bgm：太阳-陈绮贞 00:43即兴话题：结婚率降低，年轻人都不爱结婚？ The decreasing number of singles choosing to get married. 02:21 Fight against with aging problem you know we have to strengthen we'LL feel care so that. The stronger facilities. 02:39 尽管社会要承担老龄化问题带来的一系列风险，但却无法强制个人的选择 03:00 压力是不想结婚的一个重大原因 疫情或许为我们提供了一个思考的空间 我们是否需要婚姻 What's the reason behind it? Exactly stress. Why we were so doubtful about whether to get married or not whether to establish a connect with another person. Whether we'are strong enough during the Covid19 03:44 是女人的反抗 是对传统桎梏的宣告 She didn't wanna be a housewife anymore so she stand out of her zone and made her own choice we will applaud for her action for her brave action that fight against all the superstitious ideas. There are the shackles bind her. 04:23 对于社会需要反思如何在尊重个人的选择的基础上，为人们提供一个阻力更小的婚姻环境 And I want to let'everyone think more on what could we do to establish a safer society to encourage those people who don't want to be combined with other one. They don't need to be anxious about their living expenses they could do their choices confidently and independently. 05:32 即兴结束，闲聊开始 05:42 忙着作业、考试、比赛 I just bury myself in preparation 06:28 早上和指导老师讨论了一下演讲 More detailed on ideas on something and thanks for her suggestions 06:51 我就像石头一样僵硬地演讲 I realized I have some awkwards about my behavior and posters sometimes I just feel really. Like a stone and you cannot intrigue your audience to resonate with you. 07:39 第一阶段是备稿演讲 这需要我砸时间训练才能完整无误地演讲 感染我的观众 晋级到下一天 squeeze out sometime to sacrifice my sleeping time 08:59 在我忙的焦头烂额的最近 我每天晚上都觉得很快乐很充实很满足 But I feel really enjoyable It's a mentally relaxed because everybody you go to bed to finish your day to say goodbye to. All the things you have done today you'LL feel relaxed. You don't have to feel guilty or ashamed about yourself. I don't have time to waste I don't have time to waste on scorlling through my phone. 11:33 我渴望交流 渴望有人听见我的声音 11:57 e a lot of ideas but I need someone I need some time and some place to let myself showcase 11:57 小说课也勇敢发言了 很畅快 I just spoke some ideas fluently uh with the teacher I shared with my ideas. 12:06 再一次证实自己是一个想要发声的人 我的未来职业应当与交流有关、与文学有关 And all of this also confirmed again I'm the person who loves to talk who loves to air her own opinion and let others to listen to and maybe we could communicate together. If it ask me my dream job I would like to be a speaker, a journalist. I really love literature although I don't have a very abundant experience or reading experience 13:02 我坚信有些东西AI是撼动不了的 Artificial intelligence everyone knows that and everyone can make use of it. I believe there's something there's some translation work that AI cannot do. 14:15 AI无法翻译诗歌 我们是决定者、评估者、受益者 We're the final decision maker with the final evaluator is that that and we'are the final service target that the AI have to serve. Itself too. 14:52 尽管不是J人 但也体验到了J人的乐趣 I'm not the J person I'm not the one who are really good at drawing something plan but I also I tastes something sweet and great. 昨天和外教和小学妹讨论演讲 小学妹的口语很流利远超大二的我 这是因为她几乎每天都和别人练英语辩论Yesterday I had a discussion with a foreign teacher and also one of my younger students. I found her English speaking it's quite fluent 16:53 如果你想做一个自信外向的人，那就大胆做 In the modern society some more extroverted can easily be spotted by some talent 17:53 逃离自谦的惯性 keep a low profile 保持低调的教育 and always stay humble but I don't want to do that I mean sometimes when you have the qualification when you have the ability to be confident why not just say your own ideas instead of. Hiding yourself I have Missed a lot of chances 20:39 让外教给我写了一段话，用来激励我走过演讲比赛准备的阶段： You can do it you're smart beautiful and brave. You have important things to say say them loudly. 22:24 That's all for today and see you next time bye bye.

