（英文播客）英专生的自救之路 - 节目列表

这期是跑步跑完的录的，讲的是我的一些随心想法。 包括但不限于浮躁的时候该怎么办？极其有效的演戏大法、羞答答的社恐独白以及给自己多点耐心等等的废话。 希望大家喜欢！

非常有意思的一集，在这一集里，我试图讲女权这一比较尖锐的话题，AI试图表示他不是一个人工产生的机器，试图向我证明他的独立思考。 我一方面感叹，现在AI发展的已经如此迅速，尽管大多数的想法都仍然建立在迂回、委婉、中庸的体系下，建立在服务员类的基础上。AI当然是不能与人类起冲突的，这也是非常有意思的一点。 通过这一次的对话，我能够通过引导AI来加深我自己的思考。同时，我也能够发现一些自己的语法错误等等，积累一些新的表达。 希望你们喜欢！

这一集特别的长，主要是我想要开启一个对话的模块，你将会听到我和AI谈体重焦虑，学习生活以及其他方面AI听上去有时候给出的答案非常官方，但是他确实能够做到一个交流，也让我得到了很多的新的表达，希望你们喜欢。

bgm：Hey Hey You-蔡健雅 本期适合：1. 每次事情做不好就傻乎乎怪自己无限内耗的人 2. 发觉这个世界有许多不公平和无法决定的事感到迷茫和无力的人 3.已经能够自信接受失败愿意和我们在评论区分享观点的人 00:33 Backkk. 即兴话题是很好的一种模式但是对我这种讨厌常规和憎恶规则的人来说 偶尔也想逃离一下It's so rigid and orderly. 02:42 演讲炸了没晋级但是sowhat My final speech contest has already finished has already ended but I didn't give anything完全没有任何好后悔的 03:49 我发现自己真的变强大了 比赛公不公平 结果如何都不是我真正关心的 这些已经打不倒我了 05:25 成年人就是要给自己足够的时间来消化情绪 Also it takes time to let me let myself digest my emotion 05:46 对啊其他人都晋级了但是sowhat 07:28 没有办法继续表达我想表达的有些遗憾 没办法控制的事情就让它失控好了 气球如果抓不住就放手 I feel like all of the world is not so fair and sometimes you get some um something out of your imagine and you have no choice but to accept 08:40 不要责怪自己 Stop blaming on yourself 10:01 不是所有事情都能被掌控 这才是生活最美丽的地方 12:14 再见爱人里嘉宾的每一个错误都会被无限放大 人是立体的 任何人都经不起这样的放大 exaggerate their shortcomings We see something and we reflect on on ourselves we are all person we all human so we have something similar but also we'are distinct we are different we have our own uniqueness we have our own potential and charms. In this university in my university I'm not so excellent I'm not stand on the top but I still mean I have some charms 我或许不是顶尖 但我也有自己的魅力 15:33 原谅自己 15:44 把任何讨厌的事情就丢到垃圾桶 And if there's still anything annoying you then you could go you could put aside it you know just throw it like a rubbish you throw all your trouble you throw all your matters into the trash bin 16:13 不确定实在是太迷人了 Like the movie Leon that but I mean it is still attractive you still have something to do you could buy a clothes for yourself or tomorrow maybe you just like a star movie star or you met with someone one day and a handsome boy and saying very excellent or it is very attractive you feel like you have some similarities and then you go on a date like that. So you could dream you'to make a dream for yourself you think about what about tomorrow tomorrow what will happen we don't know that is the uncertainty

bgm: Superstar-S.H.E. 主播疯了，懒得配字幕了，大家凑合着听。 明天要去杭州准备打比赛了，稿子还不熟，所以精神状态有点美丽。

