大家喜欢长一点的还是短一点的podcast? bgm：菅田将暉 - 茜色の夕日 00:33 早上结束了五人的演讲小培训 today I finally finished the little speech test, only for five students. I still have a lot of strong contestants and I didn't think they'are my Rival. 01:09 老师很快发现我在舞台上没有做好准备 The teacher quickly spotted that I didn't prepare very well on the stage but also she mentioned some advantage of me she she thought that I was quite relaxed when I was on the stage but I mean tobe honest it's just the pretense 01:57 我试着放慢我的声音，放慢我说话的速度。 Cause you know I can feel that my mind is not very clear but my I try to slow my voice to slow my the speed of my speaking. And also I try to let my expression be more. Outgoing some like that so even my knees my my hands are shaking I hope my voice. 02:27 还好我是第二个，第一个是最困难的 03:01 really tiring and a lot of us just lost all of our energy 03:40 我真的有很多时间可以浪费或试图犯错误吗? scold斥责 04:19 老师问我几年级 04:35 大三让我觉得自己没有太多试错空间 老师也不会把我当苗子栽培 05:02 有限的前两年没能获得含金量高的奖项 05:29 旁观者清 合作 互相学习 easily spotted other'mistakes communication is a really a straight way to learn discard some negative feelings 07:25 我不停问自己 我尽力了吗 And this year'these days I'm always asking myself what is my dream and am I really hard working. 07:53 初中英语老师教导我们要问自己 你还能做什么 08:23 许多同学出去交换了 我很被影响 08:43 家庭差距 09:42 诚实地说 我也想要更好的条件 11:23 高考是很多人最努力的一段时间 14:52 我好像无法安分守己 理所应当地当咸鱼 16:06 我的父母给我自由 我需要自己push 17:21 我们是相似的 17:38 同样犹豫 同样迷茫 And we're just hesitating. 18:59 let's cooperate with each other.

背不出演讲稿的碎碎念 btw编辑的时候我已经能自己背出来了 明早继续背几遍就冲了…加油

如果你无法接受带着哭腔的主播可以跳过这一集。很抱歉，本期是有史以来最情绪化的一期，史无前例的哭让我没办法稳定而淡定地叙事。 我发现自己对待亲密关系和我的姐姐不同，和这个世界不同。 最近要处理的事情比较多，没有多余的精力去解决这些一时无法被解决的事情了。很希望大家能给我点时间让我慢慢解决。 我处理问题的方式显得冷漠、自私，很难像其他人一样大吼大闹，很多时候只是放在心里，习惯逃离，默默把地上残破的自己的碎片捡起来。习惯于自己疗伤，收拾好之后再去见人。 欢迎评论交流。

这期不配字幕了，有感而发。讲的是今天和人吵架的事儿，欢迎评论交流，欢迎任何声音。

00:12 一夜没睡 00:58 咖啡是最大元凶 The biggest culprit is about my coffee. I'm a coffee lover. 01:25 上学路上天天瑞 01:56 不只是清醒 单纯喜欢咖啡的味道 sober us but also I really like it taste 02:22 下单、排队、喝咖啡整个过程都很解压 it's quite relaxing during the whole process 04:11 胡思乱想 想到独居生活要结束了 04:44 开空调 听播客 但就是翻来覆去睡不着 逐渐听到鸟叫声... 06:08 恶性循环 07:37 放轻松 一夜没睡 那咋啦 你的身体没你想的那么脆弱 it's not so weak. 07:56 醒来从冰箱里找了面包和牛奶吃吃 08:36 回到床上 书也看不进去 点外卖 09:51 长期失眠需要咨询医生 就一次失眠 那咋啦 10:41 对症下药 今天不喝咖啡了 11:29 失眠患者 请放轻松！

00:12 分享外公和我的故事 00:40 二十小时后我们将会相见 Maybe twenty hours my grandfather will took back to stay with me again just as I was little. 01:05 彼此都创造了太多新的无对方的回忆 I have grown up I have created a lot of memories without him and so did him. He can't understand your words he can't understand your sentences. I don't know what topic I can shared with him. 01:32 我讨厌保持沉默的自己 And sometimes I will just stay silent I hate the silent myself. 02:04 我不会社交 不会来事 不会讨巧 I'm not so sociable so even though I want to stay active and talkative but I just can't it's my inability. 02:30 我们回不去了 03:07 物理上的听不清了 03:13 妈妈的安慰 07:15 我们都有各自的生活 08:40 Take a more chill attitude to that. 09:29 接受自己不是小孩 You know we have to accept that we'are no longer younger and more. So maybe. That's what we call the responsibility Of an adult.