bgm：色盲-裘德 00:15 我在等待我的戈多 Today's episode about wait. I don't know if you guys are really prone to wait. 00:29 被动地等待别人对我发号施令，等待别人看到我的闪光点 Waiting for someone to push you, to give you an order and then what do you need is just to follow and do your own job. Are you really talented to be a leader? 00:57 可最近的我却陷入了被动的等待 I mean I'm not that guy. And these days I just find myself really love to be a waiting person. 01:27 企图通过阅读消灭虚无，选择了罪与罚 Lack the motivation and all the enthusiasm about life so I try to read something I chose Crime and Punishment and try to find some feelings at least can let me out of the reality for a while. I'm in a really awkward situation. 01:56 和主角的共鸣，一样的年纪，一样地拧巴又脆弱 Really similar to the protagonist in the book. We'are on the similar age and we we have done is extremely similar and we'are extremely twisted and fragile we have a lot of thoughts in our minds and we just wander through the world we cannot find a clear answer about the meaning of life Every day we worry about something we'are always unsatisfied. And it's quite a contradictory one. 02:41 对爱的人置之不理，对萍水相逢笑脸相迎 Facing someone we love when facing we're really close to someone we will turn our backs to them. But when it comes to a stranger we'LL try to leave the best impression to them and give the greatest passions. 03:12 无止尽的没有意义的劳作着，我的精神却陷入了虚无 And often will'will'remain the broaden of the world everyday we just argue and complain why why should live in such a boring world and doing the repetitive work and daunting it's endless and hate that. 03:31 自命不凡，却在第二天早上醒来继续安然地做回了咸鱼 Also we feel ourselves really an arrogant person we eager to achieve dream and we believe you know in the bottom of our heart we also believe we'are a common person and we want to fight against that we'not on the average level. You know when you wake up. In tomorrow morning you just find yourself laid down on your bed and even you don't want to wake up. You cannot move you're in the mud you're in the cage. Of life. 04:38 持续等待 等待我那不知道会不会来的戈多 Sometimes I just want to put everything on hold and to find my own dream to find my destination my hand garden and waiting keep waiting. Waiting for Godot. 04:55 我清醒地知道无尽的等待改变不了任何事，我的伯乐可能不会来了 But on the other hand I mean I. Really understand I cannot wait I cannot wait forever I cannot wait someone to find me to spot me to find my potential and to give me opportunities and to give me the chance to let me show myself out. 05:38 每当我心里的小人想要举手，总会有一种无名的巨大力量告诉我保持沉默是最稳妥最安全的做法 I don't know? Finally an unknown power will come from my heart will come from me and just in a very m strange way but refuse me to do anything. He said it'LL be safer for you to keep silent now. So me most of the Chinese most of our students and now my classmates just tend to keep silent. 06:17 年少憧憬的大厦全都轰然倒塌 They would like to show themselves out but now they tend to focus on their own things That is the lack of motivation and lack of courage. We're not interested about the world we're not interested about the lesson and we don't want to speak out we don'not want to spread my our own ideas that's the. Problem. 06:59 今天订了去日本的机票 明天办护照 And today at least I have finished one thing that is to book my ticket to Japan. 07:19 同行的姐妹是团队的主心骨，我再次担任着附随的安全角色 On our in our wechat group this'one there's two guys two girls. Who'are really reliable and you know you can give everything to them and they will finish it very great and sometimes Jay just tend to be the leader and push us to finish all the work 07:51 如果团队里有人能发声，我好像就会闭上嘴巴 I don't know but I I just can't do that maybe I lack of the potential to be a leader or it is not the right time for me to step out there You don't need to act the as that role you just need to wait and follow your instructions that is sufficient. 08:29 我有太多事要做了 微课视频、翻译证书、演讲 Mentally tired. I know I have a list and have to finish it I have to. Record on videos with my partners I have to record my own video as the lesson at act teacher and also I have to prepare for the catti test next week or next. I have to polish my speech draft again and again and I will worry about whether I have enough time left for me to recite it 10:16 我寄希望于文学 I hope literature could help. A mediocre平庸的 person. 10:51 我们在寻找出口 The exit. That's a quite common and everlasting lesson for all of us

