bgm：色盲-裘德

00:15 我在等待我的戈多

Today's episode about wait. I don't know if you guys are really prone to wait.

00:29 被动地等待别人对我发号施令，等待别人看到我的闪光点

Waiting for someone to push you, to give you an order and then what do you need is just to follow and do your own job. Are you really talented to be a leader?

00:57 可最近的我却陷入了被动的等待

I mean I'm not that guy. And these days I just find myself really love to be a waiting person.

01:27 企图通过阅读消灭虚无，选择了罪与罚

Lack the motivation and all the enthusiasm about life so I try to read something I chose Crime and Punishment and try to find some feelings at least can let me out of the reality for a while. I'm in a really awkward situation.

01:56 和主角的共鸣，一样的年纪，一样地拧巴又脆弱

Really similar to the protagonist in the book. We'are on the similar age and we we have done is extremely similar and we'are extremely twisted and fragile we have a lot of thoughts in our minds and we just wander through the world we cannot find a clear answer about the meaning of life

Every day we worry about something we'are always unsatisfied. And it's quite a contradictory one.

02:41 对爱的人置之不理，对萍水相逢笑脸相迎

Facing someone we love when facing we're really close to someone we will turn our backs to them. But when it comes to a stranger we'LL try to leave the best impression to them and give the greatest passions.

03:12 无止尽的没有意义的劳作着，我的精神却陷入了虚无

And often will'will'remain the broaden of the world everyday we just argue and complain why why should live in such a boring world and doing the repetitive work and daunting it's endless and hate that.

03:31 自命不凡，却在第二天早上醒来继续安然地做回了咸鱼

Also we feel ourselves really an arrogant person we eager to achieve dream and we believe you know in the bottom of our heart we also believe we'are a common person and we want to fight against that we'not on the average level. You know when you wake up. In tomorrow morning you just find yourself laid down on your bed and even you don't want to wake up. You cannot move you're in the mud you're in the cage. Of life.

04:38 持续等待 等待我那不知道会不会来的戈多

Sometimes I just want to put everything on hold and to find my own dream to find my destination my hand garden and waiting keep waiting. Waiting for Godot.

04:55 我清醒地知道无尽的等待改变不了任何事，我的伯乐可能不会来了

But on the other hand I mean I. Really understand I cannot wait I cannot wait forever I cannot wait someone to find me to spot me to find my potential and to give me opportunities and to give me the chance to let me show myself out.

05:38 每当我心里的小人想要举手，总会有一种无名的巨大力量告诉我保持沉默是最稳妥最安全的做法

I don't know? Finally an unknown power will come from my heart will come from me and just in a very m strange way but refuse me to do anything.

He said it'LL be safer for you to keep silent now. So me most of the Chinese most of our students and now my classmates just tend to keep silent.

06:17 年少憧憬的大厦全都轰然倒塌

They would like to show themselves out but now they tend to focus on their own things

That is the lack of motivation and lack of courage. We're not interested about the world we're not interested about the lesson and we don't want to speak out we don'not want to spread my our own ideas that's the. Problem.

06:59 今天订了去日本的机票 明天办护照

And today at least I have finished one thing that is to book my ticket to Japan.

07:19 同行的姐妹是团队的主心骨，我再次担任着附随的安全角色

On our in our wechat group this'one there's two guys two girls.

Who'are really reliable and you know you can give everything to them and they will finish it very great and sometimes Jay just tend to be the leader and push us to finish all the work

07:51 如果团队里有人能发声，我好像就会闭上嘴巴

I don't know but I I just can't do that maybe I lack of the potential to be a leader or it is not the right time for me to step out there You don't need to act the as that role you just need to wait and follow your instructions that is sufficient.

08:29 我有太多事要做了 微课视频、翻译证书、演讲

Mentally tired.

I know I have a list and have to finish it

I have to. Record on videos with my partners I have to record my own video as the lesson at act teacher and also I have to prepare for the catti test next week or next.

I have to polish my speech draft again and again and I will worry about whether I have enough time left for me to recite it

10:16 我寄希望于文学

I hope literature could help.

A mediocre平庸的 person.

10:51 我们在寻找出口

The exit.

That's a quite common and everlasting lesson for all of us