bgm：大人中-卢广仲 00:46 Impromptu speech 中国男网再次实现突破 昨天，杭州亚运会网球男单决赛，中国队张之臻以2:0战胜日本名将 这是时隔29年，中国队再夺亚运会网球男单冠军，张之臻因此也获得直通2024年巴黎奥运会资格。 01:40 The Chinese tennis player won the gold medal in the men singles at the Asian games in Hangzhou the roaring whole crowd in the stadium for the final proves that the grassroots of the sport are getting better here in China he said. Why do you think spectators are so important to tennis players and other sportsman and sports women what do you think the ideal relationship between plays and spectators is. 02:10 回答：成功是可以属于每个人的 是可以被分享的 One would assume that's a glory time the glory moment which we strive for a longtime is shining on us. And it is the individual success but sometimes that is not the case in the video the athlete really professional and he said he was really anxious because he felt the shoulder he whose shoulder in the responsibility. 02:36 共同分享胜利的果实 属于运动员和观众 From the applause of the spectators where we all Chinese people and will come from the same country and sometimes at the time. When he got the winner. The glory moment seems to be splitted and cheered by every Chinese. 02:55 主流思想：为个人成功而拼搏 And what's more? There's also another voice. You know in the mainstream. The social routine. We should try really hard when we're young and then we'd get to a good university find a decent job get married settle down build a house etc 03:23 This'is the only way to get success and these success is for individuals and not be shared. This is your own glory moment but now things have changed. In this video we see the success is being shared. And into this society we'are holding the same idea to contribute to the. Shared future for humanities and also the Belt and Road initiative and what's more in the playground in the Asian games. 03:59 We see this glory time is not only for the athletes is shared by everyone. 04:06 That is the spirit of Olympics thank you. 04:11 Daily Talk 04:20 嫉妒 It seems that someone felt really jealous about my success about my achievement. 04:27 ddl轰炸的最近 05:11 当我想努力变好的时候你说我的光芒太耀眼让你觉得自卑 My roommates she felt really sad one she failed to get her own a reward last SE semester and the low esteem 05:53 是嫉妒让我们越来越远 06:05 而我无法止步不前 If my roommate cannot accept the GAP between her and me. 07:31 健康的友谊是互相促进的 A healthy relationship should not be someone you just curb both of you um it should be. Like an encouragement and you embrace each other and you get better together. 07:57 我持续地寻找榜样 追随他们 I'm constantly looking for one row one model to follow. 09:00 停止拖延很辛苦 但是会增强你的自信 你会越来越相信自己 09:48 减肥和语言学习都不容易 但累就证明我们在走上坡路 Like losing weight is not an easy road improving English is also not easy but I'm confident that I can work both ways you know it take pains 10:38 问问自己究竟想成为什么样的人 你需要做取舍 It take pain you take effort but you have to make a balance you have to ask yourself what you really want to be what you really want to achieve. 13:28 我想狂奔 You know confine myself in a really safe hole but I want to find something is maybe challenging but it's suitable and really beneficial for me that is the most important thing I don't want to stand still I want to run fast as fast as I can.