00:15 警惕单一的精英叙事 Today's topic will be about a single elite narration impact so what does a single elite narration lead to. We all want to be an elite we want to be a successful person. We should define whether we are living in a successful life however. 00:59 社交媒体虚伪的反焦虑旗帜与无意识服美役 Nowadays we can see all the social media or or the atmosphere lead to us so called successful life We have no idea that we are already in the big cage of their navation. And that it's not our life and also we will lead into self abasement and self denying 01:35 粗劣模仿后的落差与自我怀疑 We cannot live their life. You know we just follow and copy. Instead of thinking what is appropriate for us or what is our life what is our road. 01:52 芭比电影是商业上的成功，但加剧了平民叙事的阻力 The movie Barbie makes Barbie queen in a really witty诙谐的 way it seems like Barbie is a main character so her her boyfriend Ken is'not the main character right he's just like a funny guy and like a joker in the movie. 02:19 性别议题以诙谐的方式被绕过与被搁置 However I don't see a real gender equality behind this. I don't see that our common girl can also have so huge power like Barbie we didn't have a perfect body we're not so glamorous and we're not so perfect. 02:50 我们需要平民叙事 We need to stand so high so that the vote. May possibly hear a little voice from us. We also need different voices we need the ordinary voice. 03:25 博主的严于律己和宽以待人带来的反向焦虑 While managing themselves in a very strict way. Can we ordinary girls really accept our bodies or spread antibody. Anxiety under the banner of antibody anxiety 04:37 无尽的攀比 Who are living in a richer life and lavish by very high prices bags clothes ETC. So there's no end. 04:53 如何面对本就不平等的世界 It's inherently unequal. As you'are born as you first get to this world I mean the world is already unequal. Your parents are different and you live in different backgrounds the atmosphere the education would you receive. 05:48 如果我拼命追赶也难以望其项背 Maybe you pay a lot of efforts but what you would receive may still less than others. 06:08 心动的信号、曼彻斯特梗下的精英叙事 Heart signal. It's a domestic TV program and there's a very hot discussion. So they just talk about their educational background and also mentioned Manchester just in a way like showing off. 07:09 普通人需要关注与叙事 I mean we should give the spotlight to ordinary people. 07:19 少比较 少羡慕 That we cannot decide a lot and sometimes with a different backgrounds. Women seem to be left behind others but at the same time. Please don't envy each other so much. 09:16 我不是精英 那么我的意义在哪里 Dangerous sometimes cause that will made us at a loss to think about what a meaning for our common life.

bgm：卢广仲-大人中 00:23 今天的话题关于友谊和比较 I would like to give you my story it's a real story and happened in yesterday. 00:43 她突然哭了 So the story is about me and my roommate. I heard some abnormal voices come from my roommate she was on her bed and looking at her phone so at first I think maybe that's just some laughter I mean she has seen some very interesting stories or some you know absurd things on her phone and then that made her laugh it's quite normal because we often share that interesting stories on social media but then I received a letter. I received a message from her she said. 02:07 她说她想静静她很难过 Please leave alone and I'm so upset today. And I don't want to. Interrupt you maybe you please give me some time to let me digest my mood 她需要时间消化情绪 so at that time I realized she has some bad feelings she has a negative mood and I want to comfort her I want to let her feel better. 02:41 她哭的原因是自己没得到奖学金 And I began to think about the reason behind her crying. That day she received the final official message in our university. 03:06 我得了一等奖 This term but she didn't receive any reward. And me? As the roommates of her I received the first prize in my school 03:47 我甚至没看那则通知 You know. I got some words but I didn't check the message so I don't know other information and also I think that's none of my business. 04:14 她忍不住地比较 She just couldn't help comparing she and me 我告诉她比较是偷走快乐的小偷I told him comparison is a thief of happiness and. Let's just take easier what you lose will not define your future and don't be so sad about the bad results There are still a lot of people who are very excellent.奖学金真的证明不了什么 还有很多优秀的人也没得 05:01 但好像既得利益者的我说什么都是错的 It's like I'm a winner and what I said is just like something very. You know nonsense to a so called loser so so she she began to deny yourself. 05:49 她情绪仍然低落 Even until now in the evening I mean she still in a bad feeling she even refused to have dinner with me 08:35 不要让低落占领你太久 Do not let this mood take you for so long. 08:59 东亚人的惯性——自我贬低 It's quite easy for a Chinese you think she's not good or he's not great. We'are easily to self abasement 09:25 让别人告诉你你有多好 So sometimes we need others to point out our merit. Then we you can even write down your advantages you can even. You ask someone what's in what aspects you'really great at and let others to give you a very overall assessment to let others talk with you you know you should not combine yourself in such a very sorrowful trap cage. 10:26 你是谁由你说了算 And when you define what a person you are then you are that person.

