有没有一点高产似母猪的感觉？最近心态起起伏伏乱七八糟 不过我有预感快要走出来了

bgm：无赖-郑中基

00:28 做了一些心态上的改变

Cause today I have experienced again very boring lesson. But in the afternoon I have made some changes in my mind in my state.

00:58 水课是人类的酷刑

when the teacher is speaking of course your attention will be distracted and it just can't focus on your saying you can't dive into it very deeply anything.

01:21 可能的话还是听讲吧

01:51 演讲选拔赛

a qualification test

02:31 报的人好多 突然不想去了

But today I changed my mind you know when I heard the number of the contestant has already risen up to Sixteen.

03:30 我很可能会输

When I heard of the news maybe I have to accept the truth I will fail this time.

04:28 收获是隐形的但不是及时反馈的

You must get something in the world maybe it is invisible

04:47 我无法接受自己在还没打枪的时候就认输

but if you told me it's because I'm too shy and I'm so afraid of thes bad results I'm afraid I'LL be a loser. I would totally I would definitely despise myself. 

05:57 和学妹约了一起练习

I made an arrangement with my another colleagues another fellow.

06:51 我胆怯太久了 是作茧自缚

I have already been bound in the cage of shyness too much.

08:28 拒绝交流 变得冷漠胆小不表达

Dark cage I refused to share my ideas proudly with everyone.

08:57 过去是莽夫 现在是懦夫 功利心太重

In the past I'm so brave. Whether in helping others or in express myself. Be a profitable person.

10:17 每天都在游走

Be. You know every day I just hang over. wandering in this whole campus in cafe in the canteen...

11:33 是时候逼自己一把了

You shouldn't let yourselfrow in a huge depressions for so long.

11:59 回到外向的自己 打开自己 无所顾虑吧

Extroverted person as I was before. So let's just do it and see what will happen. Take it easy. Your progress will not come suddenly overnight but you can wait and you can do something magical and let it come more quickly.