bgm：制造浪漫-郑中基 陈慧琳 00:23 即兴演讲 The winner of this year's Nobel Prize in physiology or medicine, Katalin Kariko, said she was "kicked out" of the University of Pennsylvania 10 years ago and was forced to retire. Now 68, she said "l have conducted all (my) experiments with my own hands (at the age of 58)." Her groundbreaking findings of howmRNA interacts with the human immune system eventually contributed to the rapid development of COVlD-19 vaccines. What can we learn from her story 01:16回答：我们如何面对失败 Even the winner of the nobel prize also experience some small failure and it prompted me to think about what is the right reaction for us to towards failure. 01:38 练习年轻人找工作焦虑 被要求在入职前有丰富的工作经历 You know the life is composed of ups and downs however in today's society we see that young people are struggling to get their position do a few really anxiouss when the. Interviewers ask them what's your former experience in this position and what you can give to us. The society asked the young people to get their abundant experience before they get this job The society gives us higher demands and also let us become stressed and stressed. 02:43 容错成本 So if you ask me my reaction my reply I will say please let the society encourage the young people like us. To accept our failure. 03:14 日常唠嗑时间到 刚刚非常生气 对一个男性朋友的话表示生气 03:42 配音比赛 Be convinced be confident about the results you know we have to give a dubbing. Competition you have to. 04:00 但他似乎对我们小组的成员很不自信 好像我们还没比已经输了 04:26 我很不欣赏这种事前泄气的行为 如果不想一起合作可以一开始提出来 而不是对我们的小组成员不自信 You know when when someone ask you could you cooperate with me that we can create a very successful and very satisfactory video a work together. The first reaction should be thankyou for your invitation even though I'm not willing to join you I will say thank you and then I just refuse it very formally and politely He could not stay humble to accept others. So at that time I really angry and maybe I guess because my period is coming or because I have a lot of work to do these days I just finished one catti examination yesterday so. 昨天刚比完catti翻译 06:22 反思自己的言语也过激 So maybe my words also gonna be rude. 06:51 三天后要去杭州打比赛 我有太多的事情要完成了 我需要沉下来调整心态 抓住主要矛盾 Problem is from this boy so I don't need to deny myself too much or reflect on myself for so much I'mean I'm really tired so maybe the most important thing is to Switch my mood and then focus on what I should do now and by the way because after three days later I'will. Come to another city in Hangzhou to get my final speech competition a little of things just come out together and I have to deal with it one by one 08:08 友情倦怠期？距离产生美 最近可能和这几个人太近了 会产生摩擦 when you get really frequent meeting today maybe you'are feel bored and also you'are find some shortcomings from others but the point is whether you can stand all the shortcomings or today you have a fight have a argue but tomorrow reflect back on that you'LL feel. Really relaxed because there's nothing really matters 09:42 磨合的过程也是不断筛选的过程 我们能否包容对方的缺点 我们的三观是否适应 还是此刻友谊要下站了 时间会解答一切 但我不希望我们一直保持冷静平和却害怕冲突 我们需要冲突 我们需要火山爆发 而不是一直抑制 为了避免冲突而回避问题 Don't be afraid of some conflicts There still have some issues that cannot be dealt with in a very peaceful in a very calm way because sometimes we need to stir some anger we need to let others feel sensitive or emotional 人是有情感的 我们不是植物we'are not the vegetable that you know can we cannot keep calm forever. 11:07 当我据理力争的时候我觉得我是最有魅力的时刻 我不希望变得圆滑世故隐忍温和 But at the time I feel myself is shining I feel myself is charming. 11:38 渴望讨论 渴望辩论 adverse effect 副作用 You release your mood in the right time it'is better. 不如适时爆破适当发疯 And the day after tomorrow I also have to face a meeting together with my teacher.明天又要见老师练演讲 12:21 她要求我着装正式 背稿然后练即兴 我力图让自己在面对每一次挑战的时候冷静 放轻松 一个一个把事情做好 First ondre formerally and give the prepared speech and then I'd like to answer some questions from her During this time I always try to tell myself it'is not so weird it's not so severe and sometimes you just need to figure it out and solve it one by one. 14:36 感谢聆听！欢迎讨论！