00:11 是经济状况阻碍了我们出国吗 Do you have any friend around you who'is gonna to go abroad for a vacation or who has the experience to go abroad maybe for a semester's exchange learning so it's an exchange student of course it's a precious chance for everyone to see the world in another country's view and also is a great way to broaden our horizon 01:20 我们出一次国好像真的不太容易？ You can not Exclude all the risks but I mean just have something to worry about and it's not a very natural or very easy way for most of us 01:38 为什么社交媒体上留子到处都是？ However these days you could see a lot of social media it seems that people going abroad has already become a trend? 02:13 安全、保研资格……我们要担心的太多 The most the biggest problem m is of course the financial burden. When you go abroad also you're worried about the safety problem I always worry about the postgraduate recommendation you know I really worry about the qualification in our school there are so many fierce competition+high peer pressure Maybe you'LL lose the qualification…… 03:35 好像交换生就与保研无缘了 04:22 我暂定今年寒假去日本玩 I decided to have a winter trip with my students with my friends. 05:09 我身边越来越多的人有出国旅游和交换的经历 出国不再遥不可及 Friends classmates around me most of them are I would not seen most but just some of them have already go abroad and you can see it's not something you cannot reach but most of the time we just have so many burden and so many trouble. 06:53 亲人的反应并不像我想象的那样 很自然地就接受了 我总是给自己预设 I had a conversation with my father just on wechat but luckily I received the information that all of my parents all of my my relative their supports is quite straight 08:01 相信自己 这些都是可能的 Anyway whether I could successfully go to Japan or not I think it's a really good step for me to break through something and bravely except something you could do it you should believe in yourself. 08:21 阅读让我沉静下来 读完一本书能给我满足感 I want to read more and I'm not so picky about the genre about the content of the book I just want to develop a reading habit very quickly and also let myself focus on something I can feel I my fluctuation my emotional changes these days so it is not stable at all I want to. Let myself calm down and then I could do something deeper and stay for a long time and also I want to build some confidence for myself you know when you finish a book of course you have a strong satisfaction in your heart and not only the you know content will affect you but also you could learn something the ideas the different views in the book or even the plot is quite interesting attractive so on 10:56 迈开第一步 相信自己 然后坚持 You could find what you want to be improved and then you could do something by little. It's quite important for us to step out the first step you know and. I believe as long as you could stick to that thing you're finally achieve your goal. 11:34 Game some come some inner come some inner peace. 11:39 内心足够稳定 And that cannot be swayed by the external condition and that'will let you be more determined. 12:09 突然发现明天没课 believe that tomorrow I'will have a lesson but I find out tomorrow I am quite available. 陪同学吃饭 Accompany her to show her around or to have a lunch with her. 13:13 和老朋友聊聊 You know keep a relationship with is each other if you want to maintain. 14:17 男女间的纯友谊超级宝贵 And at last I want to say is that something like go gossip and. That's just something very uncertain. A male friend. But I in my opinion I don't want other ideas or the common ideas to bond us for so so much I mean I just want to pure and authentic real conversations 16:26 我们是个体 不要被外界声音裹挟 So sometimes I want to put that down for a while and I just forget about our background information I just care less about it It is quite precious and I think highly of it I mean in the university in your long life someone will accompany you for a while and the time.

