（英文播客）英专生的自救之路 - 节目列表

00:25 假期结束 试着找回原来的节奏 I'm going to say goodbye to all of this and I tried to adjust myself to my former lifestyle to my temple 独自去电影院看了花样年华重映、独自吃了贵贵的鹅肝饭、买了爆米花，这是一场专属于我的盛宴 02:26 除了电影里的背德、情爱韵事外（当然绝不仅限于此），我想谈谈别的， 关于我自己 introduce some love affair love story but you know it's not so acknowledged/accepted by normal people, something against morality 牡丹是否有谈论爱的资格？ *sometimes I'not sure about what is a really real meaning of love...Qualification? 04:03 杜绝早恋后毫无过渡可言的进入大肆鼓励恋爱，突然被允许让所有人找不到逻辑、迷茫 it's a gold time for you to finish study finish your education and when get into the encourage will step into that you you're justifying that everything is allowed and the your parents will even encourage you to get into one relationship get into one love affair 而爱并不是你想开始就可以开始的it's not easy if you like me you wanna to be serious and sometimes um people around you is's not so lot you know you don't have a a lot of choices and maybe just because you didn't find someone you really want to 而单身的结果并不应该怪罪于任何人，尤其是不应该归咎于你自己it's not our fault at first and we should not reflect on ourselves for so much because you know there'are a lot of factors that will impress the final result 所有的好感被扼杀，因为我的犹疑，也因为时机不对（扯淡的理由）， 我们没有发展的可能when I was young when I was in a junior high school or even younger maybe I have some some good feelings with someone lack of the courage it also let me Miss a lot of opportunities 09:04 在日本和韩国大叔的搭讪以及寒假里给高中同学的明信片，我有在好好珍惜我的每一份情谊。 12:03 保留灰色地带，迂回的、尴尬的、互相猜忌的浪漫 I want to keep this ambiguity guessing each other's feelings also increases the romantic feelings (你们的留言我都有看，感谢每一个听我频道的人，感谢评论的你们，让我们一起走向好好)

BGM: 大人中-卢广仲 本期是我2025年1月17日凌晨1点左右录的，在静悄悄的家里，我对孤单的自己说下这些，同时也希望拥抱每一个和我一样感到小小孤独的灵魂。 00:00 此刻我们是那样的近，可我却感觉我们更远了 00:18 我短暂脱离了ddl的压迫，可我好像也没有社交更多，甚至更少 It sounds quite weird cause now you finally have some time to spend with your family, you could meet each other, get together watch a movie or a TV show, have dinner together and also you have time to meet all friends you could socialize with each other you could play games, take some photos. Anyway you just have a lot of ways and time and opportunities but I find myself become even more lonely sometimes. We have already shortened our distance and also now I don't need to face the task a lot of tough task like in the final week. And I don't need to prepare for some presentations or be worried about my GPA anyway all of it have already done and I got my final results although it's not quite satisfactory but I have try my best and I should be satisfied by myself... 我已经尽我所能，但考试成绩并不都如我所愿，但我接受。 我被证实是一个J人Today I finally be testified yeah I was testified to be a J person I mean now I'm a real J person. I used to be ENFP but now my MBTI is ENFJ so. I switched from P to J. 我变得更擅长且更乐于做计划，我认为这是好事 It sounds like I become more and more capable for planning something. 02:45 我仍然有许多事情需要完成，比如考驾照，这一次，我想迅速地终结它。（打下这些文字的一个小时后正要去驾校） Take my driver license. A big headache but I have to face it's one reply for me from all of my efforts and I just want to end it quickly. As quickly as I can 03:28 再比如，霓虹之旅的准备以及语言学习（韩日法英...说起来好厉害但是现在只坚持了韩和英） I'm planning to take a trip to Japan/ prepare for my clothes for my cash and also have to I have some plan to study to study my language Korean Japanese French and English. 04:42 手机成了我们依赖的、逃避尴尬的救命稻草。 It will become even more stressed but I find my parents they're not the person's I could you know really talk to And I could feel the embarrassment between my family and I 06:47 不仅是我，所有人都在逃离无聊。比如我的外公 Bored no it's so boring. 06:51 我近期逃离无聊的最快捷的方式就是出去，无论什么理由但是出去 for me one way the most straight way is to take a subway and then you can go anywhere you want 07:45 第二个孤独，友谊。我决定且我认为我有权利在此刻按下暂停键。尽管你和我有感情基础，尽管我们认识多年。 I find I have to say goodbye to one of my old friends, my junior high school classmate. 08:36 不是工作需要人，而是人需要工作。我们节奏不一，在我还不清晰考研与否的时候，她已“尘埃落定”，她不需努力，而这也让她的生活丧失斗志。 Not so pleasant Christmas day because of her late because of her laziness and also we find our temple is not so match. She don't she doesn't need to worry about her future worry about her job everything she has already been qualified but for me. 09:38 她变得自私，扫兴我喜欢的东西，对自己的半小时迟到表现得理所当然，对我们订的餐厅挑三拣四…我再无法接受她的负能量与持续否定，更无法接受她对别人的付出感到理所应当，没有任何歉疚。 I find sometimes she's quite sharp and selfish. 11:41 日本旅行是发现问题之前就定下的，争吵是没有意义的，我选择和平地、愉快地度过这次旅行。 I have to take a trip with you to Japan to go abroad. I don't want to ruin my trip I have to keep peace. But I personally realized I cannot stay really close to this guy. 13:27 我们就像一棵树，有权利选择斩断自己的枝丫branch，切断我们的关系，也会遇到新的人，产生新的联系。 13:37 我们将对自己越来越熟悉，对自己的roots。人生是一场自我探索的旅程 we'LL learn more about ourselves. a process of learning yourself of understanding your choice 15:01 你应该相信并且支持自己做当下你认为对的决定 It's really wise for you to do do something to stop your sadness to stop one unhealthy relationship if you find yourself in a not so good relationships and it's wise and it's a choice forever to say goodbye you have your right and you should trust yourself.