bgm：太阳-陈绮贞 00:43即兴话题：结婚率降低，年轻人都不爱结婚？ The decreasing number of singles choosing to get married. 02:21 Fight against with aging problem you know we have to strengthen we'LL feel care so that. The stronger facilities. 02:39 尽管社会要承担老龄化问题带来的一系列风险，但却无法强制个人的选择 03:00 压力是不想结婚的一个重大原因 疫情或许为我们提供了一个思考的空间 我们是否需要婚姻 What's the reason behind it? Exactly stress. Why we were so doubtful about whether to get married or not whether to establish a connect with another person. Whether we'are strong enough during the Covid19 03:44 是女人的反抗 是对传统桎梏的宣告 She didn't wanna be a housewife anymore so she stand out of her zone and made her own choice we will applaud for her action for her brave action that fight against all the superstitious ideas. There are the shackles bind her. 04:23 对于社会需要反思如何在尊重个人的选择的基础上，为人们提供一个阻力更小的婚姻环境 And I want to let'everyone think more on what could we do to establish a safer society to encourage those people who don't want to be combined with other one. They don't need to be anxious about their living expenses they could do their choices confidently and independently. 05:32 即兴结束，闲聊开始 05:42 忙着作业、考试、比赛 I just bury myself in preparation 06:28 早上和指导老师讨论了一下演讲 More detailed on ideas on something and thanks for her suggestions 06:51 我就像石头一样僵硬地演讲 I realized I have some awkwards about my behavior and posters sometimes I just feel really. Like a stone and you cannot intrigue your audience to resonate with you. 07:39 第一阶段是备稿演讲 这需要我砸时间训练才能完整无误地演讲 感染我的观众 晋级到下一天 squeeze out sometime to sacrifice my sleeping time 08:59 在我忙的焦头烂额的最近 我每天晚上都觉得很快乐很充实很满足 But I feel really enjoyable It's a mentally relaxed because everybody you go to bed to finish your day to say goodbye to. All the things you have done today you'LL feel relaxed. You don't have to feel guilty or ashamed about yourself. I don't have time to waste I don't have time to waste on scorlling through my phone. 11:33 我渴望交流 渴望有人听见我的声音 11:57 e a lot of ideas but I need someone I need some time and some place to let myself showcase 11:57 小说课也勇敢发言了 很畅快 I just spoke some ideas fluently uh with the teacher I shared with my ideas. 12:06 再一次证实自己是一个想要发声的人 我的未来职业应当与交流有关、与文学有关 And all of this also confirmed again I'm the person who loves to talk who loves to air her own opinion and let others to listen to and maybe we could communicate together. If it ask me my dream job I would like to be a speaker, a journalist. I really love literature although I don't have a very abundant experience or reading experience 13:02 我坚信有些东西AI是撼动不了的 Artificial intelligence everyone knows that and everyone can make use of it. I believe there's something there's some translation work that AI cannot do. 14:15 AI无法翻译诗歌 我们是决定者、评估者、受益者 We're the final decision maker with the final evaluator is that that and we'are the final service target that the AI have to serve. Itself too. 14:52 尽管不是J人 但也体验到了J人的乐趣 I'm not the J person I'm not the one who are really good at drawing something plan but I also I tastes something sweet and great. 昨天和外教和小学妹讨论演讲 小学妹的口语很流利远超大二的我 这是因为她几乎每天都和别人练英语辩论Yesterday I had a discussion with a foreign teacher and also one of my younger students. I found her English speaking it's quite fluent 16:53 如果你想做一个自信外向的人，那就大胆做 In the modern society some more extroverted can easily be spotted by some talent 17:53 逃离自谦的惯性 keep a low profile 保持低调的教育 and always stay humble but I don't want to do that I mean sometimes when you have the qualification when you have the ability to be confident why not just say your own ideas instead of. Hiding yourself I have Missed a lot of chances 20:39 让外教给我写了一段话，用来激励我走过演讲比赛准备的阶段： You can do it you're smart beautiful and brave. You have important things to say say them loudly. 22:24 That's all for today and see you next time bye bye.