bgm：勇敢的幸福-Sweety 00:25 韩江获得诺贝尔文学奖 （Cr: CNN）The 2024 Nobel Prize in literature has been awarded to Han Kang, a South Korean author for her intense poetic prose that confronts historical traumas and exposes the fragility of human life. Han Kang is f53 and began her career with a group of poems in a south Korea magazine before making her prose debut in 1995 with a short story collection. 01:08 还没读过她的作品 I didn't read any of her book before but I know that one of her most famous book is called The Vegetarian We should applaud for this women's success and also we should think about the reasons behind it or what leads to her success so that's curiosity just drives me to learn more about this woman about this woman writer. 01:51 韩女文学中女性的共同境遇：压抑、冷漠、无奈 We could see some similar situations some similar very um depressing situation in a women. 02:03 争议、里程碑 After there's some controversy of this reward I believe this must be a milestone and because I didn't read any of her book before so I will start to. Give some real feelings after reading that. 02:37 性别平等、女性力量等话题再度被提起 Inequality of gender. That is the milestone of our women's power. 03:10 在外院的男性性别红利与不平等 unbalanced sex ratio For myself I also witness some unfair things. They just surround me and especially for my major the English major. The special situation the special phenomenon in my faculty. 03:50 父权制话语体系的坚固 We could not deny. That will just be exposed to the huge patriarchy. 04:24 加倍努力才能站在同一级台阶 因为都是女生 所以我们没有优势 我们被隐藏 invisible而没有特点 We could do nothing so we'have to try harder we have to pay more efforts to achieve the same level. So man seems to catch more attention and more easily than us. 05:50 声势浩大的一场抗议 放足够多的砝码来引起重视 只有当天平一端发生倾斜 才能换来平衡的可能 We need to tilt one side for more weight. 06:05 文学是一个窗口 Besides I wanna say that literature offers an outlet for this. 06:59 渴望挤出时间泡在文学里 My my time just passed by unconsciously. 07:09 反正我还有时间可以浪费 Because I am still very young I have a lot of time to you know do something for it. 07:28 你是谁由你说了算 Remarks from a very famous translator she says. If you think you are that person then you are. 07:53 自谦的习惯自动拉高了门槛，让人望而生却 You should be more humble and the first choice is to deny that and then say something in a lower place. But if you ask a foreigner maybe he will reply you. That he wants to be an artist or he wants to be a famous writer so he is. 09:44 重建脆弱的自信心 So believe in yourself believe your ability believe your potential 09:54 如果外面不够平等与安全，我们就为自己撑伞 And when others when the whole society can give you very safety or very equal situation maybe should create another safer environment for yourself you should create your own room A woman should have her own room and should have enough money 10:48 沉淀、耐心地静待花开 I want to delve into book I want to read more and let myself. I learn more knowledge and also you know just speed up my reading. Suggest everyone to find their confidence back.

00:36 每天不知道在忙什么 I was so busy so busy every day. 00:55 什么都不想做的最近 A lot of homework, deadlines and sometimes I just refuse to get started with it even though I have some mission but it takes time for me to regain my energy. I just want to relax. 01:18 中午睡了个午觉 眼睛酸了 This noon I chose to take a nap. To escape from reality and also to take a rest because my eyes getting really sore. 01:49 睡完还是没劲 02:05 拖延 I have something to do but I just want to procrastinate I have something to finish I have someone to talk about but you know I can't be so confident I can't just pull all my efforts into one one thing 02:46 我的建议是随便找什么人随便说什么话 03:12 今天下午上课和同学闲扯觉得好快乐 This afternoon I had some conversations with my friends and I even start up some conversations I take the initiative to you know talk to someone this one are my classmates but we are not so familiar we are not so close sometimes I just ignore that. 03:55 大家都是能聊上几句的 只不过一开始我自己竖起了厚障壁 04:57 参加多多的活动 把自己放进人海里 见多多的人 聊多多的天 I also sign up I also try to participate in other activities to create some possibilities I could communicate with foreigners I could you know meet more new friends. I try to participate in more activities and competitions. 05:38 我需要抓点人聊天 And I think I need more people. I need more friends. I just need more cause I think it's a mutually beneficial thing when you have more people to talk about and you can have more chances to share with your ideas and also you can learn from each other. 06:37 浪费时间就是利用时间 The so called wasting my time actually is a way to utilize my time. 07:57 英语水平大三直线下降 Um I feel like my English ability is getting lower is decreased 08:51 上学期甚至有精力学韩语 现在法语忘光 英语拉跨 Start learning Korean but now why even English I feel I'm not so good and I feel Fed up with everything 09:16 报了个文化交流活动认识点新的人 角色扮演的好机会 Maybe I could find answers in the literary book maybe I could find answers when I have a conversation with others maybe tomorrow when I step into the new classroom and meet foreigners it's like a role play game you're shy shy person in the past but now you want to be more active you want to be more extroverted so it's okay. 10:31 我发现我自己内向不了一点啊 内向好难受 zip my lips 闭嘴 I can't be a shy and quiet person I just want to show off sometimes. 11:20 梦想职业是当一个新闻记者或者英语翻译这种有互动的工作 12:10 总结：无聊是无聊的 内向是内向不了的 I'm still very. Bored for these days but. I think. I love to be an outgoing person I want to get popularity I want to attract attention 12:33 别想太多 伙计 l try my best to communicate with each other and meet new friends and say whatever whatever I want I want to be more brave and thoughtless you know most of the time we just think too much.

