:22 非常矫情的自我否定 昨天在公众号上看到自己口译大赛三等奖 虽然是奖但却感到尴尬 止不住的比较 Yesterday actually just received one message the message was posted on our official wechats account. 10:54 我太急躁了 急功近利 I'm so rush so harsh. I'm so desired for a satisfactory grade 11:30 我们需要找到源源不断的学习动力 Infinite vitality into our learning. 11:40 思路打开 转变思路 好之不如乐之 We should Switch our mind.

00:12 两天后又有考试... 01:04 打算国庆再回家 02:03 热情消失殆尽 02:21 罪与罚 crime and punishment 03:01 把爱好变成专业的人是这样的 04:45 没有梦想的咸鱼 05:49 老师应付着上水课 07:06 你知道你说的话没人会听，你知道你所有的建议都会被付诸实施，你知道你所有的努力都会白费 Class and when the teacher asks you uh what else he can be improved or what do you want to listen to. You know that your words cannot be listened you know that all your suggestions will be put into practice you know all your efforts will just be in vain so maybe you think why you become so passive. 08:38 drown into such a negative mood every day 08:58 做自己的救世主 You have to be there. Savior of your life. 10:55 Life is so hard. 10:58 Maybe today I feel oh my god so tired I hate everything I hate what I'm doing now. Maybe tomorrow I will also think. Come on if I can't listen anything from the class why not to do something I really love in my my class you know you can choose to close your ears to. Refuse to listen to everyone you just focus on your thing and you just focus your on your self improvement you can do something differently in class and noone will watch you noone will judge you or um pour your air and saying loudly like you can't do that you'are an adult now you're a college student so why you can't choose your own thing. 11:54 I hope I can finish some missions today andi will try to draw a list 12:03 我所有的播客内容都围绕着陈词滥调 但这就是人生 All of my podcast contented just surround something like a cliche and I have told us for thousands of time but it is true life is reptation and. 12:17 We're just be beat it down and then stand up. Like an adult to accept this and to face tomorrow.

非常抓马的一集，在准备教资（昨天刚考完）的同时还在猛烈地进行维权活动。希望所有和我一样避免冲突的人也能有“野蛮”的勇气。 欢迎评论交流！ 准备教资的同时在退林宥嘉的票 I tried to cancel the concert of Yoga Lin I plan to see his singing in Hangzhou and I also paid a very expensive ticket. 01:13 和翻译考试时间冲突了 01:37 被告知要给平台付20%300多块的服务费 02:35 疯狂打电话 问客服 02:53 避免冲突的类型 维权特别难 I just can't organize my words very fluently cause you know in the daily time in the daily life I'm not the one who who can argue with another person very quickly you know there's almost no confrontation in my life and I also try to avoid the argument with another person so if you ask me to organize my words very largely and quickly ignite my anger than I speak out a lot of words even dirty words with another one to. Ask for my own right 04:03 三百块不是一个小数目 And three hundred Yuan is not a very short amount like buying a milk tea or another one so I'still want to ask for my right back at first I just. 04:18 到现在没有解决 有时我们不得不变得粗野 文明的方式行不通 So maybe sometimes I have to be rude. Even use some dirty words to finish and all our. Goal is to solve the problem so even though the process procedure is quite long and very annoying. I think maybe I should still insisted that. 05:10 So today onto today the problem is still unsolved but I'will still continue for this tomorrow. 05:41 维权的时刻千千万 咱不能就这么算了 06:44 消费者权益不容侵犯！ We we have we are the customers we are the masters sometimes we just send for the justice and. 06:53 不要嫌麻烦 我们是正义的

bgm：别再问我什么是迪斯科-张蔷 开始上课了 一边上课一边准备教资 每天都有很多事 但好像永远做的不够 00:34 和我的室友做连体婴儿 cling to another one another person it's my roommates she has a totally different characteristics with me um but that doesn't matter 01:57“Me time” 02:21 一个人好像会更有效率 但我无法孤独太久 02:48 人们需要交流 不然我们可太无聊了 we need to communicate we need to talk to others for exchanging ideas anyway 04:51 水课 全都是水课 筋疲力尽 浪费生命的水课 And if I review all these days I spend with my roommates all the days when the lesson had game I I will say. It's not bad but I also feel very bored on this day I have four classes together but you know I just can't absorb the knowledge from the teacher encourage students seem to bury themselves in homework 05:40 时间是最宝贵的 我不能再浪费在无意义的事情上了 pursue for your dream to pursue for your goal but not just sacrifice your time to squander on some very trivial or unimportant thing. 06:25 老师也不想真的教会我们什么 打工人 萍水相逢 带薪休假 07:51 我又开始胆怯了 我又开始把自己的想法藏起来 害怕别人的眼光 害怕自己显得激进热情过分在意 08:55 我得让自己满意 我得尽力！ I'm always not satisfied about my own job. 09:00 我停止了阅读、写作 10:53 少点后悔 And. Let's become less regretful for all of our choices and be better. 11:29 执行力可太重要了 put all your ideas into your action

00:30 备考教资的最近 teaching certifications 01:25 大学最后的两年 01:58 无法放松 I just can't relax at all 02:04 永远有事情没做完 02:42 早上依旧是起不来 03:05 找不到动力 I just can't feel a very strong motivation to pause myself to get up. 03:15 scroll her phones刷手机 04:31 每天都要复习前一天的内容 If you don't review in time you'will quickly forget it we all know that. 04:47 室友说因为我而感到很焦虑 就不和我一起锻炼了 She just can't remember something and she so she refused to work out with me 05:47 我的生活吗 可太无聊了 I mean life is so boring these days for me and it is so hard to start off every day I was persuading myself to do something I don't like but I mean I have to do this you know my sister there are very excellent 06:10 绩点与奖学金捆绑着我 That means I have to give up all my high GPA、scholarship 07:32 润色演讲稿