本期视频讲的是我在杭州的三天短程旅行中我与我朋友的一些故事以及我对我自己的想法。 第一个朋友叫袋鼠koala，他是一个非常内向的女孩，由于不像我和sail一样在一个城市读大学，而且我们彼此的性格原因，我们很少有这种机会可以一起见面。 因此，在这次旅行之前，我在前一天晚上1:00还给他写了一封明信片，在今天早上也就是旅行的最后一天，我收到了他的回信，并且在高铁上忍不住的落泪。有些事情仿佛只能在信里才能用最深刻，并且最不害臊的方式说出来。永远喜欢手写信。 树懒说他是一个也不知道怎么处理关系，但是可以给回应的人。在我们漫长的人生中有太多关系都因为没有邀请或者没有回应而越来越淡，我希望我们的友谊可以多一点邀请和回应。 而关于第二个朋友sail事实上在之前的播客里，我也提到了他当时我对我们的关系感到了怀疑，因为在圣诞节那天他表现得非常不好，耽误了我们许多的行程，我好像找不到跟他做朋友的理由。但是这次我们一起在类似胶囊旅店的地方住了两个晚上，我突然看到了他许多的闪光点，他虽然经常迟到以及懒惰，但是他是一个随和的大剌剌的女孩。 最后对我自己，我也发现我越来越擅长，也越来越愿意去做计划，我愿意承担责任，也愿意为我的朋友们和我自己规划。一切都掌握在手中的感觉真好。 喜欢见面，喜欢手写信，喜欢旅游。

本期节目分享了我在考试前夕利用手帐帮我规划每一天的安排，并且从中受益的故事。同时为分享了在最后我从颜如晶的减肥励志故事和赵露思突然的发文感受到的一些新的体悟，我认为每一个人都应该做自己最坚强的后盾，都应该寻找一些出口，找到一些积极乐观的方面去思考问题，同时也懂得如何排解自己大家都不应该成为落井下石的人，而应该互相的温暖彼此。

这一切都太难了，坚持是最不容易的事情。我很想破戒，很想吃夜宵，很想大快朵颐。 而当你偶尔破戒后，你发现这越来越难了，你会渴望第二次破戒，但与此同时，你清楚地知道如果你这么轻易地投降，过去的努力又会付诸东流。你不想回到过去，你不想重蹈覆辙。 于是你又哄着自己前进，告诉自己再坚持一下吧，你告诉自己不能前功尽弃，然后如果真的想摆烂一次，可以，但绝不能成为惯性，同时也要告诉自己要承担后果。

