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第89期节目“成为诗人，是我们靠近星辰的方式”嘉宾方商羊朗读自己的诗歌"Serenade behind a Floating Stage"（中译标题为《夜曲匿浮台》），这首诗收录于他的第一本诗集Burying the Mountain。

Serenade behind a Floating Stage

My friend called and said that sex saved him. He made me listen

to streets in the Philippines waking up in rain, panes and trees

repeating a low note of C—chorister, cage, a choir captures

the cadenza of falling cardamoms, then a quartz of quietude.

So eventually, it was the Q—queer, he said, the parched skin

of the quarryman, whom he loved briefly for an afternoon.

For so long, we’ve mistaken the Q for C; weeping, he then recited

a passage of the Śūraṅgama Sūtra, an odd, phonetic transcription

from the Tang dynasty. The power, he insisted, is in the sonance,

not in its meaning, its attachment. This persistent, desperate,

loud howl of August is but the insects’ thirst for mating

and survival. The naked nearness of a swimming pool pulses

in blue, so artificial it seems real. Wrongness: for years, my life

depends on a false letter, and as consequence, instead

of the quiet, a cry drills the carnage of my heart. Had I chosen

the path of Q, its hidden “you” might have entered me

with a silence, to which my heart would yield as the hollow

inside an oboe. The cicadas continue practicing deft mastery

of invisibility. I join their quartet. Where the moon streaks through,

the night makes a sound of fabric being torn inside my head.

Dark and huge, it is frightening to be alive with a song in you.

【出品人】蔡欣

【主理人】猫弟

【节目编辑】何润哲 黄鱼

【后期制作】AURA.pote

【音乐】Bach - Suite no.1 BWV 1007：II.Allemande

【视觉设计】孙晓曦 王尊一