bgm：色盲-裘德 00:15 我在等待我的戈多 Today's episode about wait. I don't know if you guys are really prone to wait. 00:29 被动地等待别人对我发号施令，等待别人看到我的闪光点 Waiting for someone to push you, to give you an order and then what do you need is just to follow and do your own job. Are you really talented to be a leader? 00:57 可最近的我却陷入了被动的等待 I mean I'm not that guy. And these days I just find myself really love to be a waiting person. 01:27 企图通过阅读消灭虚无，选择了罪与罚 Lack the motivation and all the enthusiasm about life so I try to read something I chose Crime and Punishment and try to find some feelings at least can let me out of the reality for a while. I'm in a really awkward situation. 01:56 和主角的共鸣，一样的年纪，一样地拧巴又脆弱 Really similar to the protagonist in the book. We'are on the similar age and we we have done is extremely similar and we'are extremely twisted and fragile we have a lot of thoughts in our minds and we just wander through the world we cannot find a clear answer about the meaning of life Every day we worry about something we'are always unsatisfied. And it's quite a contradictory one. 02:41 对爱的人置之不理，对萍水相逢笑脸相迎 Facing someone we love when facing we're really close to someone we will turn our backs to them. But when it comes to a stranger we'LL try to leave the best impression to them and give the greatest passions. 03:12 无止尽的没有意义的劳作着，我的精神却陷入了虚无 And often will'will'remain the broaden of the world everyday we just argue and complain why why should live in such a boring world and doing the repetitive work and daunting it's endless and hate that. 03:31 自命不凡，却在第二天早上醒来继续安然地做回了咸鱼 Also we feel ourselves really an arrogant person we eager to achieve dream and we believe you know in the bottom of our heart we also believe we'are a common person and we want to fight against that we'not on the average level. You know when you wake up. In tomorrow morning you just find yourself laid down on your bed and even you don't want to wake up. You cannot move you're in the mud you're in the cage. Of life. 04:38 持续等待 等待我那不知道会不会来的戈多 Sometimes I just want to put everything on hold and to find my own dream to find my destination my hand garden and waiting keep waiting. Waiting for Godot. 04:55 我清醒地知道无尽的等待改变不了任何事，我的伯乐可能不会来了 But on the other hand I mean I. Really understand I cannot wait I cannot wait forever I cannot wait someone to find me to spot me to find my potential and to give me opportunities and to give me the chance to let me show myself out. 05:38 每当我心里的小人想要举手，总会有一种无名的巨大力量告诉我保持沉默是最稳妥最安全的做法 I don't know? Finally an unknown power will come from my heart will come from me and just in a very m strange way but refuse me to do anything. He said it'LL be safer for you to keep silent now. So me most of the Chinese most of our students and now my classmates just tend to keep silent. 06:17 年少憧憬的大厦全都轰然倒塌 They would like to show themselves out but now they tend to focus on their own things That is the lack of motivation and lack of courage. We're not interested about the world we're not interested about the lesson and we don't want to speak out we don'not want to spread my our own ideas that's the. Problem. 06:59 今天订了去日本的机票 明天办护照 And today at least I have finished one thing that is to book my ticket to Japan. 07:19 同行的姐妹是团队的主心骨，我再次担任着附随的安全角色 On our in our wechat group this'one there's two guys two girls. Who'are really reliable and you know you can give everything to them and they will finish it very great and sometimes Jay just tend to be the leader and push us to finish all the work 07:51 如果团队里有人能发声，我好像就会闭上嘴巴 I don't know but I I just can't do that maybe I lack of the potential to be a leader or it is not the right time for me to step out there You don't need to act the as that role you just need to wait and follow your instructions that is sufficient. 08:29 我有太多事要做了 微课视频、翻译证书、演讲 Mentally tired. I know I have a list and have to finish it I have to. Record on videos with my partners I have to record my own video as the lesson at act teacher and also I have to prepare for the catti test next week or next. I have to polish my speech draft again and again and I will worry about whether I have enough time left for me to recite it 10:16 我寄希望于文学 I hope literature could help. A mediocre平庸的 person. 10:51 我们在寻找出口 The exit. That's a quite common and everlasting lesson for all of us