本次节目是围绕着我和我两位朋友之间的友谊，在一些事件之后我慢慢审视我们之间的关系与问题。 朋友当然不是意味着十全十美或者是无可挑剔，重点在于你们是否能够接受彼此的缺点，或者是那个人的优点是否能够大于缺点。 今年的圣诞节我的朋友非常自大地，以为我可以忍受她一切不礼貌的行为，把多年的感情当作可以浪费的资本。在我已经告知具体的时间，且为了她已经屡次拖延之后（全程也是由我预定和准备，我甚至还带了化妆包准备为她化妆），她在司机已经到达的情况下告诉我她还没有从寝室出发，最后让我孤身一人先行。 一而再再而三的拖延，让我意识到她并不认真，甚至毫无反省的意思。因为她的迟到，让我们无法在圣诞节去到原定的餐厅，她却好像也没有很抱歉，甚至还会在搜寻消息记录我的打字错误为自己设置借口。 我察觉到了这些问题，并以一个非常直接的方式沟通，提出了我的不满。这在我看来是最有效的方法。 审视这样友谊，我认为每个人彼此都在友谊中有权利选择离开，多年的好友不意味着你们可以长长久久，也不意味着对方就要无条件忍让你的所有。我们应该珍视友谊，而不是自大地认为所有的关系都会不离不弃，任何人对所有关系都有权利说再见。

好久不见，在操场吹着冷风录的一期。我需要把自己的才能激发出来，所以接下来的日子里我会更加的严格对自己，我知道这能让我自己变得更好，眼下，我意识到我需要一股狠劲。

冬至快乐！ 在操场跑了差不多3公里后录的这期。 最近开始写手帐了，发现自己慢慢找回了对生活的掌控感，同时在你完成每一个任务之后，你也会意识到你并没有浪费这一天，然后也会更有勇气和信心去面对接下来的挑战。 第二件事是关于我的减肥，这一次我再次重新开始了减肥计划，尽管我之前就一直有去执行一些事情，但是最终都没有坚持下来，现在我想要变得更加严格去完成我的一些目标，就是因为我想要变得更轻盈，同时尽管减肥的路上会有许多来自周围人的劝告或者是建议，但是只有我知道哪一种活法才是我自己最喜欢的，只是想看一看不一样的自己想要变得更加轻盈。 第三件事就是最近非常的忙碌，出量，面对许多的课程任务以及我重修给我带来的其他额外的压力之外，我还要面对要申请日本签证的事情，明天我计划出去拍一下签证的照片，非常的劳累，我觉得这个时候感到焦虑是非常自然的，但是同时我也变得越来越冷静，并且收获的最大的满足感，我只是想要把这些事情都完成，那么如果这些事情是我必须要做的，那就尽快的完成就好了。

