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Notice: 本期喷麦较多，建议不要耳机听...orz

00:21Hello guys I finished my IELTS lesson and I think it's a good time for me tease out my mind (梳理) and to share with you

EVENT1 MENSTRUAL CRAMP痛经

不常痛经但痛起来真要命，在床上打滚，原因不明，也许是太累，也许是吃了过期吐司……First is my menstrual period I'm already get enough for this...it feels like a nightmare 噩梦 I kept tossing around (*toss and turn翻来覆去)my bed and kept twisting my body I don't know what is a trigger不知道具体原因. At first maybe I I have eaten something wrong maybe my food my toast 吐司they're out of date but I don't know I just have a strong desire to eat something （犯猪瘾）so and also it's the last. Last of toast uh in my storage so I just eat it and when I eat it I didn't feel sick in but I feel lay back my feelings also maybe I am so tired these days so I didn't sleep well and also was I push myself to do a lot of things like exercises jumping and also.

02:21 洗完衣服以后筋疲力尽 全身酸软I tried to finish one thing down like I tried to dry out my clothes my laundry and then I think it's time for me to relax and also it's a little bit late so I think it's not a good time it's not a right time for me to relax 但好像已过最佳午休时间，打算学习却发现根本没有力气

右大腿酸胀ah I can't relax myself at all.

03:37 无法入睡，疼痛难忍，喊舍友给我拿了布洛芬吃了一粒Finally I was so struggling and I asked some of for help...but because of my toughness because of my pain I can'stand it anymore more so I call for my roommate for help I ask her could you help me to bring my medicine in my bookshelf

04:28 全身出汗，失去所有力气All of my body began to sweat so it's really terrible and kept I can't feel any energy I lost all of my energy and I you know it takes a long time for me to get my new pajamas 挣扎着穿睡衣and we're something new and also I use my roommates tower 用舍友的毛巾擦干全是汗的身体to you know to wipe my body to wipe out my sweat I am totally sweaty 到医院后发现医院真的好大啊，每一个科室距离都无比遥远the hospital is so wide when you sick you'LL find the hospital is really huge really wide and you just want to find the places but there's elevator and you have to stay in the elevator with others are patient和其他病人共处一个电梯

06:12我知道我最好戴上口罩 可是我太虚弱了 我顾不上病毒交叉感染Although it is better for you to wear you mask on but you can't understand it anymore吃了舍友的巧克力才能恢复一点点体力

我什么药都没吃 但渐渐恢复了体力，也许是布洛芬起了作用Because it's a rainy die I could not let my sheets stretch/under the songs to get the sunshine 刚好还是个下雨天，被汗浸湿的床单也没法洗555it's it's impossible

07:33 我恢复了食欲I just get my appetite again 疼痛的时候真的想结束生命，这样我就不会再这么痛苦了，但还好我面前没有这个快捷按钮，不然我肯定早就做出了冲动的可怕的决定I just want to stop my life I will have a horrible thought in my mind but it's not a joke I can feel really it's really tough it's really painful and just want to press the stop button and thankfully there's not a stop button or I think I will die I will stop my life

08:20it sounds really childish 小孩子气but I think I just can't stand it and is'really painful and only girls who still have the experience like menstrual cramp would have the same feeling as me只有女孩可以共情我 the only the girls could consonate （错误：应为resonate共情）with me

EVENT2 MY GODDESS我追星成功我女神的故事

Now I want to Switch to something better something happier it's about one girl um she's really great and nice and she she's in the same university as me but she has already graduated from this university so and now she's a employer. Her she's one organizer of her company she's one organizer of her company 她现在不仅拿到了名校offer，而且有自己的事业，是一个公司创始人he has her own business and also she got offer from a very famous university overseas so she's my senior 学姐and I really adore her a lot um honest say we'are strangers but not exactly because uh a once listen to her lecture 我去听她在学校里的讲座to share her experience about else she got eight point five score 雅思获得8.5高分的她来分享经验

上周她以毕业生身份又回学校last week things just happened so magical and I got a chance she again she went back as a graduate to give us speech

I think maybe it's the last time for me to see this girl

So maybe's the best time for me an introverted person to do is to write down my feelings write down my love to her as a letter

I don't know she even remember my name! I said could I take a photo with you and ask someone to take a photo with us and also I ask her to write on something write on something inspiring on my paper on my book and she said yes of course

学姐说说她很感动我的信A few days before she even sent some message to me that to send her gratitude