Nicolai：此时此刻是你存在的地方，我已经不在这里了。现在，我是你的小说。这是一本我自己不会读的小说。
母亲：这是一本你不必读的小说。
——李翊云Where Reasons End
本期主播：阿酌 / Gandalf
内容提要：
1.用英语写作的华裔作家李翊云是谁？
2.为什么李翊云会像自杀一样抛弃自己的母语？
3.母子之书还是词语之书，Where Reasons End是小说吗？
4.李翊云如何在小说里处理自己和悲伤的关系？
5.母亲与自杀的儿子之间虚构的对话，与李翊云的真实经历有何关联？
6.Where Reasons End有哪些关于词语且充满情感隐喻的讨论？
7.李翊云如何用书写处理自杀、抑郁和死亡的题材？
8.哀悼为什么会成为重新理解我们与他人关系的方式？
9.成为母亲是一种怎么样的经验？
10.为什么“后悔”的情绪会成为母亲们被压抑的身份认同？
参考书目：
Li, Y. (2021). Where reasons end: A Novel. Random House Trade Paperbacks.
Li, Y. (2018). Dear friend, from my life i write to you in your life. Random House Trade Paperbacks.
Cholbi, M. (2019). Regret, resilience, and the nature of grief. journal of moral philosophy, 16(4), 486-508.
Bennett, A. (2021). “Our Precarious Selves”: Suicide and Autoimmunity in Yiyun Li. In Suicide in Modern Literature (pp. 267-280). Springer, Cham.
Why it’s so hard to prove that 13 Reasons Why caused an increase in suicide https://www.vox.com/
安·奥克利《初为人母》
奥娜·多纳特《成为母亲的选择》（Regretting Motherhood）
本期音乐：
Corner of the Sky
Everything has its season
Everything has its time
Show me a reason and I'll soon show you a rhyme
Cats fit on the windowsill
Children fit in the snow
Why do I feel I don't fit in anywhere I go?
Rivers belong where they can ramble
Eagles belong where they can fly
I've got to be where my spirit can run free
Got to find my corner of the sky
Every man has his daydreams
Every man has his goal
People like the way dreams have
Of sticking to the soul
Thunderclouds have their lightning
Nightingales have their song
And don't you see I want my life to be
Something more than long....
Rivers belong where they can ramble
Eagles belong where they can fly
I've got to be where my spirit can run free
Got to find my corner of the sky
So many men seem destined
To settle for something small
But I won't rest until I know I'll have it all
So don't ask where I'm going
Just listen when I'm gone
And far away you'll hear me singing
Softly to the dawn:
Rivers belong where they can ramble
Eagles belong where they can fly
I've got to be where my spirit can run free
Got to find my corner of the sky
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