00:38 学生的生活好像很容易陷入无聊 01:36 想逃离秩序 打破规则 A very boring life I mean everyday your life is made up with the same things 03:26 学生和社畜别无选择 物质无法独立 牛马无可避免 03:48 我们抱怨 不满昨天 担心明天 I'mean most of the time we'will argue we were complaining and we're not satisfied about today we're not satisfied about yesterday and we will be quite worried for tomorrow 04:14 死亡是永生？ We could do nothing so what's the difference between us a living person and a dead person When you'gonna be dead person maybe it's another freedom it's another eternal life you mean you'LL never think about and worry about your living problem, health so you have a lot of time and it'S. It's another way to existence 06:04 娱乐的选择多了 获得的快乐却大不如前 Amusement now our Internet our social media does it really work does make us happier or can we find a way to prolong our happiness 对我来说 在课上做自己的事情是我的缝隙 我逃离的窗口keep my body on stay in the classroom but I could control my mind 身体被困住了 我还有思维和灵魂 他们会飘向自由 the most important thing is to squeeze out sometime you know it could do something else 在过去我们很有耐心 不会因为一本书太长而不去读 我们想的是如何填满我们的时间 而不是如何“节约”时间In the past we are not worry about it /entertainments is quite limited 08:35 我们更难满足了 在选择爆炸中迷茫与愧疚 计较功利 无法真正自由 This guilty is unavoidable because the whole society is telling you that real person and we have our own duty and if you could not follow the instructions maybe we'will have some problems to finish our academic duty 好像不是所有人都像我一样讨厌重复与规则 他们享受秩序、安定 I have found there's another group of people who are not worried about their repetition let them feel at ease cause they have a decent job and they have something to do every day they don't want to you know break the rule 我憧憬新鲜事物 遇见新的人I could create my own movie and just let my life be more colorful 12:47 今天去邀请一个我不熟的老师当我的演讲第一指导老师 a clip of my my today I sent a message to one of the teacher I'm not so familiar with this female teacher but finally she agreed with my invitation 15:17 人人都想变得自信 但每次该自信的时候却在习惯性贬低自己 It's quite absurd when people want to be more confident but on the other hand they kept telling themselves they are not good every day they continue self denying but on the other hand they or expect themselves to be better

00:17 Let my episode be longer. 01:57 不必要的开口恐惧 We are just too shy and humble so it's quite hard for me even though I'm an English major student I still worry too much 02:37 即兴演讲：人工智能是否能取代艺术家 Today's topic is can AI replace human artists. reiterate my opinions 重申 03:54 能取代原因一：高效率 低成本 Efficiency and productivity in this way AI can produce a lot of art work in a very fast speed and also it will lower our cost. 05:02 能取代原因二：大数据 个性化 Big data. This big data is very smart and it can tailor its words to meet people's um different needs. So in this way as a result we can easily find AI can be very professional in customization and personalization. 06:55 不能取代原因一：情感共鸣 And artworks like movie books such like that these words which can resonate with people is what we really want and that I think is one of the charms of our artworks. 07:14 不能取代原因二：操控机器的仍然是背后的设计者 And second what behind this professional these smart tools is still the designer. 独特的个人背景 Combined with your personal background. 07:50 如脱口秀演员的段子不能被替代 For example the stand-up comedians. 08:36 总结：在担忧的同时相信自己的创造力无可取代 When we are so worried about it faster speed about AI technology. We we need to believe that we are unique and we are creative we need to be confident to embrace these tools and to let it apply in our life instead of being a replacement. However AI develop develop so fast sometimes we also need to have a watchful eye审慎 09:15 马斯克的暂停键 Elon Musk He said he wanna to uh make a pause... Take it as a warning bell. 09:42 Free Talk时间：找节奏中 find my temple. 