00:12 我胡汉三又回来了！感谢大家的支持~ 00:23 我的精力就像电池 不是用的越少我就越有劲 01:56 喜欢忙碌充实的自己 Actually I'm not that person I really enjoy that I just stay alone and I didn't do anything. I hope my life would be more. You know colorful that means I need to do something I want to try new things I still want to explore the world maybe just. 02:28 I still have the curiosity about the world. 02:40 享受合理分配每一天的感觉 也是对自己负责的体现 Maybe it's my duty or it means I am responsible for myself. 03:34 下周有考试 深思熟虑之后决定这次不回老家 留在家里做留守儿童好好学习 At first I refused to go back with my family to visit my grandparents because next week I have to face some you know one important exam I and I didn't prepare it very well. 04:02 害怕回老家会打乱我好不容易建立起来的秩序 04:24 害怕断弦 04:58 感谢我的爸妈 同意我留在这 I just buck up the courage I I told my parents I need to stay at home and my parents say they're not so strict about my their'children so they just say okay then you just stay at home and we will just go with your sister. 05:38 I can't calm down. 05:41 事情并不像我想的这样 didn't sleep for maybe even over five hours 06:23 我努力逼自己背单词、低效、灰溜溜回来 07:44 安慰自己 再出发 08:47 Dont lose the hope. 09:11 不想我的一天就这样灰溜溜的结束 所以我又出去跑步了 So I get back I s step out. And I run. 09:33 出乎意料的是 我完成了3km！ 10:44 My final destination is so so far from myself. 10:53 But I didn't lose the confidence I didn't lose the hope. 11:29 允许自己犯错 允许自己慢下来

好久不见大家，因为最近没调整好状态的关系，又过了很久录播客。这期讲的是容貌焦虑，希望大家喜欢。欢迎评论交流！ 01:02 尽管容貌焦虑是不对的 但我打从心底觉得自己不漂亮 cliche 陈词滥调 but in the bottom of our heart do you really believe that your body is perfect or do you think you're beautiful 01:47 反容貌焦虑有时只是自欺欺人 咱们就对自己严格点 就一口气把肥减下来试试！ But in reality almost everyone do not satisfied about their body but on the Internet we just the cheat ourselves that we're good enough so let's just be more strict about yourself. 02:15 过程很困难 无法坚持 学学把过程缩短 咱们不打持久战 先瘦下来再说！ And we all know the process is really long and hard sometimes you feel really bored and maybe today you do very great but tomorrow maybe you'a few Sick or you just can't do it anymore you can't keep going on 暑假减简直是难上加难！ Especially in the summer vacation it turns out really difficult 03:23 建议：设目标 严格执行 set some schedule/goals for yourself and you should draw out A plan be more strict about yourself 无法接受镜子前不够好的自己就要逼自己变得更好！ on'the flip side if you cannot accept yourself or if it is difficult for you to ever see in front of the mirror is are not great enough if you have the same feeling as me then I think maybe we should do something let it to be motivation to drive us to be better 05:03 化悲愤为动力 不然只会越来越自我厌恶 Switch that attitude 05:34做彼此的见证者 一起自律自强 I will try my best to persuade myself to do something although it it is really hard um that's just to be each other's witness and to see everybody will be become better day by day

00:43 放假在家一周了 快长尸斑了 幸福的快死了 只想拖延再拖延 long time no see I ll say I have already spent a a week in my home and I feel like it quite am'using, quite interesting and you don't have to worry about anything about study you don't have to think of your homework your deadlines and. Actually I have something to do but I just want to delay it and. 01:14 累得够够的了所以就让我躺尸一会儿把 you don't have to worry about or blame on yourself too much 01:44 我能切实感觉到时间在被浪费 you know what you'are doing sometimes you'LL say You're wasting your time 02:19 当我玩腻了 就是时候开始工作了？ but I after a long time of that you will even become Fed up with all this amusements so let me explain to you a a little bit that is sometimes you feel it's right it's quite amusing and you can release all your stress when you play with your phones but. After maybe to five days with your with the same gain or you spent you know you wake up so late and every time you just get up early. 03:04 我的人生和我的作息一起加速失控 And you know you'your life you'LL become sometimes you feel your're losing control of your life and life everyday become so short you don't have a lot of time you don't have a very healthy and regular schedule every day. 03:36 论文非要拖到最后一天 We would you have something to deal with right would you have something mission like I have to deal with my essay. 04:09 一个人一支灯挑战奇迹 我焦虑的要死但我就是要拖到最后一刻 but we do not want to start so we just delay it again and again. I have to tell you the last day when I finished it I I'm so proud of myself but also I mean um I have the potential 04:50 我没有理由粉饰自己 It is excuses I do not have any reasons to you know to To sugarcoat for myself. 05:08 I know I I can't cheat myself forever. 05:17 做咸鱼是大多数人的梦想 but just lie down like a fish 05:52 希望大家能从我的教训里吸取教训