00:15 警惕单一的精英叙事 Today's topic will be about a single elite narration impact so what does a single elite narration lead to. We all want to be an elite we want to be a successful person. We should define whether we are living in a successful life however. 00:59 社交媒体虚伪的反焦虑旗帜与无意识服美役 Nowadays we can see all the social media or or the atmosphere lead to us so called successful life We have no idea that we are already in the big cage of their navation. And that it's not our life and also we will lead into self abasement and self denying 01:35 粗劣模仿后的落差与自我怀疑 We cannot live their life. You know we just follow and copy. Instead of thinking what is appropriate for us or what is our life what is our road. 01:52 芭比电影是商业上的成功，但加剧了平民叙事的阻力 The movie Barbie makes Barbie queen in a really witty诙谐的 way it seems like Barbie is a main character so her her boyfriend Ken is'not the main character right he's just like a funny guy and like a joker in the movie. 02:19 性别议题以诙谐的方式被绕过与被搁置 However I don't see a real gender equality behind this. I don't see that our common girl can also have so huge power like Barbie we didn't have a perfect body we're not so glamorous and we're not so perfect. 02:50 我们需要平民叙事 We need to stand so high so that the vote. May possibly hear a little voice from us. We also need different voices we need the ordinary voice. 03:25 博主的严于律己和宽以待人带来的反向焦虑 While managing themselves in a very strict way. Can we ordinary girls really accept our bodies or spread antibody. Anxiety under the banner of antibody anxiety 04:37 无尽的攀比 Who are living in a richer life and lavish by very high prices bags clothes ETC. So there's no end. 04:53 如何面对本就不平等的世界 It's inherently unequal. As you'are born as you first get to this world I mean the world is already unequal. Your parents are different and you live in different backgrounds the atmosphere the education would you receive. 05:48 如果我拼命追赶也难以望其项背 Maybe you pay a lot of efforts but what you would receive may still less than others. 06:08 心动的信号、曼彻斯特梗下的精英叙事 Heart signal. It's a domestic TV program and there's a very hot discussion. So they just talk about their educational background and also mentioned Manchester just in a way like showing off. 07:09 普通人需要关注与叙事 I mean we should give the spotlight to ordinary people. 07:19 少比较 少羡慕 That we cannot decide a lot and sometimes with a different backgrounds. Women seem to be left behind others but at the same time. Please don't envy each other so much. 09:16 我不是精英 那么我的意义在哪里 Dangerous sometimes cause that will made us at a loss to think about what a meaning for our common life.

bgm：卢广仲-大人中 00:23 今天的话题关于友谊和比较 I would like to give you my story it's a real story and happened in yesterday. 00:43 她突然哭了 So the story is about me and my roommate. I heard some abnormal voices come from my roommate she was on her bed and looking at her phone so at first I think maybe that's just some laughter I mean she has seen some very interesting stories or some you know absurd things on her phone and then that made her laugh it's quite normal because we often share that interesting stories on social media but then I received a letter. I received a message from her she said. 02:07 她说她想静静她很难过 Please leave alone and I'm so upset today. And I don't want to. Interrupt you maybe you please give me some time to let me digest my mood 她需要时间消化情绪 so at that time I realized she has some bad feelings she has a negative mood and I want to comfort her I want to let her feel better. 02:41 她哭的原因是自己没得到奖学金 And I began to think about the reason behind her crying. That day she received the final official message in our university. 03:06 我得了一等奖 This term but she didn't receive any reward. And me? As the roommates of her I received the first prize in my school 03:47 我甚至没看那则通知 You know. I got some words but I didn't check the message so I don't know other information and also I think that's none of my business. 04:14 她忍不住地比较 She just couldn't help comparing she and me 我告诉她比较是偷走快乐的小偷I told him comparison is a thief of happiness and. Let's just take easier what you lose will not define your future and don't be so sad about the bad results There are still a lot of people who are very excellent.奖学金真的证明不了什么 还有很多优秀的人也没得 05:01 但好像既得利益者的我说什么都是错的 It's like I'm a winner and what I said is just like something very. You know nonsense to a so called loser so so she she began to deny yourself. 05:49 她情绪仍然低落 Even until now in the evening I mean she still in a bad feeling she even refused to have dinner with me 08:35 不要让低落占领你太久 Do not let this mood take you for so long. 08:59 东亚人的惯性——自我贬低 It's quite easy for a Chinese you think she's not good or he's not great. We'are easily to self abasement 09:25 让别人告诉你你有多好 So sometimes we need others to point out our merit. Then we you can even write down your advantages you can even. You ask someone what's in what aspects you'really great at and let others to give you a very overall assessment to let others talk with you you know you should not combine yourself in such a very sorrowful trap cage. 10:26 你是谁由你说了算 And when you define what a person you are then you are that person.