10:23 对于他人的成就 有时觉得自己心胸狭隘 narrow minded 10:52 事件一：小学妹英语演讲拿到第一名外卡 嫉妒眼红 I can feel my dark side 发现自己的阴暗面 one of my juniors 13:34 事件二：阅读课看到他人的发言 The first morning lesson the reading lesson. 14:20 语音也并没有很好但敢于表达 14:50 而我总是担心太多 犹豫不前 错失机会 15:31 第一天上重修的语文课 It's a retake of my course because I want to get a higher GPA 16:17 为了搏一搏保研的名额不得不画出更多的时间 17:02 看到低年级的学弟学妹 感觉自己的未来变得暗淡 试错成本少了许多 Like they have the rosy and promising future. 18:58 有时候要允许自己得意一下 This year I still get the provincial scholarship. 今年也拿到了省奖学金 20:15 总是怀疑自己 Most of the time I just underestimate myself I will doubt for my capabilities I will think is I really worse for that like that so so many thoughts. I should regain my confidence bite the bullet咬紧牙关 20:51 找到努力的动力 To find your impetus you know we lose the motivation over cautious and indecissive.过分小心翼翼 瞻前顾后 21:08 我们要有凡尔赛的底气和勇气 It's called humble brag 凡尔赛 Why are you our Chinese are so humble but we are afraid to show off ourselves. 25:15 如果总是担心懊悔 就会失去最可贵的当下 Instead of working hard working hard and seize the moment it's quite important.

bgm：忘不了-童安格 00:52 在家不可能学习真的 And now I'm sitting on a chair of my dorm and waiting for my roommates to comeback to me and stay with me. I have something to finish it ii didn't do anything about study about my work in my home 01:31 五年级以来皮肤就一直起起落落落落落 And also I want to talk about one simple problem is about my skin. 01:38 pimple痘痘 I think the first pimple the first acne about myself when it's pop up on my face I think it'S. About when I was in grade five in my primary school 01:56 当时所有人都告诉我是青春期 会好的 然后21岁了嗯嗯 Young really little so at the time people will tell me uh well tell me maybe it's just a time problem and it's quite normal quite common you don't have to worry about it so I just wait but now I'm already twenty twenty one year old. 03:19 我好像有时候会忍不住自我毁灭 I will do something to destroy all all of it I will ruin myself I don't know but I just have that mental problem um. 03:40 减肥也这样 Also about my weight is also. But on the other hand everyone like me especially our young girls we like to be more beautiful thinner and we want to be loved by everyone want to be popular sometimes and we want ourselves to be healthy um that's good. 05:40 第二件事是返校日在车站和外公saygoodbye We all know that the grandfather have a. You know year GAP between us generation GAP. So it's quite hard and it's impossible to break down that very heavy on GAP between us but it's okay because we are relatives 06:26 我的外公愿意陪我走不熟悉的路 I remember he told me he want to accompany me. To the station you know he is totally unfamiliar with the situation with the environment about this city he just moved to us and now he's really old. 06:47 我第一次觉得这条小路路况这么危险 数次回头看担心外公 I could sense at that time he worked quite closely because of his um physical problems and he could just worked so slowly and I also one he accompany me to the station it's not very long on distance but I think it's a challenge for the elderly people so I really worry about his situation I care about something. I didn't realize in such a short path there will be so many traffic problems traffic risks. 08:02 我也少见地主动拥抱了我的外公 I hugged him I'm not the person very very good at um you know taking the initiative I'm not so active or um extroverted especially 09:51 人是为了爱而活着的 We human. Are born to sing for our love and also to find love and enjoy love 11:52 我们胖了又瘦 我们分手又再次拥抱 这就是人生 但我们要重新启程 去努力 然后看到成果 然后重拾信心 I want myself to be better and be more energetic. I could be proud of myself