本期没有bgm，欢迎评论交流！

欢迎评论交流 00:14 请问是诅咒吗 昨天我刚说期末考就像所有人来姨妈 然后今天火山喷发 it's quite weird yesterday I said the final exam like everybody is on a period and now I get on period. 00:28 姨妈女需要休息 但我不能 You need a lot of sleep you know you need a lot of time to take a rest or you don't have enough time to do it and. 00:37 停止吧 休息罪恶 Especially for the final exam you'feel guilty when you have a rest 00:58 哭唧唧 焦虑发作 So I become very anxious the weird worried about everything I have to accept that I need to take a rest 01:13 说的容易呀 作为一个社畜我要担心的可太多了 it's much easier said than done and people just you know worry about everything worry about their job the future where about the grades. 01:36 事件一：寝室跳闸 Weird you know a lot of strength in just happened at first my dormitory suddenly go a lost electricity 01:48 冲去食堂继续工作 I mean I can't get on my computer in charge rush out to another place to continue my work 02:00 事件二：充电器爆炸 I suddenly heard a voice that my computer charger exploded very dangerous 02:23 我意外的冷静 plug off I know what I should do is to go to the store to buy another charger and continue my work 02:48 也许我成熟了 长大了 Maybe it's a sign of maturity 02:56 我只想快点把事情干完 you just worry about on the time whether you can finish this quickly or not 03:10 So it's very weird but actually I sail through. 03:15 And another thing is I keep going on and then I finished a very large assignment of a very heavy homework. 03:24 完美主义会让你无法结束作业 Sometimes I always want to elaborate to be the perfect but the task you know is endless so maybe you should try to persuade yourself 03:40 昨天又熬夜了 And also yesterday I stayed up late um I don't know why you know I didn't have a nap. but if you ask me what I have learned from this actually almost nothing because I can't remember very well 04:27 越是困难越要给自己打鸡血 the more difficult it is the more it is important to motivate yourself to move on to finish all your work. 04:39 时间会解答一切 you shouldn't worry too much about the result let's just wait for good news.

大家好吗，我最近情绪真的很不稳定，老师不划范围，还一直布置一些作业。我每天都在努力可是却很迷茫焦虑，质疑自己做的事有没有意义，害怕自己期末考不好......一怒之下怒了一下，欢迎评论交流！ 00:11 期末周我恨死你们了 final exam is very heavy mountain for us to climb over very hard and a long journey 00:38 最怕不是期末周 最怕是老师不划重点 the teacher didn't give us a very clear direction to review 00:48 无底洞 迷茫 焦虑 睡不着 The journey seems endless you do not have a very clear map in your mind you'LL you at the loss 01:09 我很害怕考砸 害怕我的努力付诸东流 efforts is without direction so maybe you ever will be in vain 01:33 我被迫熬夜 boil the midnight oil 挑灯夜读 01:39 the result is still dissatisfying Maybe you'LL hate yourself. 02:03 我想逃离 02:13 有一只无形的大手不断把我从自由里拖拽回来 02:32 我无法对抗秩序 我必须接受 必须活下来 03:47 我感到窒息 我寻找出口 You feel not very happy then you try to do something let yourself help you. 】04:11 好消息一则：口译大赛晋级了 good news I have been qualified in the translation exams 04:46 期末周是所有学生的噩梦 我们所有人都是战士 05:32 我不会停下 I will not stop and I'LLI'LL just go back to my work and quickly finish everything I can and then do what I should do. 05:41 Life is hard but I think everyone will just conquer all the problems if you'LL keep going on.