00:11 是经济状况阻碍了我们出国吗 Do you have any friend around you who'is gonna to go abroad for a vacation or who has the experience to go abroad maybe for a semester's exchange learning so it's an exchange student of course it's a precious chance for everyone to see the world in another country's view and also is a great way to broaden our horizon 01:20 我们出一次国好像真的不太容易？ You can not Exclude all the risks but I mean just have something to worry about and it's not a very natural or very easy way for most of us 01:38 为什么社交媒体上留子到处都是？ However these days you could see a lot of social media it seems that people going abroad has already become a trend? 02:13 安全、保研资格……我们要担心的太多 The most the biggest problem m is of course the financial burden. When you go abroad also you're worried about the safety problem I always worry about the postgraduate recommendation you know I really worry about the qualification in our school there are so many fierce competition+high peer pressure Maybe you'LL lose the qualification…… 03:35 好像交换生就与保研无缘了 04:22 我暂定今年寒假去日本玩 I decided to have a winter trip with my students with my friends. 05:09 我身边越来越多的人有出国旅游和交换的经历 出国不再遥不可及 Friends classmates around me most of them are I would not seen most but just some of them have already go abroad and you can see it's not something you cannot reach but most of the time we just have so many burden and so many trouble. 06:53 亲人的反应并不像我想象的那样 很自然地就接受了 我总是给自己预设 I had a conversation with my father just on wechat but luckily I received the information that all of my parents all of my my relative their supports is quite straight 08:01 相信自己 这些都是可能的 Anyway whether I could successfully go to Japan or not I think it's a really good step for me to break through something and bravely except something you could do it you should believe in yourself. 08:21 阅读让我沉静下来 读完一本书能给我满足感 I want to read more and I'm not so picky about the genre about the content of the book I just want to develop a reading habit very quickly and also let myself focus on something I can feel I my fluctuation my emotional changes these days so it is not stable at all I want to. Let myself calm down and then I could do something deeper and stay for a long time and also I want to build some confidence for myself you know when you finish a book of course you have a strong satisfaction in your heart and not only the you know content will affect you but also you could learn something the ideas the different views in the book or even the plot is quite interesting attractive so on 10:56 迈开第一步 相信自己 然后坚持 You could find what you want to be improved and then you could do something by little. It's quite important for us to step out the first step you know and. I believe as long as you could stick to that thing you're finally achieve your goal. 11:34 Game some come some inner come some inner peace. 11:39 内心足够稳定 And that cannot be swayed by the external condition and that'will let you be more determined. 12:09 突然发现明天没课 believe that tomorrow I'will have a lesson but I find out tomorrow I am quite available. 陪同学吃饭 Accompany her to show her around or to have a lunch with her. 13:13 和老朋友聊聊 You know keep a relationship with is each other if you want to maintain. 14:17 男女间的纯友谊超级宝贵 And at last I want to say is that something like go gossip and. That's just something very uncertain. A male friend. But I in my opinion I don't want other ideas or the common ideas to bond us for so so much I mean I just want to pure and authentic real conversations 16:26 我们是个体 不要被外界声音裹挟 So sometimes I want to put that down for a while and I just forget about our background information I just care less about it It is quite precious and I think highly of it I mean in the university in your long life someone will accompany you for a while and the time.