特别矫情的深夜一集 有点丧 怕影响心情的话就不必听了 但如果你也和我一样迷惘 焦虑 无聊 那么也许能找到点共鸣吧 bgm：北海道恋人-裘德 02:20 在家减肥简直比登天还难 02:32 自我厌恶 像吹了气的气球失去控制 Hate my body sometimes. Cause I know it likes a balloon. It'will blow up and sometimes it'will become thinner. 03:01 陷入无意义思考 And most of the time I'LL be trapped by a lot of. You know meaningless thoughts. 03:21 我无法给予承诺 我不懂为什么所有人要我给一个清晰的蓝图 我看不到我的未来 我只知道我不还不想稳定 I couldn't give my father a promise I hate stability 04:05 我越发确定自己不想当老师 起码现在不想 A stable job. And to be a teacher to be a teacher it's not my dream. 04:13 我不想成为一个[normal person] 我虽然平庸但我拒绝平庸 To be decent to be well recognized. To be a normal people. To be a normal person but I hate to be normal. 04:59 我还没准备好 我也没有勇气和底气告诉所有人 can't be so convinced can'be so determined to tell everyone. 06:22 可是我的生活啊为什么你总是这么无聊呢 And I hate boring. I hate my life to be boring. I wanna break through it but I don't have the courage. To tell everyone. 06:52 而我也没有赚很多钱 更谈不上自力更生 I don't be independent financially 09:01 我苟延残喘地活着好了 慢慢爬向我的未来 往前爬就是了 Attain your goal The most important thing is you step out is to. Keep chasing. Keep going on and never stop. Never give in. Just do it.

00:23 Part One: Impromptu Speech 无节制追剧是否有利于放松 Topic: Is binge watching a good way to relax Binge watching means a way that you're watching a lot in a even crazy way so the amount is not common and huge. 01:16 报复性熬夜 When you lay down on your bed but you're still scrolling your phone and you want more you desire is not be satisfied by just a a small amount. 02:19 原因：积压已久的压力需要出口 What behind us is the stress problem/ you do everything like a revenge. 02:41 也许会更难入睡 Cause your accumulative stress has already in the edge and it's over the limit you should stand I mean physically. It is not great for your um health like you'will definitely hurt your eyes if you keep watching as as the late of the night and your brain is still working you brain is still feel activated excited. 04:22 我们停止刷手机的原因是被动选择 单纯是我们刷不下去了 Not a decision made by yourself. You'are passive. 05:19 还会影响第二天 vicious circle 05:54 Part Two Daily Talk 两天前的演讲 我和老师互相不认识 但当我站上讲台那一刻我已经赢了 我感受到了一种不平等it is not equal between the two positions the judges and the contestant but I have to take the challenge I have to recite I have to try my best to perform well. 07:20 我抽到的即兴演讲是关于武术 我完全不感兴趣 脑袋空空 但是硬着头皮讲了 But the problem is just out of my expectation. about martial art 武术 raising awareness of the health Or something like discipline 08:24 让我更难过和生气的是我觉得老师根本没有听到我的观点 他们只是抓住我的一点不放 但我无法和其争辩 我被围攻了 I think they do not listen to me very carefully and just grasp something some key points about my speech but they do not listen very clearly but they just turn something like a judge way. 09:05 我是唯一的猎物 接受他们一切的抨击 I am the only target of their work I'am the only target of all their criticism and argument all all the students. I feel like I'm the only aim I'm the only target. And the only victim 09:42 但出乎我意料的是 9个参赛人我居然排进了第三 在经受那么多的连番批评后我以为我没戏了 Probably about nine contestants in all. 09:47 按理说前四是有资格继续参加省赛 And they need to choose the top four to go further. 10:13 即使没有这样的反馈 我仍然为自己骄傲 11:58 我的内心已经很坚定了 我是自己的英雄 I don't care and I will not put that so high cause my heart is already very solid and strong I don't need other to give me really high rewards but in my. In my bedroom from my heart I am already the hero I'am the winner.