bgm：自作多情-周慧敏 00:32 今天讨论俩话题：1.关于我儒雅谦和的大学语文老师在谈论《好东西》时候露出的自大保守让我对性别平等的未来感到担忧 2.昨天勇敢与歪果仁搭讪后我的所思所感 The first one is about one Chinese class 水课老师善于伪装 总会让人以为他真的会讲什么有用的东西 I have been cheated thousands of times from him but next time if you ask me I was still diving into his world because he's really good at disguising himself and this thousand of time that at first I almost thought he was really going to talk about something useful but and at last I find it is bullshit and I cannot learn from him. pretend himself that he'really modest his'really gentle but as then I find he's quite arrogant. 男老师观影后的强烈不适感the teacher said he had watched this movie with his wife and he he said in this movie he found something really uncomfortable 我非常理解男性观影后的复杂心情 因为他们对这类叙事感到无所适从I totally understand that you know men will feel really uncomfortable about this movie 无法共情无法理解 只看到不完美的角色 误以为是抹黑 误以为是挑起性别对立They can never touch with our girls just think we'are doing something bad for them we'are showing some were depicting or exaggerating some bad image of a man and it's not fair 男老师认为电影在挑起性别对立 同时也狡猾地抓住了女性作为受众群体 是一种商业上的成功 但电影没有夸大 一切是真实的 只是男人看不到或者看到了假装没看到he said the movie has already target some some group like our girls but actually it is all from the reality and. 04:53 男性只能接受完美叙事 而女性却总在自省 我们必须是完美的 不然我就会破防 the weakness of man in this film is unacceptable to him or to every man I find when you show some weakness you find they can never accept it. 女性太善于自省 我们第一次站在聚光灯下拥有发声的权利 试图把真实解剖给大家看 对方却拒绝讨论 我们被疯狂泼冷水 尽管我们是受害者 却没有光环But for our girls ask for ourselves thousands of times we will have done wrong. We want to trigger our awareness of some problems. 06:32 这不是抹黑 So it's not a smear 06:56 前路漫漫 I think this group of people is quite huge and if you want to fix the problem is still a long way to go 07:28 昨晚交换作文练习和首次练雅思听力 yesterday evening I had some practice with my friend and also he he's my senior/ we practice our writing we exchange our writing 哪怕是挚友也会有的尴尬时刻you'LL find an awkward you don't know how to say it you don't know how to express Blank moment but I think it's quite reasonable and also acceptable because um even you're close friend but you still have to face some awkward moments 听到外国人交谈when I go out I'm waiting for my roommates on waiting for her coming out of from. The library then we could go to the dorm together and about this waiting time I heard of a group of foreigners that chatting at the entrance of our teaching building 11:29 搭讪搭讪我爱搭讪 I find the chatting in French no it's not English it's French and also I have some experience of learning French “我来自法语”So she said she came from the France uh however it should be France really cute mistake 13:32 蠢蠢欲动的内心的声音 you can never neglect your inner voice within your body. 14:02 I feel really proud of myself for taking part something for taking out of my comfort zone 14:20 考研横幅无形加剧压力 I have seen some banners in our college postgraduate entrance exam so you can find all of this around us they kept telling you kept to remind you so you'pushed to. The huge and anxietytly that is the environment of our East Asia 16:00 你必须一而再再而三地拯救自己 好大的压力啊 你必须允许自己放下一切 在大雨中奔跑 说走就走 16:56 我就是需要来自五湖四海的好多好多朋友 Even if you'are really a beneficiary but you can still um find yourself in a such a hollow hole so long way to go still and the second thing I start up a conversation with the foreigners and they think we I'm so cute and they even thought I was from Japan and we have really friendly conversations and I believe that it'is just a a start learning from different people I think it's really useful for your life for your future

1.好东西 2.结尾 3.喜剧。雄竞。上野千鹤子。网上假女性主义。轻盈、轻松。4.没有性别对立，没有原罪。5.无法探讨。6.感动：相互救赎。代步车。铁梅对小叶说：总要有一个人对你说对不起。小叶对铁梅说已经做得很好了，妈妈也是个人。小孩茉莉给小叶擦眼泪，吃她的眼泪。7.不完美。传统与新的开放思想在挣扎。足够强大，我找男人不是为了让他们做这个。女性主义8.我就想做个观众。1. Her story 2. Ending 3. Comedy. A Contest. Online fake feminism. Light and easy. 4. No gender antagonism, no original sin. 5. It's impossible to discuss. 6. Moved: Mutual redemption. A mobility scooter. Tie Mei said to Xiao Ye: There must be someone to say sorry to you. Xiao Ye said to Tie Mei has done very well, mother is also personal. Child Molly wipes Ye's tears and eats her tears. 7. Not perfect. Tradition and new openness struggle. Strong enough, I don't look for men to make them do this. Feminism 8. I just want to be a spectator.

明天考六级 不知道第几次刷分了 感恩一直愿意挑战的自己 这几天特别忙碌 每周也都有事情要做 两天做完了两个ppt 准备两个pre 在团队合作的过程中也发现自己可以做“抢话筒的人” 越来越自信 也可以成为团队的leader 如果有能力有想法就去表达 也并不是所有人都想表达或者有想法 所以不用替别人思考 不用担心自己的表现过多 大学里多的是埋头的 害羞的 不想说话的人 你如果有自己的思考 会有人乐意听 最后 感谢我的听众 感谢我陌生的朋友

尖锐的一期。讲了两件事，第一个是有研究生在钉钉群里控诉学校，主要是学院不合理的打卡签到制度，只有我们学院有这样的规定，该同学表明了他的不满，获得了许多同学的点赞，但是后来被学校管理员禁言。 第二件事是我发现每次单独跑步的时候总是会与陌生人展开一些交流。